close to my heart
There’s someone screaming somewhere nearby and there is a loud bang and everything goes dark. It hurts. It hurts to even breathe. Every part of my body is hurting and my mind is hazy. I can hear someone calling my name. He is holding me now. I open my eyes to see this person. White-blond hair and grey eyes. He is crying and his tears are falling on my face. I pass out from exhaustion.
I slowly open my eyes, trying to adjust to the sunlight in my room. I look around trying to find my husband. I don’t see him in the room. I am in a hospital bed and I have many machines attached to me.
I’m glad I am alive. I am glad I get another chance to see the love of my life, Draco Malfoy. We have been married for 3 years and those three years have been the best three years of my life. I never thought I could love someone so much but then Malfoy came in my life.
I still remember the day I saw him, years after the war at Hogwarts. He walked into the room with the same elegance he’s had since he was eleven. Our eyes met for a brief moment and I looked away.
I spent the entire evening staring at him and trying to not get caught and failing at it. Until he came up to me with champagne in his hands. He sat next to me and placed a hand gently on my shoulder. Chills ran through my entire body and I looked at him to meet his amused grey eyes.
“You could have said hello Potter, instead of staring rudely at me.” He said suppressing a laugh. Words got caught in my throat.
Omg he’s talking to me. Omg he looks so beautiful. Harry say something…. anything!
“yea…. Hi?” I mentally facepalmed myself.
“Was that supposed to be a question Potter?” he’s trying very hard to not laugh. Great keep fucking this up Harry
“No?” this was all I could answer at that moment, when he was looking at me with those beautiful beautiful gorgeous eyes.
He looked disappointed and a little sad? Omg I DID fuck up!!
“Ok Potter it seems you still hold grudges. I am sorry I thought maybe I could have a conversation with you. I’ll leave then.” He said, walking away.
“NO!!” I scream at him. I completely forgot about the other people in the room
Everyone was staring at me now.
“I mean don’t go yet. Please, I really want to talk to you” the words slipped out of my mouth before I could stop myself.
“You don’t have to beg me Potter. Sure, lets talk but somewhere more private would be much better” he says gesturing at the gawking people.
I nod and he takes my hand guiding me towards a lift. All I can focus on is how soft his touch his. At that moment its just him and me in the room and everything else is a blur. I wonder if that’s because of the alcohol getting to my brain.
The lift stops at the rooftop and I step out with him. He is still holding my hand. He takes me to a bench and once we’ve settled I look at him. Hes looking at the sky. He looks so mesmerizing.
I love him. I really do.
I knew I loved him many years ago but with what happened at the war and our constant enmity, I couldn’t tell him.
He hated me and he could’ve laughed at me. He could’ve walked all over my heart. I was protecting myself but now none of that mattered. We grew up and got wiser.
I want to tell him that I love him. I need to.
“You really need to stop staring Potter. Do you usually go around staring at people like that?" he asks not looking at me.
“No, only you have that effect on me.” That seems to catch him off guard. I give him a smile hoping that it looks genuine.
“ Potter are you flirting with me?” he said cocking an eyebrow.
“And if I am?” I counter questioned. I was feeling bold.
“merlin” he groans “ I am going to kiss you in five seconds, you can walk away if you want to.”
“And why would I do that?” I reached for his tie to pull him closer.
“Potter yo-” I am kissing him. I am kissing him and it’s the most wonderful feeling.
I turn my face to deepen the kiss. Draco grabs my hair and slips his tongue into my mouth. His tongue is dominating my mouth. His hand slips inside my shirt and he is touching my nipples.
I am evaporating and my head is spinning.
He pulls back, ending the kiss. A string of saliva follows him. I’m breathless.
“breathe Potter, you look like you are going to faint” he is smirking
“I think I might” I don’t look him in the eye, I cant look him in the eye.
“look at me Potter. Are you going to shy away every time we kiss?” he says in a seductive tone. A chill travels down my spine.
“Are we going to kiss again?” I say, looking him in the eye.
“Is this a onetime thing?” he sounds heartbroken.
“No, please. I would like to take you on a date if that’s ok?” I look at his face hopefully.
“It is more than ok” he says and kisses me on my forehead.
After that we went on many dates and became an official couple. I introduced him to Ron and Hermione. They were skeptic at first but gradually their heart softened.
I still remember the day he proposed to me. It was a calm morning. I got dressed for our date. Draco said that we would spend the entire day together. I wore a red jumper, the one Draco got me for my birthday. I wore faded blue jeans and black boots. I stepped out of my apartment and the air was warm on my face.
“There you are Harry” his boyfriend said to him
Boyfriend that word still seems so foreign to him
“Hey Draco. I hope you weren’t waiting for too long.” I said planting a kiss on is cheeks.
“No love I just arrived, around five minutes ago” Draco opened the car door for me, gesturing for me to step inside.
We had a perfect date. We watched a horror movie, which I picked so I could hug my boyfriend when I was scared. Not that I need an excuse. After that we went shopping.
At night we had dinner at a fancy restaurant. Draco took me to the rooftop and we were sitting under the stars when he got down on one knee.
“I am going to do something Harry and I know that you might reject me which by the way you have every right to do but I cant help but put myself at your mercy. Harry Potter I am giving you my heart. It is now yours. You can walk over it and leave. Or you can take it and” he took out a ring from his pocket “You can also take this ring. Marry me Harry. I love you, I love you so much I don’t think that the word love is enough to describe my feelings for you. Harry please be my husband.”
My heart jumped at the word husband. I kissed him, I couldn’t stop myself.
“yes omg Draco, yes pls I will be your husband. Yes” I said in between kisses.
That night Draco made love to me like that was the first time he touched me.