Dear Angel,
As I write these words, I am filled with regret and sorrow, knowing that I will never be able to hold you in my arms again. I know that if you are reading this, it means that I am long gone. My past, my mistakes, my family's dark legacy had finally caught up with me, and I was faced with a decision that would alter the course of our lives forever.
I know that I was not always the best person, that I made mistakes and hurt those around me. But you were always different, Angel. I remember the first time I met you, my love. You were everything that I never knew I wanted, everything that I needed. You saw past the mask that I wore, past the darkness that I carried within me. You are the one person who saw me for who I truly was. You were no stranger to my thorns and horrors, and you loved me despite it all. You gave me hope, and a reason to fight. And for that, I have always been eternally grateful.
It is that love, that hope, that makes it all the more difficult to leave you behind. The thought of not being able to grow old with you, to see you become the person you were always meant to be, sickens me. The pain of leaving you behind is beyond unbearable. But I know that I have to face death, in hopes of keeping you safe from the horrors of this war. I pray that when the time comes, this act of mine aids in the end of The Dark Lord’s reign of terror, and that you will be able to live in a world free from fear and danger. That has always been my desire, even if i cannot be there for it.
I am sorry for any pain I have caused you, my love. I will always live on in your heart. My love for you transcends this world and the next, even after my physical form is no more, it will endure. For we may be separated by the veil of death, but my love for you will never die.
Please do not mourn me for too long, Angel. Live your life to the fullest, be happy, be safe. And remember that wherever I am, I will be watching over you, loving you, and protecting you. Take care of yourself. Take care of my brother, Sirius, too. He will need someone like you by his side to help him through these difficult times.
With all my heart,
R.A.B