Chapter 1
Don't You Need Me Like I Need You
JISOO'sPov
I stretched my arms after getting the much needed sleep. I am having so much up in my sleeve these days. I was working on the ADR of my new series which will be released in January before my schedule here in Paris. It was just some work for a fashion brand that's all I have to do here. Today was the release of my chipmunk's New song with Bruno Mars. I am excited to hear it, cuz she didn't let me hear this song of hers from the album. She just said it was a fun song with her favourite Drinking game. When I played my girlfriend privilege card she just hummed me the tune and said "chu this is all you gonna get, you all also didn't let me hear 'all eyes on me' all you did was humming I am getting back at you" she passed me a wink and left me. So It intrigued me more to listen to it. As always I am traveling today too,blinks asked me once why are you always in car in bubble but for a change I am flying back to....I was interrupted from my thoughts by the notification it was from the YouTube,Her song was Up.
I finished it with a wide Grin all over my face. I totally wasn't expecting this, it's always been her favourite game.But this game had a special connection with us. If she was with me now i would have kissed her hard. I chuckled remembering it,it was my snowdrop shooting time. I had a shooting next day and jenduekie had a photoshoot but our beautiful bratty maknaes had other plan. They brought Soju while demanding us to join and play games with them.
Flashback's (it's not in a specific person's pov)
We both denied it bcuz of our Early morning schedules but they ALMOST convinced us saying we could just drink less, then lali showed her puppy eyes to jendukie, then their she was... sitting with them.chae almost requested me after that saying "Chu....help me... They will make me a third wheel in the game". Who was I to be the only one to deny the fun, also I was a bit nervous about Tomorrow's shoot maybe I could loosened up a bit. I joined them, we spend some time playing chipmunk's favourite game. Luck got our side I guess, Me and jendukie was the one who got least shots. Other two was completely drunk by now and chae was Even mumbling incoherent words leaning on the table.
"They are totally wasted, We should get them to their rooms" I said as I checked the time.
"You look like tomato jichu, you have too much low of alcohol tolerance" she laughed lightly.
"You having a high tolerance isn't my bad, you alcoholic" I gave her a side eye moved towards the drunksé giggled on my own remembering the nickname to her by blinks. "we should get them to their beds, take that monkey girlfriend of yours to the room". I leaned down to the chipmunk and saw her nose being red. I chuckled and bopped her nose.
"You know, you guys should let it out already" She said smiling at us.
I scoffed and rolled my eyes "There's nothing to talk about" to not get into the topic more, "Just take lali to her room, that demon may get up once she is in the room.A reminder I want to have a peaceful sleep" passed a very innocent smile to her It made her mandu cheeks a pale pink coated "thank god one of your rooms is soundproofed " I said smirking. What I said was truth two rooms of our dorm is soundproofed, chipmunk's and that monkey's...no no no not for that reason exactly (hmm that came later ugh*cough* ugh),then why you ask?cuz one like to sing and one like to dance with high volume at anytime of the day or night. Wrapping chae's hands around my shoulder i began to move aiming chae's room. "Goodnighty night jendukie, have fun" i turn back and winked I heard a loud "yaahhh" from the living room but I was long escaped from their by now.
We got into chae's room "let's get you into your bed" said while I removed her hands from my shoulder and made her lay down. I left her room to mine to get a aspirin cause I am sure she will have terrible headache tomorrow. When I returned Lights was dim and Moonlight was glistening in her room .... she was sitting in her bed,As I entered I got her attention but she looked away from me with a small sad smile lingering in her lips 'what's with the smile did something happen and she didn't tell me or any of us is she okay' So many thoughts ran through my mind ,she took the soft toy I gifted her when I got back from a trip which was lying in the bed. It's a bit off to see her like this like She has been awfully quite from the moment I got her up from the living room and now the sad smile, I don't know what is going on her head...was she like this bcuz she is drunk?? i guess it's not, cause I have seen her drunk before too. I watched her silently while she was looking at the soft toy with an expression i couldn't quite decipher!! Is that longingness. She started singing out of nowhere looking up from the soft toy. I don't know how one could sing that beautiful while being drunk
"At least as deep as the Pacific Ocean
I wanna be yours
Secrets I have held in my heart
Are harder to hide than I thought
Maybe I just wanna be yours
I wanna be yours, I wan...na be you..rs "
But what got me was the way her voice cracked and how her eyes was threatening to let out the tears but she didn't let it "She don't need me like i need her, right" she asked the soft toy. And then it hit me she love someone, the thought stabbed me right through my heart I knew I had no chance with her but it hurts more than i expected when I heard it from her. Cuz it has been a long time when she came out to us but I have never seen her looking me or interested in me like that I was always like a sister or bestfriend so I hid my feelings from her perfectly . But I can't be weak I need to be there for her,so I just pushed away my bleeding heart and softly stroked her back "it's gonna be alright chipmunk".
