The dark sky covered with stars, a moon lighting the young man's path. Regulus Black wasn't just anyone, but in that moment he felt smaller than an omega, his footsteps silent as he crossed the balcony of a room that wasn't his, a house that wasn't his, and he yearned for a man that would never be his,there were thorns that prevented him from breathing properly, the bloodstained petals constantly spewing in his mind coaxing him to be there, he was filthy to the core, rotten through and through. And now he's the real shame of the Black family, chasing a married man, determined to have a little bit of James Potter, he was wrong but his heart was too busy, his body holding on for a little bit of James, if only one. little could be his.
That perfect man, Regulus sighed standing on the wall with his back bent to gain more courage to keep walking, he was disgusted with himself, but he couldn't resist the urge to see his beloved or the one he considered to be his love, after all, there were flowers of blood all around him, all because of him and none because he was aggressive... no, James was kind and Regulus wanted to blame him for being affectionate when all he knew was pain, James taught him to fly and they they were good before Lily arrived and ruined everything, before Regulus was cursed, before Sirius died. And now as a ghost he could venture boldly no one would see him the invisibility cloak protected him from everyone, allowing him to have peace of mind.
Regulus thanked the couple for sleeping soundly casting a spell on Lily and leaving James in imperius he could have happiness a bad happiness... with mechanical steps James sat on the bed Lily behind unconscious, there was a smile on regulus' face that if he saw it himself , would be embarrassed.
"Hello Reg." Potter's warm smile made Black have the courage to expose himself.
"Hi" Regulus said adjusting his voice to not be so anxious.
"You look tired how about sleeping here I guarantee you don't have to worry I did… well, I don't remember exactly, but don't worry."
"Thanks."
James' eyes gleamed with concern, while Regulus was silent for over a minute.
"You can sleep with me, like old times, let's go to bed."
Regulus nodded feeling shaky as he saw the man adjusting himself to make room for him on the bed, placing his hands on the sheet, his gaze drifting to the side of the bed where Lily seemed to be a huge nuisance.
"Don't be afraid, I won't bite you Reg."
James' arms wrapped around Regulus carefully as if he were small and fragile feeling that familiar warmth, Regulus let the first tear fall, James squeezed it kissing his cheeks and then brushing his lips subtly against each other, that friction. Regulus lowered his head, trapped under James' chin, not daring to say a word.
"You are safe Regulus I will protect you Lily and I are your friends."
No, Black's mind screamed, vehemently denying Potter's words. Lily helped a lot by stealing... You're going to destroy me... James don't be so kind...
"I know..."
"You're sick, you're shaking so much..."
Yes sick because of you. Stop hurting me.
"Tomorrow I'll buy you a blanket."
Tomorrow will not exist, will never exist...
"Hey Reg, say something, it's getting lonely in here..."
I shouldn't be here.
James chuckled blowing Regulus' hair to
get his attention.
“Don't forget as long as I'm here you'll be safe."
Safe...
Protected...
Safe...
Protected...
But never... love.
"I love you so much..."
Stop whispering lies...
“I love you so much Lily."
Regulus' breath hitched as he gripped Potter's shirt sobbing.
That love would kill him someday.
....
But for now Regulus could daydream having a place in the man's bed… a pity it never was in James' life, James Potter.
The end