The first Breakup
Everyone in Hogwarts knew Evan Rosier and Barty Crouch Jr were dating, and really it was an inevitable outcome.
After all the boys had been pretty obviously pining after each other since 3rd year.. So when Barty got seriously drunk one night in the 6th year and threatened to hex a 5th year ravenclaw if she ever stepped anywhere near ‘his rose’,well Evan and Barty had to sit down and have a serious chat that resulted in them dating, it was pretty safe to say most of hogwarts were relieved.
Most of them were convinced that Evans' almost cool calm attitude would somehow rub off on Barty , who was quick to anger and overly passionate about anything that would piss off his father, this , however was not the case in fact it seemed this new bloomed relationship would do quite the opposite. The thing was when the relationship was going good , they really were a cute couple- Barty would carry Evans books and the two would walk holding hands and whispering between classes . They could also be quite passionate, often getting caught making out in any alcove or ‘empty’ classroom or broom cupboard. The problem with all their passion , well it inevitably led to some pretty big arguments, which as many of the students in slytherin - no actually - in hogwarts, would tell you led to numerous breakups.
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The first time they broke up was a Tuesday night in October; only 2 weeks after they had got together. They were walking back to the slytherin common room hand in hand when remus lupin approached the pair from around a corner . Barty immediately tensed and glared at lupin but lupin, as well as most others, knew to pay him no mind. He instead smiled easily at evan and held out a pile of parchment neatly held together by a paperclip.
‘Thanks for lending me your potions notes, they were really helpful.. And significantly easier to read than Sirius’- you’d think being from the most noble house of black they’d have decent handwriting but i swear he just scribbles sometimes..’
Evan nodded politely, released Bartys hand so he could grab his notes and replied ‘any time, i have that book you lent me, i'm almost finished i'm liking it so far, the plots pretty good - i like the depiction of the main character- he seems relatable y’know’
‘Yeah, i get that, well just return it when your done- there's no rush’
He quite liked Lupin- even if he was a gryffindor half-blood, he had good taste in books and always let evan borrow them, especially the muggle ones his parents would never allow him to buy for himself.
Remus flashed Evan another smile before turning to leave. Once the tall gryffindor had walked around the corner, evan turned his attention back to barty beside him.
Barty’s face was almost dark and he was clearly scowling at where Remus was previously standing.
‘Bat, you alright?’ he asked, genuinely concerned and slightly confused about his boyfriend's expression.
‘Evan. why the fuck are you giving your notes to that.’
‘Bat- darling-what in salazars name are you going on about, he was sick so i gave him the notes from potions that's literally all that happened’
The term of endearment that would normally cause a small smile to grace his boyfriends face seemed to have no effect in fact Barty’s scowl seemed to deepen for a moment and when he looked at Evan, his normally glittering brown eyes seemed to be filled with venom.
‘That's all that happened huh? So he isnt lending you books? So you didnt drop my hand to take the potions essay from him? Don't treat me like im stupid. I bet you wish it was his hand you were holding.’
‘ Barty what the actual fuck. I'm not treating you like your stupid but your acting completely irrationally-’
‘I'M ACTING IRRATIONALLY. DID YOU SEE THE LOOK THE HALF BLOOD GAVE ME , ALL CONFIDENT AND- AND…’
Evan reached out to place a hand on his boyfriend's shoulder but Barty just backed up and moved away from him.
‘Dont fucking touch me. I bet if i wasn't there you would have kissed him. You would’ve, i can tell it's obvious when you find someone attractive and clearly you would rather be with that then me,I'm clearly not good enough for the great Evan Rosier-’
‘Barty i'm not going to stand here and listen to you yell at me about what ‘might have happened’-’
‘SEE! YOUR NOT EVEN TRYING TO DENY IT. I HATE YOU- I FUCKING HATE YOU- YOU THINK YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE , TALKING AND FLIRTING WITH THAT FUCKING HALF-BREED-‘
Evan turned to walk away, clutching the parchment Remus gave him tightly letting it crumple in his fists. He could feel his anger rising in him but he knew there wasn't any point arguing with barty at the moment. Barty wouldn't listen to reason and it would be better to leave him for a bit to cool off,Barty would come and apologise once he’d had some time to calm down- or at least that's what Evan hoped.
‘DON'T WALK AWAY EVAN. YOUR SO FUCKING WEAK YOU WONT EVEN ARGUE WITH ME-’
Evan looked back over to see Barty stood there gripping his wand tightly. Evan could feel the anger bubbling to the surface but bit his tongue slightly before he could act on it.