She looked up to me with a small laugh while her eyes glistened with tears and asked "you are too good to be true. I can't even find something to dislike from you when you are all i need." I was confused by her words, maybe she had mistaken me with anyone. But I was interrupted from my thoughts when I felt her hand cupping my face "You know how beautiful you look in this moonlight, It makes me wanna kiss you and scream loud that I love you". I felt my face getting warmer by her words but the reality got into me Her words wasn't for me. "Chae..." I got cutted off when she connected our foreheads I closed my eyes unconsciously but her next words was "why don't you love like I do chu, why"
Shocked was an understatement for what I am feeling now. When I backed off and look at her. Her eyes was closed smiling as she leaned to the headboard mumbling "atleast I got to confess to you". Did she really said that to me????did she really just said she love me?? Am I just hallucinating things??? "Chaeng..." She was not responding.....what the hell!!!! is she sleeping after what she just said. I lightly tapped her cute cheeks 'wait don't distract yourself chu'"Chae..." She hummed while looking at me with half shut eyes. "Did you really said You Love me like Love 'Love' me, like You Love Jisoo...me... Kim Jisoo".
She smiled widely while looking at me lovingly. She leaned towards me while Cupping my face with her hands " I Park Chaeyoung aka Rosé,your chipmunk is in love with you Kim Jisoo. I Love You JisooturtleRabbitkim". I had a huge grin over my face while tears filling my eyes ofcourse happy ones. "I Love you too chaeyoungah, I Am In love with my Chipmunk too".
" I have been in love with you for so long chae" I said while connecting our foreheads together. "Really!!!" I could hear her energetic grin even with my shut eyes "Really". She just hugged me tight, i reciprocated the same energy. When I parted our hugs said "I love you chae" with a beautiful smile adoring her face she replied "I love you too chu". That smile that plump lips was hypnotizing, when I battled my eyes from btw her lips and eyes her smile changed into a slight smirk.She leaned in a bit Cupping my face I closed my eyes voluntarily leaning towards her.
Our lips connected it was a short soft loving kiss.We broke our kiss causing me to blush hard. I couldn't face her or her captivating eyes so I hid my face in the crook of her neck hugging tight. She secured me in her arms, while peppering kiss in my hair then slowly started nibbling my ears. I could feel her heavy breathing moving to my neck then her whole weight was leaning on me. I chuckled knowing that she fell asleep. She was starting to turn me on then slept on me, You really are something else my chaengramji.'My chaengie'it sounds good right smiling to myself I tucked her in bed leaving the room after putting the aspirin in her bedside table.
I woke up with a pretty bad headache "Ugh my headdd" said while clutching my head. I do enjoy drinking but I hate this hangover. Wait how did I ended up in my room,someone should have put me in here I hope i didn't do anything wrong. I don't remember anything that happened, i usually get reminded of my stupid doings which I do while I am drunk bit by bit after I get back from the Hangover. "Chaeyoungahh..." I heard the a voice getting closer to my room. " Don't shout you monkey" i hissed "woahh... You are having it bad than me..I came to wake you up and give..." She stopped as her eyes wandered in my bed side table "ahh....you already have it" I turned to see aspirin already placed in my table who placed that their.... I turned down my thoughts and took it gulping it down. "Why are you looking good when I am going through this horrible headache lisayahh". She chuckled " I am feeling better now,I was pretty much in your condition. I have been up for quite some time, you will be better too."
"Why did you woke up this early when we don't have anything to do today" i scrunched my eyebrows with confusion. "You forgot that Nini had a photoshoot you idiot. I just gave her company in the morning." Our sweet hearted maknae is so girlfriend coded. I smiled hearing it. "Get your ass down and get ready chae we are going somewhere" she ANNOUNCED and left my room without my answer. I am taking back my words she is not a sweet heart she is a devil. "Yahh..I didn't agree coming with you. I am having headache. Go by yourself" I scoffed. She peaked her head through my door "You will get better after eating your favourite pancakes I saved Some for you but if you are not coming then" she passed me so called innocent smile. "Wait for me I am coming already" Her smirk this cunning creature "So you coming with me,don't change your words". I gave her side eye " yeah I will. It's not for you I am coming just bcuz of the pancakes". I got up moved to my bathroom and to do my morning chores. Nothing is better than having good food after a hangover.
I was fully dressed to go out and was enjoying my pancakes now. That monkey was sitting beside me while enjoying the movie that we are currently watching. We were interrupted with a phone call " hey hun" she waved enthusiastically in return "hi nini, how is your shoot going"
"It's going good, i finished shooting an outfit already and I am getting ready for the next one" she said smiling.
" That's good, what's with the call suddenly. You need any help with something or are you feeling unwell " she said getting serious while finishing the sentence.
"Nooo,I just missed you lili" she pouted.
Her worried glance turned into grin " I miss you too nini".
I made faces as if it was cringey "yoo, you guys was together just few hours ago".
"Don't be jealous hubby" Jennie chuckled.
"Go get yourself a girlfriend you chipmunk then you will understand this" lisa gave me a knowing smirk.
"Whatever" i got up to wash my plate while they were ending their call.
"How about I take you to a date after your shoot nini" she asked hopefully that latter would have time.
