All James and Regulus have been doing is fighting. It’s been full of small things blown to bigger proportions. But James can’t see himself with no one else. He woke up one day and saw a letter on Regulus’ desk. He didn’t mean to be nosy but he was nosy. He picked up the letter and looked at the word’s inscribed on the envelope. It simply said To him. He opened it and saw his name.
Dear my Beloved James,
Oh the things I want to say to you. The way I want to hold you forever. There’s so many ways I want apologize for the fights. They were a necessity. I can’t have you staying in love with me. I need you to move on. By the time you find this letter I will be dead. I am writing this letter to give you some closure. I can’t put into words writing you a goodbye as you slept right across the room from me. I saw you sleeping peacefully, knowing that this is going to break you. I want you to know I’m not doing this to be reckless. I’m doing this because I love you. Because I love Sirius. And for the friends who have become my family. I want you all to live a long healthy life even if that means I need to step away. I would walk the sun for you, amor. Oh how I wish I could hold you for eternity but I think our love story has come to an end. I hope you remember me. I’m always remember you.
Love,
Reggie
James eyes have drained his face with a flood of tears. His legs buckle and he falls to the bed. Reg can’t be dead. James didn't want to say goodbye. He just wanted to hold him longer. He wanted to marry him. Regulus can't be the one who decides how this is going to end. James cries for a minute till he realizes he refuses to accept that Regulus is dead.
“Kreacher. In here now. Don't even try ignoring me. I know you are here. I know you were supposed to give me the letter.”
A second later Kreacher staggers into the room. He bows his head and whispers, “Master Regulus wasn't ready for you to see.”
“Where is he?”
“Master Regu-”
“I dont care. Tell me now. I will not be nice. This is his life. He could be dead!”
Kreacher takes James' hand and apparates him to the cave. He looks around and can't see Regulus. That's when he sees black curls bobbing in the water. He rushes over and pulls him up and out of the water. He pulls him in to feel his heartbeat. It's no longer there.
A scream rips from his throat, “Please don't leave me. Hold on I still want you.”
He whispers in Regulus’ ear, “Come back I still need you. I swear to love you all my life. Hold on I still need you.”
James holds Regulus and tries to shake him awake. He grips him hard and yells for Kreacher, “Sirius now.”
A second later James is sitting on Sirius’ and Remus’ flat floor. Gripping at Regulus’ limp body. Before he can call Sirius, he comes stumbling into the room. His smile drops when he sees them.
He drops next to James and touches Reg's cheek, it's cold to the touch, “What happened?”
“I don't know. He drowned I think. We have to save him. This is a nightmare I can't escape from.”
Sirius whispers, “his light is fading.”
“We can't let him die. Get Remus. He's a healer right?”
“I'll go get him.” He stumbled getting up and running to get him. James' face is red and sore from crying so much. He is slowly losing his Star.
“Please don't leave me. Hold on I still need you.” Remus comes in and James looks at his shocked face and Sirius’ tear-stained face. Remus quickly levitates Reg and Apparates away. James and Sirius quickly follow.
They stand at the window watching Remus and other healers whirl around Reg. Please don't leave me.
Remus comes out and his face drops at the sight of them. No. No. No. No. Sirius takes one look at Remus and he drops to his knees. Tears stream down his face.
“I don't wanna let go,” James begs whoever will listen.
“You can go see him. It's not looking good. It's downhill from here.” he moves to sit by Sirius. James looks down at him and slowly moves to sit with Reg.
“I wish you didn't do this. I'm going to live my life wishing you were here. This isn't fair to me.”
“The silence is killing me reg.”
“I don't wanna let go. I know I'm not that strong. I just wanna hear you say, baby, let's go home. I just wanna take you home.” James grabs Regs wrist and just holds him. Holds him because he doesn't want to let go.