You are in love
Sirius woke up smiling.
Never in his life had he woken up smiling.
“You’re really ruining my bad boy image,’ he whispered at the sleeping figure beside him. Remus grunted and rolled over, swinging an arm over Sirius’ torso and nestling his head into the crook of Sirius’ neck. “You weren’t a bad boy to began with,” he grumbled. He clumsily reached a finger up to Sirius’ lips, “now shhhhhhh, I’m sleeping.”
Sirius chuckled and placed a small kiss to Remus’ finger before allowing his arm to fall back down to his side. Sirius dozed in and out of sleep for a while longer, subconsciously drawing light circles on Remus’ back. At about ten they felt their phone buzz on the nightstand. They reached over gently, careful not to disrupt Remus, and checked the message.
(10:11)
(gay bitches)
gaybitch2: u still on for later?
gaybitch1: ah yes later
gaybitch1: ……
gaybitch1: remind me what’s later?
gaybitch2: sirius we have had a study date in the books for weeks!!!
gaybitch1: oh shit yeah
gaybitch2: has ur sex addled brain forgotten everything not in the bubble of you and remus ?!??
gaybitch1: that is a wild accusation that I do not appreciate!!!
gaybitch2: mhmm sure
gaybitch2: ok so shall I cancel for later?
gaybitch1: what were we gonna study again?
gaybitch2: I have a project due for my biotech class and you said smth about an essay for ur final piece?
gaybitch1: oh fucking fuck
gaybitch2: you haven’t finished ur final piece yet have you?
gaybitch1: thats presumptuous of you to think ive even started it x
gaybitch2: shall i postpone so you can work on it at home?
gaybitch1: yeah probably, Im sorry!!!
gaybitch1: i’ll go home now and get started on it
gaybitch1: come over later tho, we can order takeaway
gaybitch1: bring cas, and tell mary and lils aswell
gaybitch2: impromptu party so we can all make fun of you and remus being all in love and shit
gaybitch1: i regret it already x
gaybitch2: no take backs!!
gaybitch2: see you at half seven :)
Sirius was trying not to panic, between reuniting with Regulus and pining over Remus, schoolwork had fallen a bit to the wayside. But as their chest began to tighten in that all too familiar way, Remus sighed deeply, burying his head even deeper into Sirius’ neck.
The tightness loosened enough for Sirius to reach out for Remus’ arm, they had discovered one of the things that calmed them most was lightly tracing along Remus’ scars. Bit by bit he began to breathe easier, he had his entire plan mapped out and a base layer painted, really all he needed to do was…. paint. And he had been doing it for years, it would be fine.
Once again their eyes fell on Remus….. his boyfriend. He sat there in contemplative thought until Remus huffed quietly and rolled over to bury his head into Sirius’ chest once again, ‘Stop watching me sleep you weirdo,’ he grumbled.
“As I recall you watched me sleep yesterday, weirdo,” Sirius responded. “Yeah but when I do it it’s endearing,” Remus said with a devilish grin, sitting up to face a very affronted looking Sirius. “Are you insinuating that I am not endearing?” he gasped dramatically, a hand clutched to his chest. “You are endearing in many ways Sirius,” Remus comforted, “staring at me while I try to sleep is not one of them.”
Sirius grinned and quickly kissed Remus, on instinct Remus leaned in to deepen the kiss but Sirius had already pulled back. He grinned that ‘Sirius Black grin’, making Remus’ heart skip a beat. “I’m not endearing and yet here we are, you having confessed your eternal and undying love for me.” “Oh piss off,” Remus laughed, playfully shoving Sirius back onto the pillow, “eternal and undying were never mentioned you drama queen.”
Sirius just smirked and pulled Remus down so he was laying on his chest. Remus immediately melted into them. Sirius placed a gentle kiss to the top of Remus’ mess of brown curls. Till the day he died Sirius would always marvel at the way Remus’ body perfectly fit against every crevice of his. It was as if they were destined to be together, even down to their very biology they were perfect together. Two halves of a whole.
Sirius was just drifting off again when Remus groaned and pushed himself off of Sirius’ chest. Sirius whined with the sudden cold and petulantly tried to pull Remus back down. “Stop being so enticing,” Remus said in fake annoyance, “I need to piss and you keep pulling me back into bed.” “Eloquent as ever,” Sirius responded. Remus ducked his head into the crook of Sirius’ neck to hide his smile.
