i saw sparks
the two marauders strolled back onto the stage, the audience roaring at their return.
“thankyou everyone for your patience!!” remus started
“we have recharged our emotional batteries and are ready to go” he joked,
their fans laughing along with him
“ok,” mary took over
“this next one is nice and upbeat, this one written by marlene.” she smiled
“marls, as you might know was always smiling, especially at dorcas” the crowd chuckles at that
“so we chose a nice upbeat love song she wrote to sing in her honour” she took a deep breathe before continuing
“this one’s for two of the most in love people i’ve ever met, i know you’re up there together singing along with us.”
“this is ‘more than a woman’”
the crowd cheers as loud as they can
the first note plays, and the screen changes once again
“Oh, girl, I've known you very well”
a clip from dorcas’ youtube channel plays
“I've seen you growing every day
I never really looked before
But now you take my breath away”
a video of the two of them swimming in the lake at hogwarts
“Suddenly you're in my life
Part of everything I do”
a photo of them with their christmas tree they had just built
“You got me working day and night
Just tryin' to keep a hold on you”
marlene staring at dorcas with a sappy smile at a concert
“Here in your arms I found my paradise”
a cycle of photos of them clinging to eachother
“My only chance for happiness
And if I lose you now, I think I would die”
a photo of them simply beaming at eachother
“Oh, say you'll always be my baby, we can make it shine”
a video of them attempting to do the tango
“We can take forever, just a minute at a time”
them doing the yoga challenge on dorcas’ youtube channel
“More than a woman
More than a woman to me”
marlene proposing with a candy ring
“More than a woman
More than a woman to me”
dorcas asleep on marlene’s lap, while marlene is frantically shushing the camera man
“There are stories old and true
Of people so in love like you and me”
dorcas crying over a book while marlene sits there trying to comfort her by pulling weird faces
“And I can see myself
Let history repeat itself”
dancing at remus and sirius’ wedding
“Reflecting how I feel for you
Thinking 'bout those people then
I know that in a thousand years
I'd fall in love with you again”
them singing to eachother at one of the marauders concerts
“This is the only way that we should
fly”
on a boat pretending to be jack and rose
“This is the only way to go
And if I lose your love, I know I would die”
dorcas doing a uno win victory dance with marlene laughing in the background
“Oh, say you'll always be my baby, we can make it shine
We can take forever, just a minute at
a time”
photo booth photos
“More than a woman
More than a woman to me”
videos of them singing together
“More than a woman (ooh, my baby)
More than a woman to me”
“Hey”
“More than a woman
More than a woman to me (oh, so
much more)
More than a woman (oh, baby)
More than a woman to me
More than a woman
More than a woman to me
More than a woman
More than a woman to me
More than a woman”
remus and mary sing the last lyrics dramaticly as the screen flips through what seems to be hundreds of photos of two of their best friends, who died so in love.
as the song finishes, remus looks up into the sky,
“fucking hell… i miss you guys”
he whispers, a tear sliding down his face.
the crowd roars in the background as he takes deep breaths, preparing himself for the next song.
mary walks over to him, pressing her forehead against his
“he would be so proud of you.” she whispers
she turns away before he can reply.
he shakes his head to focus once more, looking of to the wing of backstage, eyes connecting with mrs potter as she sends him a soft smile and a nod
walking up to the mic he fiddles with his guitar strap. one that sirius had given him for his 21st birthday.
“ok so this next one is going to be a very hard one for me so if i stop to have a cry just ignore me” he jokes
the crowd laughs sadly
“ this is a song sirius wrote for our anniversary one year, and i’ve kept this to myself for years and years selfishly because i wanted to keep it just for us” his eyes were glassy as he continued,
“but sirius always wanted the world to know how much he loved me, and i like to think he would be proud of me, and that he can hear me when i say i will spend the rest of my life shouting from rooftops about how much i love him.” the crowd was crying with him, and he could see mary crying beside him, as she reached out to hold his hand for comfort.
