Sirius thoughts
Sirius black was not amused. First thing that happened to him that morning was remus waking him from his sweet dreams by banging the bedroom door, informing him of his earlier deprature to get that ginger girl who was friends with harry, Garmer? Granfer? Or some other thing alike. He lied down on his bed, staring at nothing, his mind went to past, when there was lily and james and remus and him against the world. What had gone so horribly long? Petter betrayed them all, james and lils were killed and remus broke so bad he did not try to keep contact. And himself, well he had years and years of memories of demeantors and coldness and merlin_knows_what other nasty things he was not able to remember. His memory had huge holes, he was acting childish as he was never allowed to pass 21. He had only two moods, angry and indifferent. With harry, well harry made him feel, not indifferent, not some puppet on a chain, a kept man, or a dog that had no bones to chew but his own's. Harry was his sun and stars, his james back in flesh and blood and he would die for him, kill for him. But living was hard, it kept pushing him to a corner until he had no choice but jumping from the cliff in front of him . He knew he needed a healer, he was neither blind, nor stupid. And snape too! By merlin the git had guts, going to that basterd every time. He was not gullible, he knew if snape wanted he could have delivered harry to you_know_who at the blink of an eye and none would be wiser. There was a reason they only had one spy, there were others at first, correct, but not one among inner circle. That basterd noseless monster could read minds like a book and the only one he could not were dumbledore's and snape's. The bloke was not a masochist, he was sure of that, as he saw the way he was traeted by him right after an evening with his royal darkness. All shaking from too many crucios cast on his person and liglimency attacks against his mind. Sirius wondered why everything turned out like thus, the slytherin he was sure he was dark to the core became spy, their only hope and then there was his brother in arms who turned out to be a cowerd, murderer. Snape did not owe them anything, the life debt, if there was any, was long gone, when he first had saved harry from the fall of doom from his broom. He had saved him then from lingering basilisk poisoning and magical exhaustion that could have snapped his core, making him an obscurus or kill him, then from remus at third year, then from the grave yard. Harry was shaken so much after watching cedric die, his parents coming out of the end of a wand, duelling the basterd_who_would_not_stay_dead and then dealing with fake moody. So stressed he had a very bad panic attack and feats of accidental magic, that snape had to delve into his mind and soften the below somehow, right after coming back from that hell of a toture session you_know_who liked to call meeting. The result was a kind of snape, so weak he had to lay low at his place for a week and counting. He still was not able to piss without hovering charms or strengthening potions and that did not make him happy one bit. Nope. It made him want to tear that black hearted monster part by part with padfoot theeth, sure Snape was a git, but he was their git and he was not to be treated like that.
So when the loud bang happend, he was at his feet in a second. There was a scrawny looking boy fidgeting, the grangher girl shrieking in fear and moody and remus pointing their wands at the boy. The boy could be a death eater brat foe all he knew, or worse, A death eater under polyjuice to appear like a kid so he could lull them into trusting him and not harming him so he could off them all. He pointed his wand and shouted :stupefy!
Then suddenly the boy twirled and kicked him in his groin, bited remus hand who came nearer to help him and subdue the boy, and wonder of wonders! the boy plucked moody's false leg, then snapped it in half and snaked his hand around grangher girl's neck and kept the sharp point of the leg, or what was left of that to said girl's throat. A minute after that Snape happened.
Then every thing went to hell, if it was possible to be more messier and awful than what it was already.
Snape went into shock, the girl was in hysterics and the boy lost consciousness. Remus went to her, getting a calming draught from somewhere_he_did_not_have_any_idia making the girl drink that.
Moody as always went to check on the most important asset, which was the spy. Sirius huffed in annoyance. The boy was it.
Surprisingly the unnamed boy was really a boy of 14, who was tired. Nothing to be alarmed. But his magic was twisted somehow. When remus came from up staires successfully putting the girl( granger! Finally he could remember) to bed, he had hovered the boy to a sofa nearby. Moody had installed the leg, again, shaking his head at the readings he got from snape.
:this boyo here has made it difficult for himself. Saved us at the expense of himself, i say. He needs more rest, more draughts and another week.
Sirius was going to argue that they were competent enough to combat a 14 year old, thank you very much, but moony pointedly give him a look saying shut up and think about your sirius jr. Well he know a lost battle didn't he?
Though Moody alerted albus via patronus, albus was too busy to come until tommorrow. Alastor suggested that they transfer granger to hogwarts, as madam pomphery was still availabe, to let the the boy sleep it off with a sleeping draught and babysit snape.
It was mainly okay, but for babysitting duty.
:absoloutly not! He screamed at them. I will not do that at any cost. Why can't moony do that?
Remus eyed him apologeticly: i have a secret mission... that is when he exploded: secret mission? Secret mission! Do we have an inner circle i am not a part of? You realize you are standing at My manner, ordering me about? Why can't albus come get his boy toy?
Alastor glared at him: enough black! You are way out of line!
Sirius laghed bitterly: Oh i am? I am the one out of line? Where were you oh so gentelmanly wise auror when they put me in a cell for 12 years without a thought? No trial, no fucking nothing when the slimy git got what he wanted? Albus fucking dombledore , the mugwump himself bailing him, getting him a professorship at 20, at 20 you believe it? It is completly unheard of. Then the snake became head of slytherin and got the time of his life while i rotted at that merlin forsaken dungeon! Is it not smelly enough fot you? Why the hell dombledore would do that?
