chapter 1
Sneaking out to the muggle park and star gaze initially seemed like a good idea. I was tired of that house and everyone in it, all I wanted was to see Sirius but the sky was dark and cloudy. The whole night out was useless. What followed when I got home was worse.
"REGULUS ARCTURUS BLACK" She screamed at Regulus "I expected this behavior from the blood traitor but never from you"
She grabbed my arm and dragged me to my father's study, dropping me on the carpet. He didn't even look up just continued writing away. She continued her questioning "Do you understand what you've done"
no response
"ANSWER ME"
There was a list of things that I did and she doesn't know. Smoking muggle cigarettes I stole from Sirius, that one night Barty and I had sex, or maybe it was befriending Dora.
If Sirius were here he'd make some kind of joke and get himself cursed. I really needed to stop thinking of someone who couldn't care less about me. Mamans nails sunk into my arm, upset by my response or lack thereof.
"Walking about with muggles and now I find this filth in your room" she aggressively waved to the muggle book Pandora gave him for his birthday. I should have hidden it better or brought it with me, The Picture of Dorian Gray was a fascinating book Pandora thought I'd love, but now all it is is a pile of ashes on his father's desk. Regulus stays silent through the whole ordeal hoping it'll be left at that and I can lay in bed till the next day wishing I was sleeping.
A loud slap echoed through the room "You will never disappoint me again" Walburga demands. She doesn't raise her voice keeping it cold and steady but just as lethal "Do. You. Understand."
no responce
While Sirius dealt with problems and conflict in his own way of being lound and acting out I simply stopped talking, Maman hated this.
"If you want to know so much about muggles then you can be with them, you will not return home till the end of Yule break but not before proper punishment "
"Crucio"
The longer I was under the curse the more my vision went out and my head rang, my body feels like was on fire, and Father sat in his chair watching. It wasn't my first time under the curse but the pain is the same every time leaving me twitching on the floor.
"W-where am I supposed to go," I said weakly
"Out now" was the last I heard before losing consciousness, big hands dragged me outside and the door slammed shut behind me.
I woke to water dripping on me and rain falling increasingly harsher as time went on. I'm not sure how much time passed by just sitting in the rain wishing Sirius was here, it wouldn't matter if he's here or not either way he hates me.
Instead of wallowing in self-pity I get up and make my way over to the park that ultimately screwed me over for the time being. My hands won't stop twitching and my eyes feel heavy. Perhaps I could walk till I find a magic establishment and floo Pandora I thought before passing out once more falling into a nightmare-plagued sleep.