I shouldn’t be here. It’s too much for me to see him here, all happy and healthy. But when James asked him to be here two months ago, I said yes and here we are. James shocked the fans and me by saying that he’ll be doing a cover of Taylor Swift’s song “All too well”. So, then he started;
I walked through the door with you, the air was cold.
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow
And I left my scarf there at your brother’s house
And you've still got it in your drawer, even now
Did - did he just change the lyrics from sister to brother? A few fans noticed this as well. Luckily they don’t know that I’m here. His red scarf is actually in Sirius’s house, well he might have left something else there as well if you know what I mean, oops. I focused on him while he continued singing:
Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze
We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate
Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place
And I can picture it after all these days
Our short fling took place in Autumn three years ago. This song fits our situation so well, I can’t even imagine how James must feel right now.
And I know it's long gone and
That magic's not here no more
And I might be okay, but I'm not fine at all
Oh, oh, oh
I’m pretty sure that James looked at me during the “I’m not fine at all” line, but I might be paranoid at the moment. I knew what was coming next and didn’t have time to be prepared when he sang again:
'Cause there we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there
I remember it all too well
We had many car rides over the month, mainly because we had to hide and be a secret from James’s fans and my brother, his guitarist Sirius.
'Cause there we are again on that little town street
You almost ran the red 'cause you were lookin' over at me
Wind in my hair, I was there
I remember it all too well
Photo album on the counter, your cheeks were turning red
You used to be a little kid with glasses in a twin-sized bed
And your mother's telling stories 'bout you on the tee-ball team
You taught me 'bout your past, thinking your future was me
These lines broke me. I was too scared of his fans and my brother's reaction, so I ended things badly. It broke me and James completely.
And I know it's long gone and
There was nothing else I could do
And I forget about you long enough
To forget why I needed to
'Cause there we are again in the middle of the night
We're dancing ‘round the kitchen in the refrigerator light
Down the stairs, I was there
I remember it all too well, yeah
This reminded me of the night that we spent at James’ house and we danced all night in his kitchen. It used to be a great memory, but now when I looked at James while he sang this line, he looked heartbroken and sad. It’s no longer good memory of mine.
Well, maybe we got lost in translation
Maybe I asked for too much
But maybe this thing was a masterpiece
'Til you tore it all up
Running scared, I was there
I remember it all too well
And you call me up again
Just to break me like a promise
So casually cruel in the name of being honest
I'm a crumpled up piece of paper lying here
'Cause I remember it all, all, all
Too well
Now he was staring at me, very mad. I called him about a year ago, trying to get him back but he just screamed at me and said to never call again. It hurt me a lot. I found myself crying while looking at him on the stage.
Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it
I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it
After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own
Now, you mail back my things and I walk home alone
But you keep my old scarf from that very first week
'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me
You can't get rid of it
'Cause you remember it all too well, yeah
'Cause there we are again when I loved you so
Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well
Now we were both crying. Damn, we are fools who certainly still care about each other. At least I do.
Wind in my hair, you were there
You remember it all
Down the stairs, you were there
You remember it all
It was rare, I was there
I remember it all too well
After these lines, he disappeared from the stage. The last thing I saw was a sad face that said “You’re not getting me back ever again, Regulus Black”.
I was crying a lot.