Sirius let out a low laugh and shoved Remus off of them. “Nope,” they said in a dramatic tone, “go and pee then, it’s obvious you don’t even love me!” Remus slipped off the bed and showed Sirius a certain choice finger before padding off to the bathroom.
Sirius flopped back down on the bed and groaned. He didn’t want to leave the beautiful bubble that he and Remus had created. But he had already told Marlene to invite the others over, and it would be pretty poor form if they didn’t show up for their own impromptu party.
Resigning himself to the fact that the bubble would have to be broken, Sirius stretched before clambering out of the bed. They stole one of Remus' many oversized band t-shirts (this one was Queen, of course) and walked down the hallway to the bathroom and knocked on the door.
“Moonshine, you nearly done in there,” they called out in a singsong voice. He could hear Remus groaning as he opened the door, toothbrush hanging out of his mouth. “Ow meni times ‘ave I old you ot to calb me ‘oohshine,” Remus garbled through a mouthful of toothpaste, letting the door swing open to invite Sirius in.
“Eloquent as ever Moonshine,” Sirius said, a shit-eating grin painted across their face. Remus rolled his eyes, albeit fondly, and spat the toothpaste into the sink. He turned around to face Sirius, leaning his hips against the sink. “Did you really miss me so much you had to join me in the bathroom,” Remus teased.
“Every moment spent without you makes my heart ache Moony,” Sirius cried dramatically. Remus lightly shoved him and muttered something along the lines of ‘piss off’.
As Remus stood there, his pyjama bottoms hung low and no top on, Sirius let his eyes trace the intricate network of scars he had begun to love so much. Remus lightly blushed under Sirius’ admiring gaze and ducked his head. Sirius took a step forward and allowed his forehead to drop onto Remus’ shoulder. He let out a sigh as Remus instinctively wrapped his arms around them, enveloping them until Sirius wasn’t quite sure where he ended and Remus began.
Sirius groaned and lifted his head to look up at Remus, “I don’t want to break the bubble.” Remus looked back at Sirius confused, “Care to explain,” he asked gently. Sirius smiled weakly, “I have to go home and finish my final piece for this term, and then write an essay about it, which means I need to go home now……. which I really don’t want to do.”
Remus laughed lightly at the wounded puppy look Sirius was currently portraying. He leaned forward and kissed his forehead, before resting his chin on top of Sirius’ head. “We’re not breaking the bubble Sirius, your school work matters to you, and it’s important you finish it. It’s not like once you leave my flat the spell is going to break. This isn’t a one time thing, I’m all in if you are.”
Remus said this last bit nervously, worrying at his lip that that may not have been the right thing to say. Sirius pulled back a small bit so he could look Remus in the eyes. “Of course I’m all in.” Sirius’ loving smile had turned into a wicked a grin. “Oh no,” Remus groaned, “you’re planning something.” “You know me too well Moons,” he said, the wicked grin still lighting up his face.
Sirius surged forward again, wrapping his arms around Remus and kissing him so ferociously yet gently at the same time. Remus responded just as enthusiastically, running his hands underneath Sirius’ shirt in an attempt to pull it off. Sirius pulled back and Remus whined, somewhat pathetically, already missing the heat of Sirius’ lips against his.
But that shit eating grin was back on Sirius’ face. “Ok, so here’s the plan,” Sirius starts, “Firstly we are going to have life altering shower sex, then we’re going to get dressed and I’m making you breakfast, after that I’m going back to my place so I can finish, well start, my painting, and you are going to work.” A small blush crept across Remus’ cheeks, he opened his mouth to say something but Sirius held a finger up, effectively shushing him. “Then you Peter, Mary, Lils, Cas, Marls and maybe Reggie is he’s free are coming over and we’re having an impromptu party.”
Remus wanted to argue, that he didn’t want to go to work, and that Sirius really didn’t need to make him breakfast, and that really shower sex is not as easy as it seems……. But Sirius was just looking at him, with a cheeky knowing smile and a loving twinkle in his beautiful eyes. Their hair was falling perfectly despite having had it messed up many times in the last forty eight hours. And despite Remus’ small grievances how could he say no when his boyfriend was Sirius, and Sirius was the most beautiful bastard in the universe.
