Chapter 1
Part 1
As I enter our usual train carriage, neither Reggie nor Evan are there, it’s good in a way, I have time to collect myself before Evan arrives. Over the break I’ve painfully realised my feelings for my best friend, just as I was thinking about how I was supposed to greet him, Evan and Reg walk into the carriage deep in conversation. Evan turns to me “hey darling, how was your break?”. My breathe hitches in my throat, he’s my best friend why do I feel so lost when I’m in front of him. I feel as if all the air is knocked out of me when he simply glances in my direction. We always used to jokingly flirt but the nickname made me feel something. “It was fine, would have been better if you were there” I tried to force a playful smirk, but I think it came out more of a weird smile, neither boy seem to catch on though. The rest of the journey goes smoothly, I manage to pick myself up off the floor and join the conversation like a normal person.
After the welcome ceremony finally ends, we head back to the Slytherin common room. Evan and Reggie sit down and begin talking about some class that they were taking this semester, but I’m too exhausted to even attempt to listen. “I’m gonna head up to bed, goodnight Reg, Evan” I say already walking up the stairs. I collapse on my bed after I got out of the shower, I can’t seem to shake these feelings for Evan, I don’t think I’ll be able to face him anymore. My eyes feel heavy and begin to droop, slowly I fall into a deep sleep.
By some miracle I wake up before both of my roommates the next morning, this works out for me, if I get ready now I can avoid having to see Evan this morning. I get into my uniform and make my way down to the great hall for breakfast, thankfully there’s not really anyone there so I am able to eat in peace, I don’t generally like to eat around other people anyway.
I take my seat at the back of the classroom, almost immediately Evan walks in and sits down to my right. “Where were you this morning?” He questions. “Couldn’t sleep.” I try to answer flatly, I can’t interact with him more than necessary. I need to shake these feelings. Just as he is about to ask me another question professor walks in and begins the lesson. As soon as class ended, I packed my stuff and bolted out of the room, I hear Evan call after me, telling me to wait. I move faster to the library, I’d rather not do homework in my dorm right now.
This game of cat and mouse continues for a few days until I get back to the common room one afternoon, after studying in the library. Evan is on the couch, waiting for me. I try to sneak past, but he catches my wrist. “What’s up with you, you been avoiding me all week” he demands. I’m unable to meet his eyes, his gorgeous deep blue eyes. “I’m tired” I state, trying to break free from his grip, he has always been stronger than me though. “Tell me what’s going on” he pushes. My heart beats faster as his grip on my wrist tightens, I want him to touch me, to embrace me. This can’t be happening, not right now. “My grades are dropping and I need to study more” I say through my teeth. I hope he won’t catch on to my lie. He stares at me for a second before speaking. “B I know you, your grades aren’t dropping so please just tell me what’s wrong” he sighs. I don’t know what to do, should I tell him the truth, should I tell him I’m in love with him. I don’t want to ruin our friendship if he doesn’t feel the same way. I take a deep breath before saying “I love you Ev, and I didn’t want to lose you if you didn’t feel the same way” it was almost a whisper. Evan brings his hand to my chin and forces my face to look at him, “I love you too B, always have” he smiles. My breath hitches in my throat as his hands snake around my waist, he slowly bends his head to me and catches my lips.