Me and James Potter broke up a few months ago. Yes, me, Regulus Black bassist and song writer of TheStarlight and James Potter, lead singer of The Marauders have dated for almost a year, in secrecy, and broke up 4, 5 months ago? Why did we break up? Lily Evans. Lead singer of the Flower girls. Don’t get me wrong, I admire her. Her singing is something else. She wasn’t the bad guy here. It was the media. If the media wants, the media gets. Someone started rumours on twitter on how James was secretly dating Lily Evans. If I’m correct, the user was @music. _world which after a few minutes of discovery on Google it turned out they had a whole site on rumours, new bands, new albums, new singles, new musicians, top 10 singles, top 10 albums and lots of other stuff. Due to that post on twitter, their front page on the website there was a picture of James with a hoodie and baseball cap kissing someone whose face couldn’t see correctly. Of course, I knew who it was. Because it was me. Duh. To stop the rumours, me and James made the stupidest decision to break up so the rumours would stop since James wouldn’t be found with anyone else.
Yet, after all this, here he is calling me while I’m with my friends. We haven’t talked in ages.
“Gosh just answer whoever is one the phone! It’s been buzzing like crazy for the past...” Pandora looks at her watch. “3 minutes!”
“It’s no one important!” I answer.
Another 2 minutes pass and after I don’t answer the first, second and third time, he keeps calling me.
“Fuck it.” I take my phone out and excuse myself so I can have a private conversation. “What do you want?”
“Reg…” he says under toned. “I’ve missed you, you know? No need to be so rude.”
“The last time we talked was a couple of months, and now you tell me you miss me? If you’d miss me SOOO much, then you could’ve texted me a few weeks or days after we decided to break up. Or do you only miss me when you’re high?”
“I’m not high. I’m in Japan and it’s 6am here. We have a flight to America in a few hours. And I just thought it would be silly to miss you after we broke up, but it hurts not to talk to you, and kiss you.”
“Loving and missing is not silly.”
“So, you don’t miss me? You didn’t text or anything.”
He got me there. I missed him a lot. And God when I look at him. My brain goes “AHHH!!” Can’t hear my thoughts.
“Did you?” He asks again.
“James…you know how bad I am at communicating.”
“I’ll be at my house tomorrow night. Alone.”
….
And he hangs up. I look out the window processing the conversation we just had.
Half a minute later he sends his new address.
I know we’re done, and I know we’re through and that I should probably not but, oh, how I wanted to see him tomorrow night.
How I wanted to see him tonight. I couldn’t sleep all night. I was just there lying on my bed looking at ceiling thinking about tonight. I picked up my bass and tried to play something. Some chords came into mind, and I mashed them up together. (Authors note: it were the chords from bad idea right? from Olivia Rodrigo.). I wrote them down in case I’d have an idea for a song later.
All
Seeing him tonight
Day
It’s a bad idea, right?
My
Seeing him tonight
Brain
It’s a bad idea, right?
Couldn’t
Seeing him tonight
Stop
It’s a bad idea, right?
Saying:
SEEING HIM TONIGHT.
…
“Fuck it, it’s fine.” I said in the studio. Pandora, Evan, Barty, Dorcas and I were discussing the cover for our new album “heart of ash”. Dorcas was our album cover designer.
“What do you mean?” Evan looked at me.
I stood up and start grabbing my stuff.
“Regulus! What are you talking about?” Barty stood up.
“The album- the cover- James!”
Silence.
Shit.
“James Potter? You two broke up months ago-” Dorcas had realised and apparently so did everyone. “You aren’t going to see him, are you?”
“No-! I- I’m going to my brother’s house, he um, invited me for some bonding.” I tried to lie. I was usually good at it, but James was my weakness. On everything. I knew that they knew I was lying but no one opposed so I went with it. “You guys continue and discuss just text me the cover idea when you’re done.”
“Regulus just know that this thing with James is a cycle. You guys get together in secret, the media thinks James is dating Lily Evans, you guys break up and it repeats, and repeats.” Pandora put her hand on my shoulder and looked me in the eye.
“Don’t worry I haven’t talked with him in months. I only see him as a friend.” Biggest lie I’ve ever said.
Now I’m getting in the car, wreckin’ all my plans, I know I should stop-, but I can’t. 10 minutes later here I was. I pull up to his place, on the second floor and he’s standing smiling at the door like he was the hottest men I’ve ever seen.
“I’m sure I’ve seen much hotter men.” He does that expression like I can read his brain because I’ve just responded to his inside question.
“When?” he smiles again.
“I really can’t remember when.”