“Pretty prick,” he muttered under his breath, already smiling as he walked over to turn the shower on and allow it to heat up. “What was that?” Sirius asked, amused. Remus spun back around and grabbed Sirius by the waist, pulling them in close, “I said ‘pretty prick’, because you know fine rightly I can’t say no to anything you just said when you look like you do, and love me like you do.” Sirius smirked but Remus didn’t miss the blush that spread into their cheeks.
“All part of my master plan Moony,” he said, before pulling away. Before Remus could complain about the loss of contact, Sirius had thrown off his shirt that he had stole from Remus’ drawer, and was standing under the warm water, letting it run over him. He held his hand out in invitation to Remus, “Well aren’t you getting in?” Remus laughed as he quickly removed whatever clothing he had on, and jumped into the shower with Sirius.
It was the afternoon and the sun was starting to sink in the sky. Sirius was sat at their easel, in front of them sat a canvas displaying some of their best work. Remus really was a spectacular muse. Inspired by their last project, and everything and anything associated with Remus Lupin, Sirius had gotten lost in his work, it was where time and space didn't exist to him, all that existed was art.
To anyone else it may just have been a willow tree, growing askant a brook, but to Sirius is was so much more. The theme of this assignment was images of nature portrayed in literature. Sirius obsession with tragic characters of course led them to pick ‘Hamlet’ as their literary inspiration. The infamous willow from which Ophelia fell…. or jumped, to her death.
This image had stuck with Sirius the instance he read it. However Remus was everywhere in the painting, the soft waves and lines of the water were the same as his hair, the moss at the base of the willow reflect the colour Sirius saw every time he lost himself in Remus’ eyes. One of the branches had the exact angle of Remus’ jaw, and Sirius had unknowingly painted the pattern of the bark in the exact pattern of Remus’ scars, which he had memorized so effortlessly.
Really Sirius should be embarrassed, I mean this had ended up being an ode to Remus, to the man he loved. But then, one’s art reflects them in many ways, and Sirius could do nothing but giddily grin at the fact he could reflect his love for Remus in this medium.
James came into the room and patted Sirius’ shoulder, scaring him out of his daze. “That looks amazing Pads,” James said, admiring the stunning piece before him. “By the way, Wormy is on his way over with food for the party, and Marls said she’s bringing games… but she said it very mischievously so I’m kind of apprehensive.”
Sirius was smiling at this when he bolted upright, “Fuck Prongs what time is it? I completely got distracted!” James smiled, “Don’t worry, it’s half six and everyone won’t be here until half seven, so you have an hour to make yourself all pretty for your boyfriend.” This last word was said with a teasing tone, resulting in Sirius shoving him playfully as a blush crept into his cheeks.
After some more admiration for Sirius’ painting, James strolled back out to the kitchen. Sirius began to put his paints away, cleaning after himself, just as Effie had taught him. They then had a quick shower, as opposed to the very long one this morning which left Remus rushing to work, and got dressed.
It was a casual affair so Sirius threw on a pair of his comfiest black jeans and the jumper he had stolen from Remus that morning. Of course he quickly outlined his eyes with black kohl, a look Remus had told him drove him fucking crazy in all the best ways. Sirius’ phone lit up and he found himself grinning as opened the message.
(18:45)
(boyfriends <3)
*Moony changed the chat name to ‘boyfriends <3’*
Moony: I’m about to leave now, is there anything you want me to grab in the shop on the way?
Padfoot: awwwwwww we’re boyfriends!!!!!
Moony: that was already established Sirius x
Moony: do u need anything in the shop?
Padfoot: no thank you darling, just bring your wonderful self x
Moony: this 'darling' thing is sticking isn’t it?
Padfoot: oh absolutely <3
Moony: have u not given me enough nicknames already?
Padfoot: maybe, but everyone else also uses those nicknames, I want one that’s just for me, that shows you that i love you in a way that’s just ours
Moony: romantic, pretty prick
Padfoot: you really do know how to romance a guy Moony
Moony: well it worked on you, didn’t it?
Padfoot: that says a lot more about me than it does you :/
Moony: Sirius do you want me to be mean to you? ;)
Padfoot: oh fucking hell
Moony: i’ll take that as a yes
Moony: taking notes for later x
Padfoot: is ur aim to kill me??
