Safety in his arms
Remus woke up to Sirius holding him tight, with each passing minute it felt like Sirius was trying to hold him more and more.
Remus checked his clock, it was just the middle of the night, the moon was as bright as Sirius's eyes. "I'm sorry." Sirius whispered, his breathing grew heavier and faster, he was panicking.
Without a thought Remus lifted up Sirius's face to look him in the eye, his eyes were puffy and tears were streaming down his eyes.
Remus wiped the tears from Sirius's eyes with his thumbs, gently holding his face. "Look at me Sirius, what's wrong dear?" Sirius started wiping his nose, he was struggling to get any words out but he was trying his best. "I'm not good for you, I should be able to take care of myself."
Remus started shifting his hands through Sirius's hair, calmly rubbing his temple. "You're more than good enough for me Sirius, and you always take care of yourself, that's why you're here in my arms, but I will always take care of you even if you can handle yourself, that's what love is." Remus started humming, it always calms Sirius down a bit. "I love you, please don't let go." Sirius's tears had dried, leaving his face dry and red.
Remus lifted Sirius up and sat himself up so Sirius was sitting between his legs, their legs crossed like the design on the ring Remus had gotten Sirius. "I'm not going to let go, I'll never let go." Remus held sirius tightly, still humming.
The warmth of Remus's arms was comforting to Sirius. And Remus's neck was vibrating because of his humming, he pressed it against Sirius. Sirius's mind started warming up, the vibrating of Remus against him anchored him back down to reality and away from his past.
“You’re safe Sirius, you’re here with me.” Remus kept repeating it until he felt Sirius’s breathing calm down. “I love you, so so much.”
Remus looked back at Sirius and saw him smile before he closed his eyes and pushed his head into Remus’s chest, Sirius had snapped out of it and was back in Remus’s arms, where he felt the safest.
Remus sets Sirius on the side of the bed, he lets Sirius hold his hand while he grabs pants for him. “You need to eat something.” Sirius let’s Remus put pants on him and Remus picks up Sirius and holds him by his back, Sirius crosses his legs around Remus’s back so he doesn’t hit anything.
Remus takes Sirius to the kitchen and sets him down on a counter, Sirius sets his hand on the counter, it’s cold, but it’s nice. “Now just stay right there and keep looking pretty ‘kay?” Sirius nods slowly, he’s still half asleep.
“What are we feeling for tonight?” Sirius sat and thought, there were only a few foods he could eat most of the time because he couldn’t keep anything else down. “Noodles, just noodles please.” Remus walks over and kisses Sirius on his forehead. “I’ll make a lot just so you can have some in the morning as well.” Sirius smiles, his eyes lit up like he just got a new dog, he loved it when Remus treated him this way, which was very common.
Remus puts on some music, he sets it at a low volume to not disturb Sirius, but Sirius turned it up a bit and started bobbing his feet rhythmically. Remus gets everything out and starts preparing the food, Sirius listens intently to the sound of the music and gets lost in his thoughts, all he can think about is him laying in Remus’s chest while Remus plays with his hair.
Sirius closes his eyes, but it felt like as soon as he closed them he could feel Remus’s hand brush against his shoulder. “Hey dear your foods done.” Sirius opened his eyes, Remus had already prepared him a plate.
Remus handed the plate to Sirius, which he started slowly eating, still bouncing his feet. Remus kissed him on his cheek. “You did an amazing job at looking pretty.” Sirius smiled, when Remus was around him it was hard to not smile all the time.
Sirius finished his plate, he ate as much as he was able to. Remus took the plate from him and washed it off before he dried his hands and picked Sirius up again. “Are you ready to lay back down?” Remus waited patiently for Sirius to respond, Remus started taking him to their room. “Yes, but I don’t want to sleep yet.” Remus nodded and kept walking, as he reached their room he set Sirius down on the bed and got in after him.
Sirius cuddles up on Remus’s chest again and picked up his phone, He took a picture of them together before he set it back down. Remus picked up his book and started reading while playing with Sirius’s hair, still focused on him. “I love you moony.” Sirius had a sleepy voice, it was soft and a little slurred. “I love you too dear.” Remus held him closer, taking in the moment. Sirius crossed his leg over Remus and began reading with him. Remus was a faster reader than Sirius was though. “Hey you’re going too fast.” Sirius pouted as much as he could before feeling a wave of comfort again. “I’ll wait for you alright?” Sirius smiled and Remus waited until he tapped him to turn the page, they were both interested in the book but they were still captivated by each other.
Remus felt as Sirius’s tapping became slower and slower until it stopped completely. His breathing grew a bit spaced out, he was completely asleep.
Remus set his book down and looked at the moon outside of their window, then he kissed Sirius’s forehead before slouching down and falling asleep himself.