“so he knows when i see him again, that i waited. that there will never be anyone else, that he was it for me. and i miss him every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day.” he breathed heavily, trying to control himself,
“this is a song called ‘sparks’”
the crowd cheered for him as he played the first cord
“Did I drive you away?”
a picture remus and sirius, the day they met
“I know what you'll say
You say, "Oh, sing one we know"”
remus and sirius singing karaoke
“But I promise you this
I'll always look out for you
Yeah, that's what I'll do”
a video of sirius reading to remus when he was bedridden and sick
“I say, "Ohh"
I say, "Ohh"”
sirius with a red face, age 15, after kissing remus in a game of spin the bottle
“My heart is yours”
remus holding the camera up for a selfie, with sirius kissing his cheek. after the spin the bottle game and confessing their feelings for one another.
“It's you that I hold on to”
the pair walking down a grassy path, remus’ arm around the smaller boys waist
“Yeah, that's what I do”
a photo of sirius standing on the tips of his toes to kiss remus on the cheek
“And I know, I was wrong
But I won't let you down”
remus smiling into the camera as sirius stares lovingly at him, taken by mrs potter at their graduation
“Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, I will, yes, I will”
a video of the both of them getting down on one knee, laughing as they realised they both planned to propose on the same night. at the same time.
“I said, "Ohh"”
a selfie taken of them clinging together one cold morning
“I cry, "Ohh"”
both of them crying happy tears at their wedding
“Yeah, I saw sparks”
a video of them that james took, first week of first year.
“Yeah, I saw sparks”
a photo of their friends right before a game of spin the bottle, only sirius and remus are staring at eachother too much to notice
“And I saw sparks”
a video of them slow dancing at their wedding
“Yeah, I saw sparks”
a photo of the two proud godparents, posing with baby harry
“Sing it out”
remus finishes the last few lines facing the big screen, a quiet whisper of “i miss you pads” can be heard across the arena.
he cries into his hand for a few beats, pulling himself together.
after a moment he turns back around to the crowd, who are a mixture of sobs and cheers
he smiled softly at mary, who tilts her head in a silent question.
he sends a nod towards her before taking up the mic again.
“so that was sparks” he chuckles as the area screams again
“we are going to take a quick break, so if you would like that bathroom or to buy food, please go ahead.” remus starts,
“when we get back we have two final songs for you guys. thankyou for your patience” mary finishes, before looping her arm through remus’ and pulling him off stage with her.
as soon as they are off the stage he breaks down, monty rushing over to catch him before his feet give out from underneath him.
“i miss him monty i miss him so much” he cries
“oh kid” his father in law sighs
“i miss him too” he murmurs
“i just want him back, god i want them all back” remus sobs
fleamont pulls back to look him in the eyes,
“i know, i know kid, they would be so so proud of you, but they are gone.” he starts
remus sobs harder at that
“but remus you will see them again. you get out on that stage and sing for them because i just know they are listening. they are always with you kid, live for them.” he finishes
remus wipes his tears a well as he can and nods, going back for one more hug before going to find mary.
he finds her talking to mrs potter, who is holding her face between her hands and whispering softly,
remus waits a few steps away before they pull apart and mary joins him.
“how do you do it?” remus asks in between sips of water
“hm?” she tilts her head in question
“it’s just” remus starts
“i keep breaking down out there and i don’t know how you handle it all?” he hesitates
“why can you handle all this and i can’t?” he questions
mary smiles softly at him
“we all handle grief differently re you know that, you know the first year after the accident when we got harry you did everything for him. i was there re but i could barely look at him sometimes because he just looks so much like them and i was angry. i didn’t want to be angry at him so i grieved them in my way so i could be there for harry. i’m at peace with it, but you never got to really grieve them, because you told yourself you had to be there for him.” she looks him in the eyes as she speaks
“you’re finally letting yourself feel it. and it hurts more than you would think even after all this time.”
remus tearfully grins at her,
“sometimes i hate how perceptive you are”
mary huffs out a laugh
“i know you remus lupin. you know i do”
“i love you mare” he murmurs
“and i love you mr lupin” she kisses him on the cheek, leaving to go talk so some stage manager
remus sits there in silence for the rest of the break just thinking.
thinking
thinking
thinking