Padfoot: because it’s bloody fucking working
Moony: nope, I like my boyfriend very much alive
Padfoot: keep that up and I won’t be
Padfoot: ru staying over tonight?
Padfoot: not that I presumed you would!!!!
Padfoot: or that you have to?!?
Padfoot: really you don’t have to!!!
Moony: Sirius shut up of course I’m going to stay over, packed my toothbrush and everything
Padfoot: u can just use mine??
Moony: I detest you for even suggesting that
Padfoot: you have had other things of mine in ur mouth in the last twenty four hours, why not a toothbrush?
Moony: fucking hell sirius!!!
Moony: I just spat my water everywhere
Padfoot: kinky ;)
Moony: how???
Moony: actually, I don’t wanna know
Moony: just know, I am never. Ever. EVER. sharing a toothbrush with anyone
Padfoot: James and I share all the time
Moony: oh my god Sirius EW
Padfoot: I didn’t realize u were such a germaphobe?
Moony: I’m not, I just draw the line at sharing a toothbrush x
Padfoot: ur tongue has literally been in my mouth and vice versa, how is this any different?
Moony: I dunno it just is!!!
Padfoot: ok darling, I won’t make you share my toothbrush
Moony: thank you
Padfoot: as long as you’re mean to me later ;)
Moony: jesus fucking christ, ur insatiable
Moony: ok i’m leaving now for the bus, see you soon x
Padfoot: see you soon Moonshine!!
Peter was already in the kitchen when Sirius practically skipped out of their room, a huge grin lighting up their face. Peter broke out into a grin of his own, turning to James, they shared a knowing smile. “Why Mr. Prongs I think our brother Mr. Padfoot here is well and truly smitten with a one Remus Lupin.” “I am inclined to agree with you Mr. Wormtail, I hate to have been Remus’ neighbors in the last two days. I believe earplugs would be a suitable investment for all future blupin endevours.” Sirius flipped them off as he walked past them to get the door, which had just been knocked.
“Oi, Mr. Prongs, Mr. Wormtail, shut the fuck up,” he said, not able to hide the grin on his face. Sirius opened the front door and ushered Marlene and Dorcas inside, laughing at Marlene’s wide grin as she produced the ‘Twister’ box hidden behind her back.
Half an hour later, Remus was stood outside the door, he nervously attempted to flatten his curls, which did nothing as they sprung back into their original place. He wasn’t sure why he was so nervous, they were all his friends, and yet he felt as if he was meeting them as ‘Sirius’ boyfriend’ and not just ‘Remus’.
After a couple of deep breathes he raised his hand up to the door, but before he could even knock the front door swung open. “Yeah Prongs I’ll grab the-“ Sirius stopped mid sentence. His breath hitched and a wide grin spread across his face. Quietly he closed the door behind him so Sirius and Remus were standing outside the flat in the hallway.
“Hey Moony,” Sirius exhaled, because despite the fact he was now his boyfriend, Sirius couldn’t help but be weak in the knees at the sight of Remus. Remus stood for a moment, he let his eyes rake across Sirius’ taking in every detail to see if anything had changed in the last few hours when he hadn’t seen them. But no, Sirius was still beauty personified, Remus could hardly believe this was his boyfriend.
With a small smile Remus surged forward, wrapping his arms around Sirius in a tight embrace. He buried his face into the top of Sirius’ head and just stood there, holding him. Sirius enveloped Remus, angling his head so it fit into the crook of Remus’ neck. As they both visibly relaxed Sirius inhaled. Everything around him was Remus. Smell, touch, sound, everything was Remus…. and he loved it. He couldn’t help but think if he never had to move from the comforting yet intoxicating smell of Remus’ neck he would not mind in the slightest.
They stood there for a minute, just holding onto each other, swaying slightly. Sirius slowly pulled his head back to look up at Remus, “Are you ok my darling?” they asked. Sirius didn’t even process the term of endearment he has just used, but Remus was trying not to blush, something he never did before Sirius. Remus huffed as he buried his head back into Sirius’ hair. “I’m much better now,” he said in a muffled tone.
