Chapter 5
People dressed in black clothes—a pastor talking about her like he knows everything—Scorpius sobbing in his best friends shoulder—it breaks his heart
Everything seems like a dream he’s about to wake up to—he doesn’t want to believe that she gone. That day—Albus felt an black cloud over him. A cloud that would never go away.
It’s raining in his head. Albus focused on his ceiling. His hand lade down on his chest—he never felt more alone. His mother always told him „remember, that there’s always gonna be someone in your life who makes you feel special“ Albus has someone in his life—Scorpius was the only one who was always there for him. But now—not even his best friend could make his dark cloud vanish.
Albus day was as usual. Sitting in the great hall, going to classes, hanging out with Scor, taking a nap. And all the other stuff. His day is normal. But besides that—Albus is slowly falling into a deep dark hole
And he’s afraid he won’t get out of it—just like Sam.
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Professor Dunbie was talking through the class—no one really listen accept Scorpius.
„How‘re you so focused on what she’s saying?“ Albus wispernd to his best friend. „It’s so fucking boring“
„If you would listen to her, you would know its actually not boring“ he answered. „Besides, you should take notes. It’s important for the test next week“
„Yea, sure“ Albus laughed quietly
The Potter took a pen and the hand of his best friend. Albus starts drawing hearts and cats on his hand. Suddenly the Malfoy was not so focussed on the Professor—he was more busy watching his best friend drawing stuff in his hand—Albus was holding his wrist so gently and gave him goosebumps
Albus stroked his thump over Scorpius hand. „Pretty“ he said quietly
Scorpius breath was taken away. „Yea“ he said very quietly out of breath
He took his hand back and tried to focused back to the Professor
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It was a long way until Albus phone is working again. He goes down the hill, far away from Hogsmeat just to make a phone call. It’s seems silly—but it means the world to Albus
„Hello sunshine“ his voice came through his phone—his beautiful calmly voice that Albus adores
„Jake“ he said comforting. „I missed your voice“
„I missed yours too. How is school?“
„As usual“
„And how are you?“
Albus hates that question—jake knows that’s, he’s still asking. „I‘m good. Great actually“ he lied. „What about you?“
„I feel much better because I talk to you“ Albus felt his warm cheeks glowing.
„We‘ll see each other in December. Than we can keep going where we left“
„I‘m excited to feel your hand in mine again“
„Are you flirting with me, Mr. Hunter?“
„I sure am, Mr. Potter“
Jake Hunter. The neighbour of the Potters in London. It all happened in summer 2020. the Hunters just moved to London in the same street as Albus. They became friends and almost spend everyday together…
„I don’t like this game“
„it’s just the hardest level in that game“
„I see. Stupid Wario cheats“
Jake laughed about it. „Let me show you“ he tried to take Albus controller but he pulled away.
„I can do that“
„Just let me help you“ they both laughed again and both felt on the side on the floor.
Jake‘s hands were holding Albus wrist. He gave up and didn’t fought back. Jakes bright blue eyes were shining in the light and Albus was so glad that his parents were not at home. He holds his head up and kisses the other boy—Jake didn’t might—he even went for it
Albus never told Scorpius—there was no reason. Albus knows he’s gay since he’s thirteen—why else would he have such big feelings for another boy? He enjoyed kissing him—very much. They kept doing it the whole summer. Two teenage boys just making out—they knew it was not in a friendship way. It’s going on for two years now—they‘re not together or anything, at least that’s what Jake says.
By the time Albus got back to the castle, it was already late and the sun was vanishing behind the trees of the forest. The dorm room was empty—no sight of Scorpius. And suddenly that feeling was back. Albus was alone—he felt empty—the dark cloud over him was raining hard.
When he looks in the mirror, he doesn’t see himself in it—he feels like a puppet who get controlled by an higher power—he’s not himself
The pain in his chest is getting stronger and suddenly he feels nothing but anger. He takes his fist and smashes the mirror broke—blood dripping down his hand—glass was laying everywhere He sees the drops of blood in the sink and then on the pieces—without thinking twice about it—he takes one broke piece and keeps going Small but deep cuts on his arm—multiple times.
He let the piece fall back into the sink when he realised what he’s doing—the pain came to him the second he saw all the blood on his left arm
Shit he told himself
Shit
shit
shit, fucking shit
Albus grabbed the towel next to him and tried to keep the blood in his system—of course it’s not working. He looked into the broke pieces that were still hanging on the wall and saw tears filling his eyes
Fucking fuck, shit
The towels was already filled with his blood—he doesn’t know what to do—he never was in that kind of situation—he’s not like that
„Albus?“ a quit voice was saying behind him. Scorpius was frozen on the bathroom door as he saw all the blood and broken mirror pieces
„I‘m sorry“ Albus voice broke down and he started sobbing. „I didn’t- I“
Scorpius pulled out his wand and fixed the mirror again—the pieces were floating back to the wall and I looked like he never even broke it
Scorpius took the towel out of his hands and made it wet in the sink. „It’s okay“ he kept saying quietly. „everything’s going to be alright“ he soaked the blood with the wet towel on his arm. „Your fine“ his voice was comfort and quiet—he actually made Albus think that everything’s is going to be fine
Scorpius brought him to bed—his wounds were covered up. „You wanna talk about it?“ He asked but Albus just shook his head
Albus wrapped his arms around his legs und put his head in his knees—Scorpius notice the tears on his best Friends face. He sat down and hugged him—tight. Albus lade his head on Scorpius shoulder—he lets everything out. Albus cried loud and with every sob, Scorpius hugs his best friend even tighter and makes sure he won’t feel alone—because he’s not
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He could smell Scorpius sense—his hair was tickling on Albus cheek and he felt his arm around his waist. When Albus opened his eyes—Scorpius head was under his and he was holding Albus in his arms. Scorpius breath was slow but comforting—he’s asleep.
Albus went through his best Friends soft hair and curled his fingers around his blond curls. Scorpius breathe loud and opened his eyes—Albus put his hands away as fast as he could when he saw that his eyes were open. Scorpius sat up.
„Hey“ his voice was raspy and quiet. „How‘re you feelin‘?“
„I‘m good“ he said. „I-haven’t noticed that-„
„did we cuddle?“
Albus face went red. „I think so“ After a long pause, Scorpius starts laughing—he covered his face in his best friends shoulder.
„I‘m sorry“ he said in laughter Albus joined him—this awkward situation went away pretty fast and now there were just to friends—sharing a moment