James Potter felt like death, looked like it as well to an passers by. Not that there were any passers by in his bathroom, on the roof he was currently staring blankly at, a small vial in his hand held tighter than his weakening grasp on reality.
He groaned and looked at his watch counting down the minuites untill he could rest, god he was tired. He was sick of working, he just wanted to see his husband again, he missed him desperatly.
No sooner than the thought crossed his mind he looked up and smiled at Regulus leaning over him.
"I missed you" he murmered softly and Regulus laughed softly, almost ghostly, laying on the ground beside James and taking his hand.
James looked at his husband frowning slightly at his wet hair and clothes. "Baby you look drowned" He murmered moving closer to the emotional warmth that was Regulus Black.
Reg sighed and glanced down at the locket around his neck as he pushed back his sopping hair. "You have no idea sweetheart" he whispered but moved closer to James alowing himself to be held. "Im sorry..." He whispered softly. "I'm sorry I left. I thought it would be okay, that you'd be okay...That doesnt seem to be the case does it.." He said softly glancing at the vial in Jamess hand in compleate heartbreak as he wrapped his arms around him rubbing his back.
James gave a humorless laugh and shook his head. " You thought id be okay after you just left me? Reggie you promised you werent going to go, going to do it. You fucking promised me, now look were we are." He said meeting Regs eyes. "You promised youd never leave me again. Its been months Reggie, months of living without you. Its been fucking torture." He whispered tears in his eyes feeling dizzy with grief and something else his confused brain couldn't quite place.
Regulus bit his lip holding james close to him. "Im sorry...Baby im so sorry...I thought you'd be happier without me..." he whispered as James shook his head breaking into sobs.
Sirius walked through the door of Jamess house freezing as he heard the sobs, hed been visiting James every day since Reg had gone, making sure he was coping okay or coping at all for the matter, walking in on his best mates sobs wasn't a new thing. He took a deep breath and made himself and james a cup of tea.
Regulus kept holding james on the floor keeping him close. "I cant stay Jamie..." He whispered. "You know I cant stay here..."
James shook his head and clung to Regulus. "Im coming with you...Please I can't live here without you, Reggie let me come with you. Let me run with you, we'll go there, were no one can find us. No one can tear us apart again, nothing can tear you away from me again. Please Reg..." He whispered desperately.
Regulus shook his head tears in his eyes as he glanced at the vial. "Youre coming with me anyway arent you..." He whispered through his tears as James nodded his body trembling, Reg held him tighter and James clung to him.. As if he was the only stable thing in a crubling universe, which James suposed for him he was.
Reg rubbed his husbands back softly letting james hold him. "Talk to me baby...talk and it will hurt less when we leave..." He whispered and James nodded starting to softly mumble his wedding vows to Regulus under his breath hopping sirius found the letter he left explaing were he had gone as he continued softly whispering to reg.
Sirius picked up the mugs putting them on the table and frowning at the letter as he picked it up.
'Dear Sirius, Im sorry...'
Sirius only read the first line before dropping it and the mug, bolting upstairs. But as he threw open the baathroom door in terror it was to late. He dropped to his knees pulling his best friends trembling body closer watching him murmer under his breath, arms wrapped around himself sirius knew he was haloucinating reg again. Knew James had drugged himself again, the potion had side effects of hallucinations if taken at a dangerous ammount. Sirius knew James had taken it in hopes of halucinating his husband so he wouldnt be alone.
Sirius looked at the vial recognising the poison, his stomach sinking, but as he went to say something, James looked up and met his eye.
"Im going home...Reggie is taking me home..." He whispered with a smile looking happier than Sirius had seen him since Regulus's death.
"Jamie..." Sirius whispered desperatly through his tears. "Stay with me...Please....Please i know you didnt mean to take this much...you didnt mean to actualy...die...Please dont leave, please I need you, Rem needs you, Harry needs you...Please dont go..." He whispered sobbing, but as he watched, Jamess eyes clouded over, his body going limp. His body giving up after months of fighting as he died in his best friends arms.
Jamess body was dead, Siriuss best friend was dead. But jamess mind? His soul? Well they were free. Free to hug Regulus, kiss him in the rain, dance with him, play quidditch with him. Be happy with him. Even just be with him. In a twisted way Sirius knew James was right. He was home. he was were he belonged. By Regulus's side.
Sirius arranged the funeral, his heart breaking with every phone call he had to make telling people. Telling Euphemia and Fleamont made him physicly ill, theyd sobbed for hours holding sirius and not letting him go, sobbing for their lost son, for sirius, for regulus, for James and regs one year old baby who had lost not one of his parents but both. For the life James could have had, should have had.
James was burried on a hill overlooking the ocean, overlooking his husband. Sirius would have burried them together but there was no body recovered for his brother. So he did the next best thing he could, there was a small channel beside the grave were the ocean could wash up beside it, just grazing the side. So James would never be alone, so he'd always have the touch of his lost love. So theyd never be apart again.
Years passed, Remus and Sirius raised Harry the best they could, took care of him and loved him as his fathers would have. Told him stories about them both. About how Regulus died so everyone else could live, how james chose death over a life without his soumate.
Many years later Harry went to visit Jamess grave for the first time as an adult, only to find the ocean had swept it away. Regulus had swept James away. He had taken him home. They were together again.