After another moment Sirius pulled back, and let his hand slide down so his fingers were intertwined with Remus’. “Shall we go inside my lover?” Remus groaned as Sirius pulled him inside. “I allowed Moony, and Moonshine, and even darling, but I draw the line at ‘my lover’” Remus grumbled. Sirius turned around and pretended to pout. “Oh but cupcake, I still have so many to try out, for example ‘my Moony’, ‘Daddy’, ‘Hot piece of ass’, I’m still finding the flow on that last one..”
Remus pulled Sirius’ hand towards him and pressed a bruising kiss to his lips. “What was that for?” Sirius asked, pupils dialed and his lips slightly swollen. It was Remus’ turn to grin, “I’ve learned that’s the only way I can get you to shut up.” “Don’t worry Moony, we all know you happen to adore me and my shenanigans,” Sirius responds, once again pulling him towards the living room where everyone was sitting.
“It varies from moment to moment,” Remus grumbles, but quickly follows suit. The couple was greeted with happy hello’s from all corners of the room. James was the first to bound over to them, wrapping them both in a big hug. “I’m just so happy for you guys,” he said, somewhat muffled with his head buried in Remus’ hair. He pulled back and took Sirius by the shoulders, he gave them a stern look before saying “If you dare hurt my best friend, I will never forgive you.” Before Sirius could process this James now had Remus by the shoulders, “Andy if you hurt my best friend, I will never forgive you either.”
He gave them both a kiss on the forehead before sauntering back to his spot on the sofa. Sirius and Remus turned to each other, each sporting a huge smile before bursting into laughter. Sirius sat down in one of the large armchairs and Remus sat beside him, half on his knee, but not wanting to sit anywhere else. Remus had been the last person to arrive, Lily and James were sitting on the sofa beside Mary and Peter. Marlene was sat on the other armchair, with Dorcas at her feet. Regulus was sat at Mary’s feet, allowing her to comb her fingers through his hair. (Regulus let no one touch his hair, so this was a sure sign of trust between him and Mary.)
Remus was tired from work, he let himself withdraw slightly from the conversation, happy to observe and respond when asked something directly. His head was tucked into the crook of Sirius’ neck, Remus couldn’t help but melt into them. He had longed to be this close to Sirius for so long, he didn’t want a single moment more to pass them by.
Eventually some bottles of cheap wine began to be passed around. The heat in the room increased and the windows were flung open to accommodate this. After about half a bottle of wine Remus finally let himself be coaxed by Marlene into playing Twister. Sirius, Dorcas, Mary, Lily, and James eagerly agreed to play, while Regulus and Peter opted to watch the chaos unfold.
At one point Remus ended up with his face precariously close to James’ ass, although Sirius claimed he would love to have been Remus in that moment. In spite of their zumba Dorcas was the first to fall, taking James down with them. This brought out Remus’ competitive streak, which wasn’t ideal seeing as he was now playing against the two most stubborn people he knew. Lily was next to go down, claiming Remus had tripped her and that it was not a valid fall, Marlene, the spinner/judge however overruled her.
Remus angled his head so he good see Sirius, “Oh you are so going down,” he laughed. For the next ten minutes they became more and more tangled together until Remus was sure his shoulders were going to pop out of their sockets. One move later and Sirius was practically on top of him. They were both slightly panting from the exertion. Sirius grinned as he shifted slightly, his thigh in between Remus’.
Remus cocked an eyebrow, but he could not let him win. “You going to give up yet?” Remus asked, pressing against Sirius thigh in a way that made them quietly gasp. “Not a chance Moonshine,” they responded. “Helloooo,” Marlene called out, “Remus put your left hand on green.” Remus did so, jostling Sirius, which elicited another gasp from them. Before Marlene could shout out anymore instructions, a pillow came flying towards them, knocking them both on the ground.
Sirius laughed while Remus grumbled. “Whoops,” Lily said with an innocent smile on her face, her arm still in the air from throwing the pillow. Everybody began to laugh and soon Remus and Sirius managed to untangle themselves. After tidying the game away Sirius and Remus went back to their seats. “How did we end up in such an intimate position,” Remus asked with a small laugh. Sirius winked at him and gave him a light tap on the arse, “We are just always meant to be intimate positions Moons.” Everyone laughed, but none as loudly as Marlene.
