Your Love (Déjà VU) 💙
Your Love (Déjà Vu) 💞
Kokichi's POV
I found myself watching him intensely. He seemed to move so lightly on his feet, as though he was just asking me to walk over and join him. He held Kaede's waist as he twirled her around on the dance floor. Out of almost nowhere he looked up from her gaze and looked eyes with me instead. I was supposed to be talking to Rantaro but here I was making eye contact with Shuichi from across the room.
The music faded away and Kaede kissed Shuichi softly on the cheek. I tried my best to remain calm. I turned back to Rantaro who hadn't noticed I wasn't listening. I nodded my head as he spoke as though I had been in the conversation the whole time. A new song began quickly, I guess I shouldn't have been surprised a Glass Animals song was in Tsumugi's playlist.
I saw Shuichi start walking towards us out of the corner of my eye. Panic set in, he may not have known I like him but I sure did. Putting a hand on my shoulder Shuichi joined our conversation. My eyes darted as Rantaro and Shuichi both looked so calm. The hand that was placed on my shoulder moved and offered itself for me to dance. I looked at Rantaro a little shocked as he placed my hand in Shuichi's and pushed me out onto the dance floor.
I looked around to see what looked like everyone who was previously on the floor standing around all looking to me. I didn't know what to feel. It all happened so fast. The words of the song started and I began to sing the lyrics inside my head. Without warning Shuichi placed a hand on my waist and moved like a cliche 90's movie. Luckily I knew how to keep up, we moved so well it felt as though we had been practicing for this for weeks.
I had never imagined this would ever happen. Watching the way Shuichi had been moving with Kaede all night I assumed he would only be dancing with her but no, he asked me. His hand went up and I twirled around it. My suit didn't do as much justice as a flowy dress would have. Shuichi then pulled me close and dipped me down. His face close to my ears began to almost whisper the lyrics I knew all too well.
I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
I felt myself almost melting in his arms. Pulling me back up quickly we began to dance again. Who knew Shuichi Saihara could be such a tease.
It's a hit and run
You go back there when you're done
Don't you want some more?
'Cause I can feel your love
The thought of everyone watching up began to fade away, what's important now is not screwing this up. It's just Shuichi and me, no one else. I thought a bit about what someone might think to see Shuichi and I danced like this, it felt intimate. What would Kaede think? It seemed fairly obvious she liked him.
Thoughts rolled away as I noticed Shuichi's eyes looked down on me. We locked eyes as we moved across the floor swiftly. Pulling me close again his head moved down to meet mine. The lyrics flowed so nicely out of his mouth, I was honestly a bit surprised he even knew this song.
Mmm, that purple touch
Everyone who sees you falls in love
A bit of an exaggeration but I knew he couldn't just change the lyrics. His whisper made me tingle a bit. They never lasted long but god I loved them. No ones ever made me feel this way before. A smile began to grow on my face, not just a fake smile I plastered like normal but a genuine one... I was enjoying myself.
I couldn't help but wonder, why? Why had he offered me a hand to dance and why this song? This seemed less like a fancy dance song and more like a song someone would just listen to in their free time. Lyrics sped through my head as I tried to think of a reason but I just couldn't. None of it made sense to me but I wasn't ready to stop it.
I spent so much time thinking of reasons and worrying about messing up I hadn't been enjoying the moment. I noticed a hand move from my shoulder to my chin, forcing me to look back up to him. I hadn't even noticed I broke our gaze until he corrected me. Why had I let this get this far? I wouldn't normally let anyone just force me to look up to them like that.
Too far from over you
Beams from your M2
Are blowin' through my room
And now you lay down in my shoes
You dyed your hair blue
Oh, so much déjà vu
His hand around my waist grew a bit tighter. His eyes were enticing, like a dark swamp. I wanted to just jump all in head first. I had always loved this song but I had never imagined I'd be dancing along to it like this let alone with Shuichi. It grew harder to keep going without just completely losing my mind. I had never felt myself smile this much so far and so genuinely, not that I could remember at least.
