‘Remus are you in there?’
‘Sirius told you to fuck off’
Sirius peaked his head through the curtains of Remus’s bed with a look of Concern on his face
He was lying in his bed facing Sirius, the blankets pulled up to his neck. He rolled his eyes and rolled over to face away
‘What did I even do to you?’ Sirius exclaimed tossing the curtain open and throwing his arms up
‘Sirius!’ Remus shouted I’m only going to say this one more time. Leave. Me. Alone!’
There was a pause Remus thought maybe Sirius had shut up and left him alone, but much in classic Sirius black fashion he didn’t.
‘You better tell me how I fucked up so badly to make you make you throw this hissy fit!’ He shouted exasperated
Remus tossed off his covers sitting up to face Sirius. He pushed him away from his bed walking towards the door. Until he felt Sirius cold hand grip around his wrist, a shiver went up Remus’s spin at the contact.
‘Sirius, I won’t ask again. Fuck of.’
Remus looked behind him tugging his arm away from Sirius
‘No! You're staying here till I know!’ He shouted
‘Fine! You wanna know so badly I’ll tell you!’ Remus shouted back feeling a tinge of guilt seeing Sirius pained expression. But it got quickly diminished as soon as the shorter boy regained his composure and stared at him angrily.
‘I don’t understand how you could keep doing this! At every single party I see you with a different person making out on the couch, I don’t get how you don’t see how it’s hurting me! I don’t know how it hasn’t occurred to you that you can’t walk all over people's hearts and can’t deal with the consequences!’ Remus yelled out starting him straight in the eye tears burning at the corners of his eyes
‘Remus-‘ Sirius started
‘No, I don’t want to hear it. Not now, not ever!’ He snapped Turing back to his bed
‘Fine.’ Sirius said
Remus lay in his bed silent tears rolling down his cheeks
How could he not see it, why doesn’t he understand that I would do anything to be the girl on the couch with him. He’s a right idiot.
He lay there for an hour longer till each and every one of his friends had come up. Except for Sirius Black.
It was around 12:00 when he finally came back. Remus listened silently as he heard the bathroom door shut and Sirius brushed his teeth and put on his pj’s. He heard as he made his way to his bed directly in between James and Remus’s.
Then there was a whisper, a silencing charm and a real shity one at that. Remus could still faintly hear Him climb under the covers and sob. Quite sobs not many people would hear, other than Remus who had spent hours listening to Sirius memorizing each sound and movement he made.
I’m gonna regret this Remus silently creeps out of his bed and top toes over to Sirius
‘Sirius?’ He whispered
He poked his head out whipping a tear of his cheek
‘James? Is that you?’ He squinted a confused look on his face
‘Oh it’s just you moony, er- Remus…’ he said quickly drying his face with his sleeves
‘Can I come in?’ Remus asked tentatively.
‘Why?’ He asked
‘I want to talk, please?’ Remus answered.
‘Yeah, fine,’ he said, shifting over to make room.
Remus climbed in next to him, their faces 3 inches away from each other. He placed a silencing charm taking a deep breath before he spoke.
‘I’m ready to listen, if you’re ready to talk’ Remus spoke calmly staring into Sirius’s eyes like he was trying to figure out if he was about to snap at him to get out.
‘But first I need to say something, I have no right to decide who you can go and make out with, it’s your choice not mine and I stepped out of line…I’m, I’m sorry.’ Remus whispered
‘Remus, I-I don’t know how to say this…I think’ tears started to roll down his face
‘I think, I’m in love with you…Right here right now I feel more than I ever have with all those others…’ he choked out ‘I don’t know why I kept doing it, I just felt like I had some duty to complete, to convince everyone I was fine and was out partying and having but but I wasn’t each time one of those girls was clinging to my side I felt nothing’ he finished
‘Pads?’
‘Yes.’
‘I think I love you too…’ Remus said unsure how to react
‘What dose it mean? for us’ Sirius broke the silence
‘Dunno, for now I just wanna sleep’ he whispered
‘Yeah,’ Sirius breathed a small smile forming on his lips
He tucked himself gently into Remus’s arms who wrapped himself around him gently and held him right.
‘Night pads’
‘Night moons’
Remus tiredly blinked down at the boy wrapped in his arms and smiled
He loves me
He placed a gentle kiss on his head before drifting off to sleep.