Jealousy, Jealousy
Dorian was the typical kid who just wanted to have fun with his friends at school, but the only problem was that he didn’t have many friends, so he spent most of his time alone in the library reading or doing extra homework that he personally asked for. The teachers didn’t complain since he was an excellent student.
One day when everyone was preparing themselves for the yule ball when suddenly he heard one of his roommates having an argument with their partner, he didn’t want to intervene but he had to since it was turning into a physical argument and he didn’t want to have a person knot out on his bedroom after that Dorian's roommate thanked him and they spend the night together looking and talking about other students and how silly some of the professors were when it came to parties or dressing fancy “Goodness have you seen how Slughorn dances said Dorian “Well not everyone can afford for some fancy ass dance classes you know?” said his roommate “Gosh do you ever shut up about your wealthy family or your stupid money?” said his roommate, before leaving him alone, like always he was always alone… “But I haven't said anything about-” he got up and bumped into his brother’s friend group “Hey watch where you are going rich boy, “said James looking at Dorian “I-I’m sorry…” said Dorian leaving the grate hall and heading to his room, but without passing next to the guy who was trying to kick the shit out his roommate “Oi little shit! You think you can avoid me that easily?” said the guy, Dorian looked at him and started running trying to lose him, but he tripped over and fell down.
After being knocked out in the middle of the corridor, no one helped him until a black silhouette grabbed him and took him to his room, “Where am I?” said Dorian trying to see where his surroundings were. “Stay still and don’t move Jesus,” said the boy trying to patch up Dorian's wounds “Who are you…?” said Dorian when we could see that he was in Hufflepuff standard room “I’m Cassian Hannard and I need you to stay still so I can patch those nasty wounds you got there,” said Cassian pointing at Dorian’s neck where some black stripes were, then Dorian realises that he was referring to his neck and covered it with his hands” Don’t…just don’t, I’m fine,” he said trying to get up “Hey I haven’t-” said Cassian when he realises that Dorian was covering his neck “ What's wrong with your neck?” Dorian looked at him” I-I have black poppy, and I’m also an obscurial…” said Dorian when suddenly he realised that he said it out loud “ shit shit shit I- I wasn’t supposed to say it…”
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After a couple of days Dorian tried to avoid Cassian as much as he could, and turned to his daily routine of spending time alone at the library or with buckbeak who was the only creature who seemed to be nice to him, then he suddenly heard both of his little brothers each other with their respective group laughing and having a good time while he was alone, he felt jealous he always did, he always wished he had those beautiful blue eyes that both of his brothers got, that beautiful black hair that they had, those friend that he wished he would have once he entered hogwarts but that seemed all like a fairytale cuz he was alone.
He didn’t have those beautiful eyes or hair that his brothers had instead he had that messy dark blond hair and those dark brown eyes and wheel the thing he hated the most was having his sickness which made him weak and disgusting to anyone's eyes, well not to his mother’s eyes since she always said that he was the most beautiful person she ever seen, but of cure she was saying that cuz she was his mother and that's what mothers do for they always said that their ids are beautiful.
He passed by his brother’s friend group and suddenly started feeling sick and dizzy “Why now?!” he thought, “Oi rich boy you-” James said but then Dorian started coughing blond and the black stripes appeared “Dorian!” shouted Sirius running towards him, “Si-Sirius..” he said looking at his brother and then passing out freezing and shaking like crazy “Hey hey it's ok” said Sirius graving him before he hit the floor, he put his rope around him like a blanket and hugged him, they stayed like that for a couple of minutes until Dorian completely passed out and was calm, “Prongs can you help me get him to-” said Sirius looking at James “We-we have to take him to madam Pomfrey” he said panicking “No we don’t, he needs to rest”.
Dorian was fondly sleeping while James and Sirius were talking “ Sirius how do you know him? I mean i know he is a gryffindor but-”Sirius looked at him while caressing Dorian’s hair “ He is my older brother James…” he said “ With what? You have an older brother?!” said James looking at Dorian and then back at Sirius, “Yes I do have an older brother and yes I know that we don’t look alike but I can assure you that he is my brother”he said while looking at Dorian “Siri! I heard that Dorian passed out when he o- '' said Regulus while entering the Gryffindor room seeing his older brother asleep while Sirius was brushing his hair” Hey Reggie , yeah he passed out but he is ok now”.
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After a couple of month later, Dorian spend more time in the infirmary than in the library or any other place in the castle, but neither of his brothers came to visit, he just saw them once when one of Sirius’ friends ended up there and they were all together and chatting, while he was alone with his books. Spring break came and everyone went home, when Sirius, Regulus and Dorian arrived at the station Regulus and Dorian went with his parents while Sirius went with James and his friends, right Sirius was disowned a month ago…
Once they arrived home Regulus went directly to his room and then came down and left, he had a meet up with his friend group, Dorian stayed alone and went to his room to unpack his things and got downstairs with his parents, why couldn’t he have friends or be like his brothers he always felt so alone and different around them like if they weren’t brothers, they never talked to each other or anything not even when they were kids.
He was always a loner, but at least he had his mother the only person who listened to him or talked to him since his dad did nothing but forced him to marry her cousin Bellatrix who when they were kids, he kind of developed a small crush on her since he learned that their parents were cousins and that they were in love, so he thought that he needed to develop a love interest to his cousin in case they had to marry each other.
“Dorian, how's school?” asked his mother while brushing his hair and putting it in a little ponytail, he didn’t answer he just looked at his rings and fidget with them “Dorian? Is everything alright?”Still he didn’t respond “Dorian your mother is talking to you!” shouted his father and Dorian flinched “s-sorry…” he said looking down “ What a useless kid “ said his father,” Don’t listen to your father Dorian you're not useless” said his mother “Yes I am mom, i don’t have friends no one wants to pair with me in school and even Sirius and Regulus act like if I wasn’t their brother…”he said with tears dripping down his face.