I'm happy
"Where are the boys ?" Lily asked when she noticed they are alone just with Regulus.
They were all pretty drunk that evening, Regulus was the most drunk even though he wanted not to drink that much since he had to look after the girls so they won't go to the forest.
"They went somewhere, but I would let them be because you probably don't wanna see them right now" Regulus grinned and took another bottle of beer.
He liked beer, he wasn't really beer person but the girls don't know what a real alcohol is so they brought just this, and vodka but they already drank all of it.
"Why ?" Marlene asked not understanding any of this.
"They're probably fucking somewhere" Regulus said with a serious gaze.
"What ? All of them ??" Mary looked pretty surprised and Regulus just nodded. He did not meant to nod actually but it went naturally.
"They aren't really right? You know where they are " Lily whispered when Mary with Marlene were talking in the tent.
"Another drink ?" Regulus asks instead of answering and Lily takes the drink.
"You don't have to tell me what are they doing. I don't care really " She smirked at him and he laughs.
They sat there in front of the fire just looking at it.
"You look pale" she pointed out.
"I think I'm going to be sick"
"Oh it's best to make it happened right way, you know just bend down and stick your finger all the way inside your mouth" She advised and he glanced at her terrified. No way, he thought.
Normally Regulus would resist throwing up in front of anyone even Barty or Evan but now he really wasn't feeling like he could do another minute with the feeling of sickness.
"I'll hold your hair come on " Lily took all of his hair into her palm and he put the finger deep into his mouth.
He vomited right next to the lake.
It was kind of embarrassing but he was too drunk to care.
"Better?" She asked with the sweet voice of hers.
"Definitely"
"I'll go to bed now, see you tomorrow" She smiled at him but he stopped her. "Wait ? I-" Regulus wasn't sure of what he wanted to as.
He wanted to ask if she wants to sleep in his tent since he was alone in there but wouldn't it be weird? Or uncomfortable ? Probably not, he felt pretty good around Lily.
"You wanna sleep in our tent ? I don't wanna be alone " He admitted and she just nodded and smiled.
"Okay I was terrified that some werewolf or a bear will eat me alive anyway" She said and Regulus's hearth skipped a beat. Werewolf. She didn't know right ?
They went to sleep after that, Lily took James's blanket and the other girls were asleep already…
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In the morning, James crept back into the tent. He was surprised to find Lily there. But he was terribly exhausted, so he lay down next to Regulus when Lily slept in his place. Regulus didn't seem to mind, rather the opposite, Regulus pulled James closer to him and used his hand as his pillow. it was cute, James thought.
He missed him so much through the summer, but it was different than missing Peter or Remus, it was almost like he missed the other half of him.
James was falling in love and he knew it.
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They woke up and they started packing up right after, they ought to be at home by noon.
They were already on their way.
They were discussing the program for the rest of the summer.
regulus was supposed to stay for another day and then he had to go back, because his parents were coming back.
Peter will stay with the Potters for the rest of the summer but Remus had to go back to his parents, he was glad they let him go camping this year, especially during the full moon..
They arrived on time and Effie offered them something to eat, now they were all sitting in the kitchen talking about how the camping was.
"Regulus can you come with me after you finish your food, I ought to show you something" Fleamont said and Regulus was taken back a little bit but he nodded, "Of course " he said and was still thinking about what it could be.
Was he in some kind of trouble ? Did James told them about us?
"Here, these are my books, James told me you read a lot so I just wanted to show you and let you know that you can borrow whatever you like from here. I know you probably have like whole library at your parent's house but these are some unique prints and some of them are muggle ones." Regulus was surprised, he indeed not expected this to happened.
"thanks, Do you- do you read a lot ?" Regulus asked, he didn't know if he actually cared but he didn't know what to say and there is always what to talk about when it comes to books.
"I would say so yes, Back at school I've read almost every book in the library, I didn't even liked it sometimes I just wanted to know what everything was about " He admitted and smiled.
"Can't relate, I read just the things that interest me and when it doesn't I let it be none of my business "
"James told us that you speak French, he always wanted to learn French. It's powerful language" Monty pointed out .
"Yeah I like it- it's quite beautiful language yes "
"James talks a lot about you, he really likes you "
Regulus did not know what to say at all. So he said nothing.
"Whatever it is between you two, it's fine with us you know what I mean, you make each other happy and that's good, We wanted you to know that we don't mind okay?" Regulus was short of breath but he tried not to show it really. It made him shiver, the way James's dad talked about them.
James was such a lucky guy to have parents like these.
"Okay" Regulus whispered and looked around him, anywhere else than to Fleamont's eyes as usually.
"And If you find yourself in a situation that you do not know how to deal with. Do not hesitate to contact us. It can be anything, if you needed to leave like your brother there is always place for you, I believe that James already told you this but I wanted you to hear it from me too"
"Thank you I appreciate it a lot" Regulus said as tear left his eye and fall down his cheek.
"Okay then, don't hesitate to borrow one of the books if you want" Monty glanced over to the bookshelves and left the room.
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After the lunch Remus left and it was almost time to go to bed.
Peter slept in Sirius's bed and James was still with Regulus.
Regulus couldn't bear the thought that in two days he'll be back in that house but he tried not to think about it.
"Can I go closer ? " James asks when they're lying in bed already.
"Yes please" Regulus murmured and James lets out a little grin.
They curl up together in the bed and Regulus feels great, he feels so safe. He didn't really know what had changed but something sure did.
Was it because of what James's dad told him or something else ?
He truly had no idea but he knew that James's touch felt good like really good and he just knew that James felt the same way.
He wanted to kiss James.
So he kissed him, and James kissed him back.
And more and more kisses.
And with that.
Regulus gently pressed James against the bad lightly and dropping to his knees, slowly undoing James’ belt buckle.
"Reg?"
"yeah?"
"Are you sure you want to do this ? I don't want you to do anything just because you think I want it from you "
"Don't you want it or ?"
"Well I do but you don't have to -" Regulus licked the tip of James’ cock and looked up at him.
He was teasing him and James knew he was. James stayed still. He didn't touch Regulus and for soe reason Regulus wanted James to touch him just a little bit of gentle touch, that was all he wanted.
"I'm not made from fragile glass James- you can do whatever you like - I trust you with anything you do"
And that was enough to tip James over the edge.
James took Regulus's head gently and pushing Regulus just as far as Regulus allowed him to . He did it over and over again, as Regulus swallowed and moaned after.
James let go of Regulus’s head so he could pull away when he needed. His hair was dishevelled and messy.
As they just looked at each other Regulus leaned for another kiss, his lips were still wet.
"Was that good ? " Regulus asked even though he knew very well that James liked it very much.
"Hell good, are you- are you good ?"
"I'm brilliant" Regulus answered, he liked making James feel good and even though he knew deep down that he won't be able to let go of the control. That he won't probably have enjoyable sex like ever. That was the closest thing to sex he'd done and it felt incredible.
He had the power over James and he had the control over him, Regulus didn't like the thought of letting that go, not even with James.
After a while they lied there facing each other.
"I'm just so happy James" Regulus whispered playing with James's hair.
"And I'm so glad you're here Reg"
"Your dad knows, or he suspects something" Regulus said nervously.
"Oh -do you mind he knows ? I mean he won't mind, I hope he won't"
"He's okay with it" Regulus added and James smiled.
"okay"
"Okay"