my james,
if you are reading this i am afraid i am not returning home to you
i am gone from this world and i will see you when the time is right for you next
please do not worry yourself over why i am gone, if my death has been worthwhile, you will know in due time
i hope you can find it in yourself to forgive me for what i have done
i want you to know how much i love you and how much you mean to me
you are my sun when i feel i am fading and you are my moon when i cannot handle the sun
my sun you walked into my life and changed everything for me
i orbit around you, you are the reason i shine
and every day i wake up with the reminder of your existence, your blessing
please know that when i die i am thinking of you and your precious warmth
i am so sorry it must end this way, you do not deserve the pain and suffering i so wish i didn't have the ability to cause you
and so tonight i leave you with a reminder of myself
when you are alone in the night, find my star
and as it illuminates your face know it is me smiling down upon you
it will remain an ever present reminder of my love for you
when you see that star, i am with you in the same way i was but a few days ago
i love you so dearly my james
look to the stars
signed, your regulus