Going on a hiatus
Hey guys! I'm going on a hiatus. Yeah, I know, two months of not uploading and you're getting another author's note. I know you guys want to know the reasons. Well, there's lots of them and I don't mind sharing it to you because I just want you know the reasons why.
1. Motivation.
I feel like every time I'm writing this story, it feels like a chore now. There are a lot of reasons why I feel like it's a chore and it will be explained on the numbers, but mostly, I am just having major motivation problems. I don't want to write this story like I'm doing a chore and forcing myself to finish it.
2. Personal life.
My personal life is pretty much getting in the way. My hours had been cut, I'm trying to make ends meet, and I barely have some time for myself. Not only that, but during work, I had been asked out by men while I was working. Mind you, that I'm a cashier/customer service and it's my job to be nice. I'm being paid to care about customers. Yes, I made small talk because that's part of my job. So now, I'm being paranoid now because I was asked out by a regular, who is an older man and I'm old enough to be his daughter! I'm dreading to go to work and my mind isn't in the right place.
3. "Constructive Criticism"/Comments
Yeah, you guys saw this coming.
After the last chapter was posted, the comments and bookmarks had became very malicious to a point where I'm actually afraid to continue this story. I did block, mute, and everything I did, but it still kept coming and slowly, I kept being unmotivated.
Guys, I never asked for constructive criticism. If I did, I would've mentioned it in the notes. Call me touchy all you want, but as I said before, I never asked for it, if I did asked, it would be in the notes.
Now, the reason why I brought up 3 was because there was one thing I never told you guys. I feel ashamed that I didn't tell you guys this and I thought it didn't matter because I never wanted to bring it up, but now I have to so I could explain all the writing problems.
I have a learning disability and dyslexia.
I struggle with reading, writing, and speaking all the time. Even at work too!
That's why if you see me doing trail and trial, lair and liar, son and sun, and brain and Brian.
That's why!
I try to control it, I really do. Even when I edit. I don't mind if you guys pointed out that I did trail and trial, but everything else, really?
Should I not be writing when I have a learning disability and dyslexia?
Yeah, I shouldn't, but here I am.
You guys can call me "touchy", but just try to be in my shoes. These things kept going on and on for each chapter you write and it just keeps getting worst and no matter how much you try to address it or do everything you can to block and mute everything, it just keeps getting bigger and bigger.
Both of 3 and 2 caused my motivation to dwindled and it's becoming a chore.
I made this story just to share and have fun.
I just want to have fun guys. That's all I wanted.
Am I abandoning this story?
No.
Will I come back?
Only when I feel motivated, passionate, and have fun to write this story again.
I will also delete the other author's notes and this one because apparently I'm too touchy to address my feelings and concerns. After I sort out everything, first.
Anyway, for those who stuck by me, thank you for putting up with me. I really appreciate you guys.
I'm sorry you guys would have to wait for a while for the next chapter, but right now, I just need some time off of this story.
I'll see you guys when the actual chapter is uploaded.
Thank you and I'm sorry.