Time Don't be Cruel
Red and Gold
He's here…
Sirius
Take Harry and Run
Hogwarts Dorms
Avada–
James shoots up, Lily, is she alright? Is she?
He ran out of the dorm and to the common room, he can hear him, her voice alongside other voices, and there she is in the common room with other familiar faces, familiar faces that felt like ghosts , he ran towards her, ignoring the concerned gazes and Sirius' worried calls, he pulled Lily in his arms, hands shaking relieved to see her
"Uhhhh? What's wrong James?" Lily is stiff in his embrace, confusion in her voice
"S-Sorry just…" he sniffs as he pulls away
"Are you crying?" he hears beside Lily
"Oh godric! Mary" James pulled her into a hug as well
"Woah there cuddlebug?" Mary has her arms up surprised as Lily
"What's with the hugging spree?" Another voice came
This time James choke in a sob as he almost tackled Marlene, he clings on her tight, the last time he saw her, she's cold, lifeless and James had to close her lifeless eyes for eternal rest, she was murdered , and to see her again, his sister in everything but blood,
"James? Are you alright?" She asked softly returning the embrace, Godric how he missed her
"Prongs, mate, can you tell us what's wrong?" A soft touch from Sirius on his back
"I… I think I'm going mad" James mumbles,still in Marlene's embrace, Marlene rubbing circles on his back
He stayed like that, just soaking in the warmth of Marlene, Sirius, Mary, Lily, if this is a dream, it's a cruel one, how dare time and fate play him like this?
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"Are you sure you're alright? I can take the notes for you, I'm sure Minnie will understand if–"
"I'm fine Padfoot, I Promise"
No he's not fine, he's still feel like he had smoked a ton of gillyweed and Sirius is still fussing, but James knows he'll get truly mad if he stayed in their dorm, time is cruel enough to throw him here, he'll atleast make sure he get to do something before this fucked up dream ends
He sat in Transfiguration, burying his head in his hands, someone sat beside him
"Still sleepy Prongs?" James tensed at the voice
Oh how could he forget?
He sits with Peter during Transfiguration, he looks at him, his last image of him, his eyes are cold, blank ,
I'm sorry
He had said then, and James was struck by the killing curse …
"Prongs?" Peter called again, James flinches as he felt his hand on his shoulder, he scrambled away, abrupt he almost fell off his seat, his stomach churns and he can feel everyone looking at him
"excuse me.." he stammers, hurrying out of the classroom, Sirius is right, he's not well enough to go to class
Yet going back to their dorms is not an option he want to choose, he needs air, he needs to breathe, his feet brought him to the Astronomy Tower , he sat there for long, knees pulled to his chest, tears in a non-stop stream on his cheeks
He knew this feeling, it's the same when he saw Marlene and Dorcas' lifeless body, his parents', when he read about Regulus Death on the Prophet
He's mourning…
He didn't move, he watched as the sky turned a pink and orange hue and the sun descended into twilight and stars glittered in the sky
He heard footsteps walking towards him, he paid them no mind, He kept his eyes on the stars, the person beside him fumbled, he can feel them shifting, trying to find a way to break the silence
"Hey" they finally said and James doesn't want to believe it, the voice, the voice he longed to hear again
"James" there it is, his voice, gentle and smooth that never ceases to escape James' mind, he faced him and he's as beautiful as he last saw him, eyes like starlight that pierces through James' every being
"Regulus" he says his name like a prayer, he pulls him close, tight, as if he'll disappear if James lets go
"Regulus, Regulus" a mantra, he pulls him closer, his head on th crook of his neck, Regulus didn't resist, and wraps his arms around him pulling him as close, his fingers running on his messy hair in smooth circles
"It's okay love, I got you" He says and James breaks, a childlike wail wracking his chest
Stay
Never leave me again
Time don't be cruel
Don't take them away again
Don't take him away again
I'll do anything
Anything…