‘Bat come find me when you’ve chilled the fuck out. I cannot be bothered right now-’
‘FUCK YOU EVAN- I DONT KNOW WHY I EVER WANTED TO DATE YOU-’
‘ Then don't date me bat, Merlin knows why I was interested in you -you're jealous and childish , it doesn't surprise me your dad wants nothing to do with you. Your seriously fucked in the head- no ones going to love you if you act like this’
Evan spat back as he began to walk away, finally noticing that people were around and staring. Not that he cared, barty was the one causing a scene. He could hear the whispering of the other students so he did what he did best. He forced his face into a stony cold expression and held his wand obviously in his hands- almost challenging anyone to talk to him.
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Barty stood in the middle of the corridor breathing heavily. He still held a tight grip on his wand and was staring at where Evan was standing. He didn't know what to do with himself. Evan didn't love him, Evan didn't even like him. His rose isn't his anymore. It only took him two weeks to leave. He then turned suddenly and walked to the astronomy tower deciding he couldn't face sharing a dorm with Evan after that.
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Evan walked into the dorm and collapsed down onto his bed , shoving the hoodie and books littered across it from barty earlier, straight onto the floor. Regulus looked over to him, amusement evident thanks to the slight sparkle in his greyish, blue eyes.
‘Trouble in paradise..?’
‘Barty flipped because i let lupin borrow my notes for potions’ he sighed slightly hating the fact he almost missed the presence of barty in the dorm even after their fight
‘Really? Thats .. unexpected- considering he is well aware lupin is shaggin my dearest brother’
He pushed his face into his pillow
‘I thinshf we brokesddh upsdsj’
‘Repeat that without your face pushed into a pillow’
‘I think we broke up.’
‘Shit. and .. your .. okay with that?’
‘No but he was the one being a prick so im not going to go running back begging for forgiveness he needs to grow the fuck up- not everything is about him’
‘Where is he?’ Regulus stood up abruptly, grabbing his wand and walking quickly to the door of the dorm.
‘I don't know and I really really don't care.’
‘Evan- that's your boyfriend-’
‘ex -boyfriend’ evan cut him off sharply not wanting to talk about Barty anymore, just silently hoping for sleep to come quickly.
‘He’s still your friend Evan. And you know barty- he's not- it's hard for- ‘ regulus shook his head slightly struggling to express into words about barty.
Barty had always struggled with jealousy and the second he felt even slightly replaced he took it into his own hands and pushed anyone and everyone far away. Regulus remembers when he invited Evan to start hanging out with them in 2nd year because they shared a dorm so surely it made sense to hang out outside of the dorm. But Barty had convinced himself Regulus was trying to replace him and decided to move into the library for three nights, stop eating in the great hall and started seeking out fights with literally everyone. Eventually ms Pince caught him passed out in the library and slughorn had to forcibly move Barty back into the dorm- but not before Barty had been given detention and had multiple points deducted from slyhterin.Even after moving back into the dorm he refused to talk to either Regulus or Evan and even went as far as to refuse to go and eat for some fucked reason and ended up in the infermary after collapsing in a DADA lesson.
Regulus was hardly able to handle his own emotions but to see Barty messed up the way he was - well.
Regulus looked briefly back at Evan before leaving, looking for barty before he inevitably did something stupid.
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Barty sat shaking slightly in the astronomy tower. He wasn't sure if it was shock or the cold. He didn't really feel cold but the way wind was ruffling his hair and robes he deduced it must be pretty cold. He just felt numb. The real-ness of the breakup was washing over him in waves. One second he felt the distant feeling of rage before it fizzled and was replaced with an almost sadness before the numbness just simply consumed him.
He chewed on his bottom lip, silently praying it would split and bleed, just something to distract his mind. He and Evan have fought before, of course they have, it's a normal thing with friendship but none of them ended on such a final note. He didn't normally feel so shit. He used to get that adrenaline rush seeing the anger burn in Evan's normally cool gaze. This time it was different- the anger seemed worse and more severe with the fragility of their new relationship. Barty shook his head slightly wishing he could stop thinking about Evan and their relationship. He squeezed his hands into fists, digging his nails into his palms as he corrected himself-
not a relationship anymore.
Not his rose anymore.
He probably doesn't want to be your friend either.
And Right Regulus won't take your side.
Not once he hears what happened from Evan
You’ll have to find new friends.
Who are you kidding? No one will come near you.
They all know how fucked in the head you are
Evan was right .
N o o n e i s g o i n g t o l o v e y o u .
Breathing suddenly seemed harder. The air was heavy and it was squashing him. Evans' words spun violently round his head. It was making him feel sick - his stomach now felt uncomfortably full from the food they had eaten earlier. Everything around him felt heavy. His head felt heavy as he stood. The space around him seemed blurred and he, on wobbly legs, made his way closer to the edge. The sky was dark and the stars were fairly obvious in the sky. He tried looking for regulus’ star but he couldn't find it. Honestly he wasn't sure why he was trying, all the stars seemed blurred together at that moment.
Thats when he heard footsteps behind him. His body seemed to react of its own accord- wanting comfort- he retreated from the edge, moving towards the staircase.
he stood staring, unmoving waiting for the person to come up