Breakfast
James loves when Regulus is touching him. It always sends little electric shocks through his whole body. He loves how soft Regulus’ lips are on his. He lives for closeness. But this was the first time Regulus asked him to stay over after their date and James hesitated. He would gladly stay over, slept next to this lovely boy, and have breakfast together the morning after. But he wasn’t sure if he was ready to get physical with him. He cared about this relationship, so he wanted to do it right.
He agreed to stay over and that’s how he found himself in the bed with Regulus Black, tightly pressed against him. His mouth was moving across his jaw and neck. He could feel his hot breath. It was consuming in the best way possible. Regulus’ hands slowly traced James' arms, his chest and a few minutes ago settled on his waist. They were making out heavily and James loved it if it wasn’t for the concern that Regulus will want more.
The black-haired boy bit his lower lip and James let out a small moan. Regulus took it as a cue to move alone and slowly traced his hand below James’ waist. At this moment James panicked. Because he didn’t say anything, Regulus couldn’t know. He was afraid that if he says something Regulus would be mad at him, because in the end it was him who agreed to stay over, and he let Regulus kiss him like this.
“James?” Regulus asks in concern and lets space between them. Only now he realized he froze for a moment. “Are you alright?”
He can do it. It will be fine. It doesn’t really matter if they will have sex tonight or in a week or month. “Sure, I’m fine.” He says and lets the well-practised fake smile spread on his lips. He’s about to reach out for the other boy to bring him close again, but Regulus stops him.
“James, what’s wrong? Have I done something that you are not comfortable with?”
“No?” James lies and Regulus tills his head waiting for the truthful answer. James sights.
“I don’t want to have sex.” He says and quickly starts to correct his answer. “I mean I do want to have sex with you. But... Like... Not tonight?”
He waits for the disappointment to appear in Regulus’ eyes but there is none. “Okay. Anything you want.” He gives him a soft kiss on his lips. “It’s important to me that you tell me what you do or don’t want, always.”
James nods and starts to get up from the bed. “Yeah so… I’ll probably go…”
“Oh. Okay, if that’s what you want.” Regulus whispers from the bed. He is sitting cross-legged in the middle of the bed. He looks sad and James feels guilty he is the reason.
“I’m sorry that I agreed to stay here and then…”
“James? You know that you can sleep over and not have sex with me, right?” Regulus asks carefully. And no, James doesn’t know that. Because that is how it always went in his previous relationships. Once he agreed to stay over, they had sex. That’s the rule, right?
Regulus seems to catch on to his confusion and crawls towards him. He reaches out for his hand and James lets him. “I asked you to stay over because I like having you close. Because I want to fall asleep next to you and wake in your arms, I want to have breakfast together and watch the morning news. Not because I want to have sex.”
“Really?” James asks and the hope settles in his chest. Because yes, he would love to do all those things. “You are not mad at me that I want to wait?”
“Not at all, James. I would like you to stay over, if you want to. If you would feel more comfortable there is a spare bedroom right across the hall, you can sleep there, and we will have our breakfast in the morning.” James is searching his face for any signs of dishonesty, but to his surprise he finds none. Regulus seems indeed to just want him here without any promises. That’s a first.
“I would like to stay here with you, just to be with you. But Reg, I won’t change my mind tonight. Is that really, okay?” James asks again because he wants to be sure.
“That’s completely okay,” Regulus promises, and he lets get James back in the bed next to him. “We will talk about this kind of topic more soon. I want to be sure that both of us are comfortable with the boundaries and pace of this relationship. It’s important.” And James kisses him, because yes, he would love that.