Sirius left him.Right before his birthday.
Regulus was surprise when his older brother knocked on his bedroom door at 4 am .In his sleepy state he woke up and opened his door which he locks every night .Sirius eyes told him everything he needed to know .He is going to leave him.He isn’t here to say goodbye or ask him to leave with him.It’s the window he wants to use to escape their personal hell.It’s the closest one to the ground .Sirius holds his school trunk in one hand and his broom in the other.Regulus moves to the side to let his older brother enter the room.The older one doesn’t moves for a few seconds looking at his baby brother with a sad expression.But he still doesn’t ask him to leave with him.Regulus knows he wouldn’t dare to leave .He is too scared , too weak .Or that’s what his parents tell him every day .Then a sudden movement.Sirius walks to the window and opens it not looking behind as he does .When he is hallway through the window he stops to look at his brother who just closed his bedroom door and now staring at the wall .They both know it’s the official end of their family .”Come with me Reggie please ..”.Regulus flinches .There it is .Sirius asked him .But he can’t.He is too much of a coward .He can only shake his head lightly .He hears his brother sigh and then leaving closing the window behind him .
It’s just then that Regulus understands that he is on his own for now on .No one will protect him or care for him.His parent will know he is the one letting Sirius go .Letting the heir of their family go .They will punish him .But it’s worth it .It’s worth it all to give it back to his brother who took every punishment,every punch and every spell to protect his brother .Regulus lays back down on his bed .
It’s now his turn to protect his brother from his parents.
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He is back on the platform with his trunk .
Regulus is slightly skinnier ,his hair much longer and he has big dark circles under his eyes.He knew that they would punish him .But he wasn’t prepared for what happened .Now he is the heir of the family which means he has to be the Perfect Son.No the perfect Daugther.
His parents told him that the nonsense had to stop because he needs to represent his family.
He came out when he was 9 .Or his parents found out when he was 9.They knew he had a secret that he didn’t told them .So they hit him with spells until the nine year old Regulus was laying on the floor crying and trying to protect himself with his arms.It didn’t helped him.In the end he was so exhausted he can’t even remember telling him.Just the punishment after.He still has scars from it.Well they didn’t accept it but their main focus was on Sirius so it was quickly forgotten.They kept using his deadname .But he could cut his hair shorter and wear the clothes he wanted.Now that’s over.
He feels the eyes on him .He want them to look away .
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He is still a boy he tells himself over and over again until someone touches his shoulder.He flinches at the touch but relaxes slightly when he notices his friends Pandora and Evan.The twins he knows since his first year in Hogwarts.Evan is a Slytherin too but his twin sister is a Ravenclaw.”Hey Reggie what happened to you ?” Evan asked him concerned.He doesn’t knows how to answer.He is ashamed to say the least.His friends notice his uncomfortableness and decide to change the subject to which Regulus is thankful to.They tell him about their summer in Italy.Regulus can’t focus on what his friends is telling him.It gets to much for him.And then it happens.His eyes meet another pair of eyes.His Brother is here.Sirius is here.He is staring at him while he stands next to his friends.Regulus just stares back.Sirius looks at him with a question in his eyes.
What happened to you Reggie?
He doesn’t wants his brothers pity.He knew what would happen when he leaves.He didn’t care.So he can stop pretending like he does now.
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To Regulus relieve the train arrives and he chooses to take this chance and vanish into the train.
His friends are behind him which he ignores .He gets into a compartment.No more eyes on him.His panic disappear slowly and he relaxes.They sit down but Regulus still doesn’t talks .After a few minutes Barty and Dorcas walk into the compartment last minute.Barty notices the change in Regulus immediately and sits down next to him taking his hand and squeezing it .He looks into Regulus eyes and waits for approval to hold his hand.
The thing about Regulus he hates physical touch but craves it at the same time.Only his friends are allowed to touch him and well .. his brother.But that’s in the past.When someone other then his friends touch him his brain just stops working.It’s like someone turned off a switch in his brain.Something inside him is wrong.He knows it.
But for now he is okay with Barty holding his hand.It’s something Barty always does when Regulus is in distress.Barty knows it calms Regulus down.It brings him back to reality.
Regulus looks out of the window.He listens to his friends until he feels eyes on him again.But this time it’s different.It’s Evan.Rosier glares at him.Oh not at him.
He is glaring at their intertwined hands.Is he jealous?