" Ofcourse, I will love too I will just inform manager oppa of my leaving arrangements" she enthusiastically replied
As I was returning from the kitchen " I need to go lili, I'll meet you later I love you" she said in hurry. "Ok bye, Jen" she replied with a foolish grin " love you too bye, I am ready to leave too"
Words were ringing in my head 'I love you, i Love you Chu' Did I really confessed yesterday no no no it can't be. " Chipmunk, car will be here soon get your bag and come. Let's meet jisoo unnie soon. I have a date to go after that." I was just too stunned to speak i just realised that I confessed my feelings to my love of life and I am already meeting her without remembering it fully 'wow what a life'. " She had a pretty early schedule. She left even before Jennie, we made her drink yesterday..... I was already planning to go to her set. It will be perfect today I could make sure she is okay too" she said while grabbing her belongings. " Hey chipmunk, why are you being a statue move get your bag". I took my bag and left with her without saying anything. "Why is she so weird so suddenly" lisa thought.
We are on our way to the set. I was calm Nooooo hell noo I was just trying to stay calm outside. I am totally freaking out internally at the moment. I don't know what to do, it may be imagination right??yeah it would be imagination. Then I got a flashback she was with the aspirin yesterday, what all things do I have to get reminded of now???. No shit so she was the one who put it there Aghhhh so it's true. Wait she didn't leave me any note today. She always leave one when I get drunk or sick along with the medicine when she is not around the dorm. So she will avoid me now!!! Worse will she hate me now!! I was trying to remember what was her reaction after my confession but all i remember was her shocked face before forcing myself to remember more lisa called out " hey chipmunk, we're here let's go". I looked out in horror 'that was too fast for my liking'.
"Chaeyoungahh, are you ok???you have been awfully quite all this while. Now you look too pale as if you have seen a ghost" her worry filled doe eyes came to my vision,i don't want her to worry
"I am okay lis, Don't worry I was zoning out a bit and didn't realise that we are already here ,that felt pretty fast" I said smiling. I know it's too lame.
She eyed me then sighed " okay if you say so" then she opened the door and turned again "you know that you could talk to me right"
I nodded giving her a sincere smile and she smiled back.
We entered the set with some gifts for the crew so they could treat jisoo well and her favourite foods even her favourite flavoured milk. They were shooting a scene when we got near we silently watched it. She is incredible, she is my favourite actress 'everything she does is you favourite' mind mocked me 'just shut up'. Now "cut" yelled the director, change the lighting to bit lower we are filming the next Scene without a break he gave directions to the crew. Her eyes fell on us and she was shocked to see us ofcourse she would be, we came unannounced to her 'also you confessed to her out of the blue'.
She came to us quickly "Hey, what are you guys doing here?? You should have informed me earlier I would have told manager oppa about you guys". Lisa smiled at her concern "i informed oppa and told him to not tell you, happy to see us" she wiggled her eyebrows. Jisoo rolled her eyes then smiled "ofcourse I would be happy you idiot".
"Jisooyah sorry for yesterday, we didn't knew you had this early schedule." She said apologetically and pouted. Jisoo chuckled "hey, Don't do that... I didn't drunk much. I was completely fine in the morning, but *pouted* I miss my bed though ahh my lovely sleep" she winked. Then her eyes shifted to me and she awkwardly passed a smile 'shit what have I done' i thought. I smiled at her 'she was getting red' and was looking a bit odd also she avoided looking at me. Wait is she angry with me and is she silent just because lisa is here.
I was in my thoughts when we heard from the crew "everything should be in place and order. Kiss scene should be done in one shot it was a request to do it all at one take". Me and lisa shared a look but she turned to jisoo with a evil smirk "chu....you didn't told us about this" she got a glance at me then to lisa while opening and closing her mouth " I...i got to know about this scene would be today...yesterday only...and I...hm.. forgot when I saw all the setup for drinks". " I am gonna record this and tease you to hell. You all tortured for me for that one dance performance,now it's payback time". Before she could say something " Jisoo in your mark" someone called her. She mumbled something to herself " I will be right back" before she leave lisa called her teasing "chu fighting" and she quickly went. Before the scene started our eyes got locked for a second I smiled a little to her but she looked away.
It's been some minutes the Scene started as we don't know when was the kiss so lisa has been recording since the start. "Oh come on stop with the coffee and just kiss already" she whined in a muffled voice. I would have laughed if it was in normal circumstances but it wasn't. I was shifting uncomfortably with the situation I was in... I confessed my love, she's been avoiding me ,now i am going to watch her kiss a man. I know it's just professional from her side but he is getting to do that even before I get to do that ...I mean would never get a chance to do that still...I sighed, Just wow... I was already suspecting him to be liking jisoo, maybe that's why year's of my hidden feeling just exploded and i confessed to her yesterday. But one thing is I can't stand here watch this it's too suffocating. "Lisayah...I just got a call I need to attend this,I am going out" I said in a low voice leaning near her ear. She nodded without looking at me concentrating on the shoot.And I was grateful that she didn't get time to pass a look on me or else she is gonna understand that something is wrong with the situation.