“Actually,” she said, “I stopped using the spinner twenty minutes ago I just wanted to see how tangled you could get.” Sirius swatted her on the arm, “You are a menace, and I adore you.” Marlene grinned and stuck her tongue out, but she couldn’t hide the happy smile plastered across her face.
The group spent the rest of the evening passing various bottles around and talking while music played quietly in the background. They talked about everything, from reminiscing about Hogwarts to plans for the future. Remus was once again tucked up against Sirius’ side. Perfectly content to listen, he mostly stayed quiet in favor of hearing Hogwarts stories. Lily would join in with her and Remus’ stories from school, which he would add to if needed.
Remus absentmindedly traced lines along Sirius’ arms, connecting his small, sporadic freckles like constellations. Sirius hummed happily and leaned over to kiss the top of Remus’ head lightly. “I love you,” they said, as if it was instinct, like it was one of the few things in life they were certain of. Remus ducked his head into that space at the crook of Sirius’ neck, that smelt like their cologne, and sandalwood and everything that was so beautifully Sirius.
“I love you too,” he whispered into their skin, a poorly hidden secret and a binding promise.
The last couple of days had been emotionally taxing, in a spectacular way, but nonetheless Remus was exhausted. He felt himself drifting into that place between sleeping and consciousness, a warmth wrapped around him that he later realized was Sirius’ arms. In a place that he felt entirely safe, Remus let himself drift off to sleep. They all began to talk quieter, winding down for the night. Sirius was absent mindedly running his fingers through Remus’ hair, laughing and talking softly so as not to disturb his sleeping boyfriend.
Soon enough Peter and Mary had to leave, James walked them to the door and Sirius gave a small wave from his seat, not wanting to disturb Remus. Regulus left next, smiling fondly at the happy couple, ruffling Sirius’ hair because he knew Sirius couldn’t get up to chase him. Sirius whisper shouted obscenities but Regulus just laughed and quickly ran out the door.
Regulus was soon followed by Marlene and Dorcas. Marlene stood with her arms around Dorcas’ waist, a head resting on their shoulder, as they quietly talked to Sirius. Dorcas reached out and took Sirius’ hand in theirs. “I’m proud of you for letting yourself choose happiness, Remus is your happiness don’t let yourself forget that.” (Dorcas was always a bit of a sappy drunk) Sirius squeezed their hand and placed a quick fond kiss to it. “I love you Cas,” he whispered. Dorcas laughed softly, “That’s the last time I'm being nice don’t get used to it.”
Marlene looked up adoringly at her girlfriend, sometimes she loved them so much it was terrifying, as if all this love couldn’t belong to one person. It was a multifaceted love, as strong and intense as it was soft and adoring. She has voiced this to Dorcas before, Dorcas’ belief had been that in past lives, in every universe, they loved eachother, they were together in each one. The love filtered through, they would know each other and find one another in every universe.
Marlene was gently pulled from her thoughts when Dorcas kissed her on the head and began to walk them towards the door. James and Lily both gave them big hugs before they left, whispering they would meet soon.
It was just Sirius, Remus, James and Lily left in the flat as Lily had also decided to stay over. She and James began to clean up the couple of bottles and takeaway containers, ignoring Sirius’ whispers of protest that he should help, allowing Remus to keep on sleeping. Once they had cleaned up James and Lily stood around in the kitchen just talking and listening to the music still playing in the background.
Lily glanced through to the living room where Sirius was still slowly running their fingers through Remus’ hair, absentmindedly scrolling on their phone. She felt James come up behind her, he wrapped his arms around her waist, and placed his head on top of hers. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen him this happy,” James said quietly, placing a gentle kiss to the top of Lily’s head. She smiled and leaned into James, intertwining their hands together. “I was going to say the same thing about Remus,” she whispered.
They stood there for a moment, letting the calm wash over them. James began to sway as one of his favorite songs began to play in the background. Lily turned around and held a hand out to James in invitation. “Would you like to dance?” she asked, with a sparkle in her eyes. James grinned and took her hand in his, “I would be honored to my lady.”
He wrapped his arms around her waist, and Lily placed her hands around the back of his neck.
You can hear it in the silence...
They swayed happily back and forth.
You two are dancing in a snow globe doing and round.
James spun Lily around as she laughed, her smiling lighting up her entire face in a way that made James fall more impossibly in love with her.
You understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars.