I’m not sure who went for it first. Me, James, Both, maybe? But it didn’t matter since after 5 months, we were finally kissing. It was desperate, needy, rough, and where does that lead us? I’m sure you know the answer (hint: his bedroom).
In the middle of our “meet up” I get a text. I ignore it but I saw it was from Dorcas. Probably the finished idea for the cover. I was kind of curious, but everything could wait when James was- well, how do I say it in a friendly way…? Inside of me… (yes that was the friendliest way I could find to describe our situation).
1 hour later when James was taking a shower, I decided to respond in the group chat.
Regulus
LOVE ITTTTT
Srry I didn’t respond earlier I was asleep
Evan
Don’t lie reg if you were asleep it’d be in his sheets.
Regulus
???
Barty
We called Sirius when you weren’t answering to make sure you were alright.
Pandora
He happened to tell us you weren’t with him and we asked about James
Dorcas
He said he didn’t want to come to their meeting tonight because he was “tired” even though he sounded perfectly fine.
Evan
We know ur with him
Regulus
Jeez
Will you stop acting like I’m a 5 year old? I kwneow hto ot care of myserlf
Pandora
You’re kissing him aren’t you?
Barty
HE’S YOUR EX FOR FUCKS SAKE
Regulus
omfg
YES, I KNOW THAT HE’S MY EX BUT CAN’T TWO PEOPLE RECONNECT?????????????????????
Dorcas
I seriously doubt fucking until you can’t remember your name is reconnecting.
Regulus
fuck off
Barty
don’t come crying to us when he leaves you again.
Fucking jerks they were. I wasn’t a fucking child.
All those thoughts were shoved away when I put my phone aside and found James with wet laying besides me with a smile on his face. We kissed again before we fell asleep on each other’s arms. Just like the old days. I missed it. A lot.
For the next couple of days, we’d meet each other each night at his place or mine’s. Each of those nights started with a creak of a door open and a “Hey”. Every second I wasn’t with him I’d think of a song I could write. The lyrics especially. On these nights that we spent together we’d always end up talking on if we got together, we’d be public so there wouldn’t be rumours. I knew that I wanted to be together again, publicly. I knew James wanted the same. It’s just that neither of us had the courage to ask each other. I just knew, when one of us finally had the courage to ask, I’d like to come out to public with a song.
“James, I um, I need to talk to you about something.”
“Shit, is everything okay?” It had been 5 days since our first “meet up”.
“Yeah, it’s just…I really, really, would like to be with you, again, publicly now, I’m not sure if you want the same, and I understand if you don’t want to but-” I was interrupted by James’ lips pressing against mine.
“Of course, I want to.” He smiled again. And I think we both knew that this would lead to a second round.
Regulus
Ok so, good news Ig? Me and James are getting back together, and we want it to be public since the beginning. We decided to tell everyone with music. Ik it sounds cliché-. I already wrote lyrics, chords, rhythm, everything I just needed for you guys’ approval.
https://open.spotify.com/lyrics
(author’s note: pretend it’s not a spotify link but a link to some sheets that Reggie here made)
Pandora
If it’s what you really want, then yes. I’ll do it
Evan
Me too
Barty
Yup
Dorcas
Already have a cover in mind.
Regulus
Tysm!!!
3 months later and here we are. Just about to get on stage (first performance of our tour) and realising a new song. In the end, we decided to name it “bad idea right?” even though my first ideas for the name would have been “I should probably not”.
It’s the end of the concert and everyone is waiting for the surprise song. Everyone’s expecting for Pandora to the little speech thing but no. It’s my song. It’s about me and James. So of course, I’d have to give the speech.
“I hope you all have been having a great night! And I truly do hope that the song we’re about to play will make it even better!” the crowd cheered not knowing what was about to hit them. “Today is the very first night of our tour and we are SO glad to have you all here. So, in order to show our gratitude, we decided to show everyone our new single.” The crowd went feral after this. “But before anything, I need to make an announcement. This song is not just some random thing that came to my mind and bam here you go. No, I’d like to take this opportunity to tell you all that this song is dedicated to the one and only, James Potter, who also happens to my boyfriend.” The who also happens to my boyfriend came out rushed with a huge grin on my face. I backed away from the microphone and waited until Pandora started singing. On this short period of time, I decided to take a quick glance at James who was behind stage staring at me with a grin.
When the song ended, I felt someone run to me and grabbing my waist from the back. Soon enough I found out it was James.
“You did it.” He said looking into my eyes.
“Only because you gave me the courage to.”
And then we kissed while the crowd cheered us on.
“I really can’t hear my thoughts right now.” I said when we broke the kiss for oxygen.