The girl came out the womb sickly. it seemed from the moment she was born she was doomed to the most tragic fate.
A sick lonely life seemed to be what her creator had in store for her from the beginning but he wasn't done making her life miserable.oh no he decided that just being sickly wasn't enough for her to suffer through
It first started in the family a long time ago to the point he's only a blurred face connected to bad memories of assault wrapped up in clouds inside her mind to attempt to rid her of the filth within humanity but as the years went on and more diagnoses came, along with the pills to rid her of the sicknesses within her no matter how futile the efforts have proved to be in the past she realizes the saying It is always the one closest to you that hurts you the most really hits home in her case.
her family and freinds have betrayed her trust time and time again so she drowns in her thoughts and copes with books that make her sob and release the pressure her heart was under from all the hurt and the pain within
no matter that there was no physical scars to show, they were always there hiding under skin taking root within her brain, her heart, and her feelings changing how she acted because she felt like maybe things were her fault
Maybe she should forgive those that hurt her because the thought that there was nothing she could have done to prevent this fate was simply unbearable
So she let's the family and the rotten freinds back in because her fragile heart wants someone to like her
Someone to LOVE her because if she can't find it within them then she sees 6 feet under the ground in a pretty casket withering away into bones day by day minute by minute is the only option because perhaps there's someone to love her in the after life or her next life if on this life all everyone seems to hold towards her is unadulterated hatred towards her for no apparent reason because letting them back in always leads to heartbreak
It's inevitable
She knows that
Yet she keeps trying because
Maybe they changed their mind
Maybe they realized they were wrong about me all along
But that never happens
They never realize their faults
They never take the blame
Because it's always easier to pin it on the scape goat
On the bottom Feeder of the community
Because they go off Scott free
And the scapegoat just gets dug into a bigger hole
And her hearts breaks
Because a kind soul can only take so much before it breaks
And once it breaks
There's no repairing it
You can try to mend it as much as you want
But if you look closely...
The cracks are still showing
The glow that used to be in her eyes is no more
The flinches never stop
The confidence never returns
The second guessing never stops
bending over to please others is always the top priority
It doesn't matter what she wants
Why would it
No one wants to see a broken doll
So she covers it up
She smiles
She laughs
She does everything to make sure the cracks can't be found
Nothing in nothing out
Can't let them see the real me
They'll leave
They always do