Lily cupped James’ face in her hands. She let her eyes memorize every minute detail. The arch of his eyebrows, the mole above his top lip, the specific honey brown colour of his eyes that she wanted to swim in forever.
I’ve spent my whole life trying to put it into words.
“I love you James Potter,” she whispered against his lips.
You’re in love, true love
“I love you too Lily Evans,” he said back, sealing it with a kiss, a promise, for now, forever, in every lifetime, and every universe.
Lily stopped in the living room on her way to bed, she whispers goodnight to Sirius, placing a kiss on his cheek, and one on Remus’ head. As Lily walked away, Sirius’ gaze dropped back to Remus’ sleeping figure. His face was still buried in the crook of Sirius’ neck, and his deep breathes lightly tickled against his skin.
He knew he needed to wake Remus up to get ready for bed. He would be grumpy about it but he would be even grumpier in the morning if his body ached from sleeping on an armchair all night. Sirius bent over so his mouth was at Remus’ ear. “Remus,” they whispered, “Moony, we should get up and go to bed.”
Remus blearily opened his eyes, groaning…. he did not enjoy waking up. And yet, when he pulled back and opened his eyes he couldn’t find it in himself to be annoyed any more. Sirius was looking at him with a soft smile, slightly smudged eyeliner and warmth in his startlingly beautiful grey eyes. Remus smiled and leaned forward, pressing a small kiss to Sirius’ lips.
“G’mornin,” he grumbled as he stretched, feeling his shoulder and neck muscles popping and cracking. Sirius laughed, “Not quite morning yet Moons, it’s only a quarter to twelve.” Remus rubbed his eyes and sat up, his senses returning to him. “Fuck, did I sleep through everyone going home?” he asked, still bleary eyed. Sirius poorly attempted to stifle another laugh as he stood up, offering his hands out to Remus to help him stand up.
“Yes you did, but you’re such a pretty sleeper I didn’t want to wake you up.” Remus hummed, “Mhmm ok so I can blame my social rudeness on you then.” “Half asleep and still managing to blame me for your problems huh?” Sirius retorted, holding Remus’ hand as they wandered back through the flat to Sirius’ room. “Yep,” Remus said, with a wink.
He let Sirius lead him into their room, “But I’m happy that you’re my problem.” Sirius laughed, “I don’t know whether to be pleased or offended.” Remus smiled blearily, “Yep that’s my sweet spot, I know how to make a man feel special.” Sirius just shook his head as he turned around. He peeled his shirt and jeans off, putting on a pair of oversized pyjama bottoms.
*He turned around to find Remus in the same spot, his eyes raking over Sirius’ bare chest. Remus took a tentative step forward, he held his hand out, pausing, his face asking the question. Sirius met his gaze, and gave a small nod. Remus reached forward and let his finger tips lightly ghost across Sirius’ chest, stopping at the small scars at Sirius’ rib cage.
They were thin precise lines, completely opposite to Remus’ own jagged and random ones. While Remus’ were accidental Sirius’ were purposeful, a punishment for not living a life he was never meant to lead.* Remus let his fingers trail back up until they cupped Sirius’ face. “I love you,” he whispered, “I love every minuscule part of your being.” Sirius allowed his head to lean into Remus’ touch, turning to place a kiss against his palm.
Remus took another step forward, cradling Sirius’ face in his hands. “I love you with my entire being Sirius Black,” he said. He said it simply, like it was a fact of life.
Remus Lupin loved Sirius Black.
Even when he didn’t know him, a part of Remus was waiting for him, waiting to love him. Sirius captured Remus’ lips in a bruising kiss, everything he felt, everything he wanted, every hope, every dream, every past, every future, every universe, it was all Remus.
Remus.
Remus.
His entire mind is Remus, his whole being was completed by his presence. After so long he was finally whole.
As they lay in the dark, still panting slightly, Remus tucked his head back into the crook of Sirius’ neck. He can’t help but think this might be his favorite place in the world. Sirius’ fingers lazily ran up and down Remus’ arms as they lay together. “You’re my entire world,” Sirius whispered into Remus’ ear.
In his favorite place between consciousness and unconsciousness, Remus heard this and pulled Sirius closer. Remus felt the exact same, even if he was too tired to say so, and he knew that Sirius understood.
Everything was Sirius.
In every world it was Remus and Sirius.