Oddly enough I did feel a bit of déjà vu in this moment. It felt like I had been here before, maybe in a dream or another life. I felt myself be lowered yet again, this time Shuichi just smiled at me and brought me back up with haste. The chorus began again as we spun around.
I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
It's a hit and run
You go back there when you're done
Something about the demanding tone of the lyrics and the way Shuichi looked at me when he sang them turned me on. I'm not sure what happened, maybe it was just that it was Shuichi saying it but I never imagined I'd like that sort of thing.
Maybe in time
When we're both better at life
His gaze shot into me as the song continued. Maybe I could join in as well...
Daylight can open my eyes
And you'll still be by my side
I smirked as he looked at me with a bit of a surprised look. I guess he had never intended to join in but how could I not. The song choice was basically asking for me to fight back.
But meanwhile
I've got my contact high
You've got your powdered lies
We've got these summertime nights
He continued quickly as to almost cut me off. I couldn't let him do that. I almost took control of the dancing until he pulled me in close. He pushed against me with a hand placed again around my waist. I began to try and sing louder than his whisper and he returned by doing the same.
Night by night, I let you eat me alive
I want you to eat me alive
I want you to eat me alive
Both of our voices loudly sang in the room. Our eyes still locked on each other we stood still for a bit. Maybe that's why he chose this song. It's energy felt almost like a fight going back and forth. Maybe that's what he wanted, a fight. I then took the control back and started dancing again. This time I sang the lyrics.
I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
It's a hit and run
You go back there when you're done
He seemed almost stiff, as though he was thinking of what to do next. With a quick twirl I pulled Shuichi towards me. I don't know what I was thinking, truth be told I don't think I was. I was so focused on what I wanted to care what he wanted. I seemed to have full control now, he hadn't fought hat at all since I took it from him.
I noticed the worry from early when he first brought me out here had completely vanished. I could see everyone on the side look almost as surprised as Shuichi. Things were flowing and I don't think anyone, let alone Shuichi and I, expected it to get this far.
I continued to take the reigns and put my hand around his waist instead. He may have been taller than me but it worked well enough. Suddenly he seemed to snap out of it and he smiled softly.
I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
It's a hit and run
You go back there when you're done
His demanding tone was back as he looked at me. It seemed we were back to fighting.
I can feel your love
Your temporary touch
It's a hit and run
You go back there when you're done
I demanded back. He picked me up by my waist and swung me around gracefully. I couldn't help but begin to smile again. I felt natural like we had done this before. The déjà vu came back as he replaced his hand yet again on my waist and pulled me in one last time.
Don't you want some more?
'Cause I can feel your love
His head moved back down to my ear, the tingles came back for one last time.
I can feel your love
I can feel your love
I can feel your love
I can feel your love
I can feel your love
The song began to fade as I looked up to him again. I heard another song quickly start up but no one moved for a bit. That is until I heard Miu from the side start clapping loudly with some cheers. I smiled a bit before beginning to laugh. It seemed we switched places, he seemed to be watching me intensely. He smiled softly and pulled my chin up again just as he had done before. My heart almost jumped out of my body as I saw his face slowly lean in towards mine.
I quickly met his face in the middle, kissing in the midst of everyone from our class watching us. I could hear Miu start to clap louder. Everyone joined in as though we were there for their entertainment.
I guess I hadn't ever seen Shuichi kiss Kaede back but I had just assumed she was dating him or he was at least off limits to everyone else. But that proved to not be the case as he leaned in on me. A few began to file back onto the dance floor. It seemed like Shuichi needed a little more time to process what had happened, maybe this went better than he expected it to.
I remember what had happened about halfway through and I quickly pulled Shuichi's arm off the floor and into a hallway that had been connected to the room we were all in. I took this as Shuichi now being all mine.