Chapter 15 Daylight
As Elizabeth grew up her curiosity for the secret of her family and the secrets her father was scared or also grew alongside her, she was a curious kid of course she took that from her mother, even at Hogwarts people found it hard to think that a family like the Black’s could have a child so sweet and cheerful, sure she was not the only nice Black family member, but after all it was strange and hard to think of a Black being so sweet, but she didn’t care, she was use to people judging her by her family name but she was ready to prove them wrong and change that, sure it would be dificult because she was trying to clean a family name that had years and years of not bad reputation but they werent known for being the nicest or less conservatives families.
She was back home after the first trimester at Hogwarts, it was winter break so she was back home, of course her dad came to pick her up from the station, and of course people were giving them looks when they were together, Dorian always keep a protective hand around her, she knew her dad wanted to protect her from what people were saying, but maybe back then she would care and ask why people talked bad, but now? She didn’t care what people though, of course she knew that there was something hidden and that there were a few things that she didn’t know about and didn’t understand when people talked bad about certain thugs, but she was determined to find out what her dad was hiding her and find a way to make her dad open up and try to make him see far more from what he was taught as a kid, she knew it wouldn’t be an easy task because there were probably layers and layers of trauma and issues buried deep inside, she was aware of that, but she was determined to help him and change that.
“Dad” she asked as their were in the car on they way back home “Yes love?” he said, his eyes glued to the road “You were prefect once you attended Hogwarts?” she asked as she looked forward “Yeah, I was, why you ask?” she looked down at her lap a bit embarrassed “Oh hum…Mcgonagall was showing us around and show us the prefect’s wall and I saw your portrait, you looked really cute when you were younger dad” she giggled a bit , Dorian chuckled” Oh I’m up there…?” he asked, he was surprised that they actually placed his portrait up there, sure he knew that all prefects were hang up there, but he also knew that only the “good” ones were hanging on the big walls from the hallways, so he was a bit surprised “Yeah! I asked Mcgonagall, and she said that she hang it up alongside Madam pomfrey!” she said with a smile.He remembered how Mcgonagall always looked out for him, and she appreciated that, same did Madam Pomfrey, he knew that after all the time he spent in the infirmary she will end up taking a liking to him, he felt nostalgic remembering when he was back in school, he kind of missed those times “Also, Madam Pomfrey gave me something, saying it was for your mark on your for arm” she said that as she looked at the paper bag she had next to her.
That was when he remembered what she was taking about, about his dark mark….how much did Madam Pomfrey tell Elizabeth about it? or worse, how far did Elizaveth asked about…? He knew his little girl was a curious thing, and she always wanted to know more about things specially things about her dad “Did she tell you anything else?” he asked fearing that she knew “Hum no that i don’t remember now” she was a bit confused on her dad’s tone “Why? everything alright dad?” she asked confused by her fatehr’s sude worry, Dorian looked at her, he didn’t know how to answer that, so he just did what he know, run away from the situation and lock himself in his office, he was always a coward when it came to his past, he knew that somehow the truth would come up eventually but he refused to accept that, so thats what he did, he got up and went to his office looking himself inhis office and drowning his fears in alcohol, Elizabeth stood there worried about her dad, but she knew better than to give him space and let him have time alone.
Dorian keep drinking, his mind full of thoughts and worries, he didn’t want his daughter to see the reality of their family, or his true selfe, he wasn’t going to let her see him as what he truly was, or more like what he considere himself as, a manipulative and selfish monster, so he drowned all those thoughts in alcohol, his mind going back to that memory when he felt like the only soulution he had was to give into the madnes and darknes of his family, and keep the “family tradition” and marry one of his cousins to keep up the blood line, to follow the dark lord, like how he was meant to do, he hated that, but back then he thought that was the only solution and scape he had from everything.
But in reality that was only making him getting in the black hole of his family even depper, he could feel the voices of his deceased parents ringing in his ears, telling him that he ruined the family line, that he was stupid for not trying to have another kid with his wife before she passed, or his brother Sirius’ words the night he left, how he called him a heartles manipulative monster, or how Regulus compared him to their father, they weren’t wrong, he always messed up things, he couldn’t wrap it up how Annabenth saw beauty and kindness in him, or how his daughter saw him as the most caring and nice person, he was a monster, he didn’t deserve any of this, knowing that having a kind wife and daughter felt like a punishment, only made him feel even worse, how can two beautiful and nice souls love and care for a monster like him?