James and Regulus hide themselves in eachother. It doesn’t always end well. They destroy themselves in the name of the other.
James may be in love.
Regulus may also be in love.
But in this relationship, it didn’t really matter.
James is egotistical. He has a heart to match it but his ego is still the size of a fucking lake. James likes to make a show and doesn’t really know how to open up to reveal the real him. James is brave and courageous and impulsive and loves with his full heart. Which made it very dangerous for somebody who hurt his loved ones.
Regulus is crazy. He has that Black madness rooted deep inside of him. And he’s not ashamed to admit it. Regulus plays games and he gets rewards from them. Regulus is fierce and loyal. He is cunning, ambitious and more. But still crazy. Regulus was never loved by anyone until now and he never really loved anyone either. This proves to be problematic.
But hey, they were in love.
This doesn’t change the fact that they were toxic. They loved eachother so much that they didn’t know how to show it. It makes their love explosive and dangerous for anyone who interferes in any way. Even if they didn’t interfere really. Because when it came to eachother, neither James nor Regulus cared for the difference. This leads them to this point. A fight after they’ve just broken up. Again. They aren’t screaming yet but the way they fight is dangerous. Toxic and manipulative. Very entertaining. Or, that’s what the other Marauders thought it would be when they snuck under the cloak to watch.
“You used to be nice. You do love me.”
James says calmly. Too calmly. That’s how you knows it gonna be good.
“I don’t.” Regulus says equally calm. Or even calmer? How was that possible?
“You loved me yesterday”
“Oh did I?”Regulus scoffs.
“You said you did.”
“That was before I saw you and that red headed bitch flirting.”
“Oh flirting were we? Darling you’ve seen me flirting and we both know it usually ends with a little more skin to skin contact.”
Let it be noted Sirius was loving the drama but did not need to know that information.
“Oh Merlin you are full of yourself Potter”
“What? And you’re not?”
“Im crazy not egotistical sweetheart”
“Ha you got one thing right. You’re as mad as the Blacks come.”
“You’d know best I suppose. What? Was one Black brother not enough for you? Have to befriend one and fuck the other? Pathetic.”
“Oh so we’re really name calling then? You’ve gone that low? I can play that game to Black. You Selfish Prick.”
“IM the selfish one? We just covered that you couldn’t live with just one Black brother.”
“At least I don’t have mommy issues”
“At least I grew up. Merlin you’re the dumbest guy I’ve dated.”
“I cant even trust you. But sure. I never grew up.”
“Ugh I don’t know if I love you or I want you dead sometimes.”
“You’re toxic.”
“Two years of your bullshit does that to you.”
“Sometimes you’re a stranger.”
“James you’re trying too hard.”
“I wonder how many times you think you’ve won this argument.”
“I’ve come closer to it more times than you.”
“It’s like talking to a delusional person. Oh wait.”
“You PRAT! The only part of this that’s delusional is how you thought you and the bitch could get away with flirting at a crowded party.”
“MERLIN you’re just proving that Im right. Once again. You’re fucking delusional if you think I was flirting.”
“Ugh this is why nobody loves you. You’re so quick to get fucking emotional.”
“Oh? I’m too emotional? Maybe you just never cared at all.”
“OH? I never CARED? You never asked me how I was at all.”
“Cos I lose my mind after you spend the night! Callous, unemotional, acting the way you do? I don’t need to ask because everybody knows you’re always just fucking crazy.”
“If you seriously think that we’re done.”
“THATS THE THING REGULUS. WE’RE ALREADY FUCKING DONE. THATS WHAT THIS FIGHT IS ABOUT! DO YOU REALLY INTENTIONALLY PICK FIGHTS SO MUCH THAT YOU FORGOT? Is that what all our fights have been? You picking them as an excuse to go crazy on me?”
“ARE YOU DENSE?”
“Was. Any. Of. It. Real? Was it all an illusion or not Black?”
“You think it was an illusion? Did you really take the mark for a fucking illusion.”
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The silence in the room was deadly. All the watching marauders felt sick to their stomach. James got the mark? Their James? And Regulus no doubt has it too. However, they were frozen in shock.
“NO REGGIE! THATS WHY IM ASKING! AND INSTEAD YOURE HERE BRINGING UP OLD ARGUMENTS AGAIN!”
“OLD ARGUMENTS? THATS WHAT YOURE CALLING THIS CONVERSATION? Fine. Let’s bring up the old arguments. We both know I have plenty to say about this.”
“Oh here we go.” James scoffs
“We’re tou even thinking of the consequences when you got it James.”
“REGULUS. I didn’t just randomly decide to do it. As little as you think of me, I do have a brain.”
“So WHY didn’t you use it?!”
James goes very quiet. Then we speaks softer than either have since they broke up.
“All I wanted was you.”
“You could have just used me to get information for the war instead of GETTING THE MARK.”
“All I wanted was you Regulus. Not the information. I don’t care about the war. I don’t want o win it or lose it if there’s a chance I’ll lose you. All I want is YOU.”
“You’ll be the saddest part of me.”
“You’re killing me Reggie. And I can’t even be mad about it. Because you could break me, use me and hurt me and I’d beg for you to stay with me everytime. Again and again and again.
The air was thick with tension. For the Marauders? The tension of being somewhere they shouldn’t. Watching something they shouldn’t. Wrestling with their morals over something they shouldn’t.
For James and Regulus? The tension of a fight. The tension of their love. The tension of a revelation and a war they shouldn’t have to fight.
And then they are both moving.
Wrapping their arms around eachother, holding on for dear life. Neither crying but clear they both want to.
They share a soft kiss and continue their embrace.