Chapter 4 pt 1
"I can stay here to finish my homework?" George asked standing in front of Snape's desk "you should be at lunch" he didn't look up from his paper "I'm not hungry" in fact he barely ever got hungry anymore,
"quietly study, that means no talking aloud no leaving the room until the end of lunch"
"What if I finish before then?" George asked looking at the small bit of papers he had in his bag "bring them to me and I'll look them over" George nodded and sat back down. Sanpe wasn't one to help with school work but George had no problem with that.
Fred usually help him, 'fred' George thought to himself if felt strange to think about him, he felt a sharp pain in his left arm as his right hand dug into it, it hurt but he didn't stop, didn't stop when he felt a cold liquid run down between his fingers, it was like he was stuck couldn't stop, it made him feel completely
"George?" He looked up quickly, ripping his hand away and pulling down his sleeve, "I didn't see you at lunch so I went to look for you" George nodded "come on I'll walk you to class" Lee smiled at George, suddenly he felt a sharp wave of guilt.
He looked over to snape who just gave him a nod, George got up and left of with Lee, "I'm cold" George muttered "here" Lee handed him his robes "thanks" George couldn't look at him, he had no reason to hurt himself of someone who didn't even care about him, he had some who loved him and yet he was still selfish enough to do this to himself, his white sleeve was soaked through with blood, and he had to hide it somehow he'd just wash the robes later and Lee will never know. "Thanks Lee you're a great friend " George smiled at him before walking into class, Lee gave a discounted smile, he liked George more than just a friend and he knew George knew.
♡◇♡ later that day ♡◇♡
"So you maybe wanna spend the night with me?" Lee asked George as they walked to there dorms "hm?" George looked up at him "come on mate, please?" Lee walked backwards facing George, George just looked at him then back into his bag, " your coming to dinner right?" Lee asked, George froze up, "um y-yeah, of course" George looked down at the floor slowly panicking as they walked to the great hall 'what was he going to do, what was he going to say, it had been ages since he sat there with everyone else, there got to be some lie to come up with, right?'
"Lee?" George stopped walking and looked up, "yeah, something wrong?" Lee asked "I actually have a really bad headache, but you go on don't worry about me" George fidgeted with his hands looking anywhere but Lee's eyes, "alright, hope you feel better" Lee said giving George a smile, yes George felt bad but what else could he do? Force himself to sit there just to vomit In front of the whole school, maybe it's a bit over-dramatic but at the moment it seems like pretty sane thinking
The slow and painful walk back to his dorm was pure hell, and once he got there and saw Fred there as well he almost walked out "fred?" George asked quietly. "Yeah?" Fred asked looking up at him "are you um…ok?" He was confused, Fred was only ever in the dorms after 1:00 am, "yeah just a bit sick" he smiled, he voice sounded weak, and at that moment George wanted to take care of him, it was like this uncomfortable urge to care for him "hey don't sit so close I don't want you getting sick to" Fred laughed, George nodded, George wanted to say something but nothing came to mind
"George why don't you come back later I really don't want you getting sick" George nodded and left, everything felt so strange, it was like a rush of emotion had hit and he didn't know how to feel.