And you rem, i trusted you , i would have died for you and again you never even visited me once, just once for fuck sack?
Never questioned them throwing me there, as if i ever betrayed james in life! If the git is not sleeping with the great headmaster... that is when remus slapped him hard enough to turn his head: you..you basterd! You all but cut me out of the pack accusing me of being disloyal before the fidelious was cast. How would i know the shit about who was who? And it was edgar Bones who casted it, so no one but james and pe..petter and you were aware. I fucking came to see you, i came a week later and you shouted at me, said i was a slave of darkness, that i am a...he inhaled, i am a cowerd shitty beast never worthy of your friendship. You shouted and laughed and mocked and screamed at the top of your lungs that you did it! And you question why no one did anything! Albus came trying to use legilimancy and you tried actualy strangling him while he thought you were calm enough and was about to hug you. And in that state you were, there was no way truth serum would work. You were broken and beyond our reach. And do not ever call...call severus a slut or aboy toy or a whore. He is much more than that. He has saved harry time and time again and all he got is me trying to sink my teeth in his flesh for the 2nd time around. You hurling insults and albus to order him around. You think he actually loves being legilimised and crucioed? He hated teaching potions, if it was defence, it was belivable but potions? He was sometimes bored with lily and she was the brightest witch of the time, you think yourself about a bunch of ruddy teens.and being a head is an annoying job requiring acting in loco parentis when the parents do not bother to even acknowledge your efforts. Sure the pay is good, but not for the so much discomfort it brings you.
Moody slowly retreated, activating the floo to transfer granger. Remus was breathing hard and sirius was feeling empty again.
:alright, i will do it.
Then remus left him too.
With a boy on sleeping draught, and a slightly feverish Snape.
He went to find a bottle of firewhiskey or so.
He woke up again, at night at a soft whimpering. He went to find the source and it was snape. He cursed and shrugged, let the bat suffer for all he cared. Then went and spelled a nutrition potion in boy's stomach, whatever he was he was not the kind who starved children, even his parents were not that heartless.
Snivelous was whimpering, again. He sighed and went to sit against his transfigured bed. He raised a hand and touched his forehead, but he recoiled his hand at once, whoa! No wonder he was this miserale. The man was burning up. He tryed summoning kreacher, to no awail. Then went and hurried down the staires, to the potion lab. Grabbed as much as fever reducer and pain relief as he could. One or two sample of strengthening solution and a nutrition potion.
Sniv was kind of hallocinating now. He cursed again, if only he had gone to him earlier. He spelled the fever reducer and pain potion, then waited for the fever to subside enough to give him the nutritive one. A moment after, he fluttered his eyes. Sirius hesitativly called him: Snape? And tried to steady him by his hand.
He flinched back...: no touching! No touching please!
Sirius cringed back instantly: alright, alright, I wasn't ganna give you a disease or something.
Snape then franticly tried to sit up: Mycroft!Mycroft, where is he? Is he okay? Is he...
Sirius thought for a second, was it the boy's name? Then tried calming him: is he the boy? The name of the boy you legilimised?
: yes!merlin is he...did i.. i did not hurt him,did I?
Sirius shook his head; no he is alright, sleeping down the hall. Do calm down now damn it!why it is always the hard way with you?
But snape was trying, and failing to sit up: i need to tell albus, i need.. albus..where is albus?
Then sirius became angry, why everyone he knew called dombledore by his family name, or headmaster, or even professor, even hogwart professors and staff and heads did just that, order members too. But this snake, this death eater scum called him that? And fuck it all albus always called him my boy. He drawed his wand and put the git to sleep. He went to get some hour of his sleep too, it was not as if he mattered, to any one.
When his stomach woke him, it already was morning. Albus was petting snape's curles( as the basterd did not brew potions and took a bath yesterday, with no time to put nasty oil, merlin know what for, on his head, his head was a mess of curls) almost fondingly as he slept.
He could not Feign sleep then, sat up and, said hello and stormed to the kichen. Remus was there fondling various pots and kettles, attempting to prepare a somewhat presentable breakfast. That was when moody arrived: anything on the boy?
Sirius said as he picked up his cup of tee: a name, mycroft. Snape said that last night.
Albus came at that moment, a hand hovering at Snape's back in order to save him if he staggered. Snape sat at the table, no hello, no manners what so ever, took a potion vial out of some merlin knew where and drank it. He instantly became less pale: Albus, I think the matter is of most importance the memory i attained...is by no way false. But I think, if what i think is what it is, I suppose at least all present now, except black of coarse should watch it.
Albus chuckeled at his behavoiur: now now my boy, I hear sirius took care of you last night... severus rudly interupted: took care?took care! As if! He stalled enough my fever got so bad i could not understand what i saw, hallocinating i mean, then gave me those sodd, albus frowned at him, ok .. the potions brewed by tonks of all people!
Remus said oh, i don't suppose that was on..purpose?
Sirius huffed: i was sleeping you know? Some of us are not bats living at nights snivelous!
Albus knocked at the table forcfully: boys!
They both cowered.
Albus sighed: you propose all watching it?
Snape nodded in agreement.
Albus pulled a pensive out of nowhere. Motioned snape to drop the memories. And that was the begining of end.