Ruddy Dog Brain
Sirius:
“Padfoot, fetch!” yelled James, making me lose my train of thought. He threw a ball in my direction and I couldn’t help it; I ran after it
‘Ruddy dog brain’ said one side of me ‘Get the ball!’ said the other part. I bet you can guess which part is the dog brain.
As I caught the ball I slammed into someone making us both fall over and hit the ground hard. I guess she must have fallen harder because it took a second for her to sit up, and it looked like she had seen a ghost.
“Oi! You alright mate?” Yelled James as he jogged over with Remus who- ‘Oh god! He probably saw me fall, he’ll think that I-’
“You alright love?” asked Remus to the girl I knocked over who still looked dazed
“Of course, she’s not alright! Sirius slammed right into her! She might have a concussion!” Oh great, the girl was one of my dear brothers’ friends. Regulus looked more stressed than usual, which is saying something.
“And he apologizes, right Sirius?” Remus said through gritted teeth. James was now helping me get up.
“I’m sorry, uh…”
“Pandora” the girl responded finally looking me in the eyes. Once she had I wished she didn’t, her eyes were pretty enough but the way she looked at me made me think she knew something about me that even I didn’t know yet. It’s very unsettling.
“I’m sorry Pandora,” I said averting my gaze, focusing instead on her hair. It was long, like really long. It reached about her hips and had little butterfly clips in it, along with, now, grass.
“Oh hold still you’re bleeding,” said Remus “Here I know some first aid magic I’ll help” He grabbed her hand to cast the spell and her knees buckled. Both Regulus and James went to stop her from falling but she stood up straight before even a second had passed and looked at Remus, with, ‘Why are there tears in her eyes? What the bloody hell is wrong with this girl?!’
“Is everything okay?” asked James cautiously, as if he was worried talking to her would set her off again
“Yes, I’m so sorry but I had a bit of a blood rush. I hope I didn't scare you.” She said flashing a grin
“Not at all” Responded Remus flashing a grin of his own. ‘Oh bloody hell, his smile is like the sun, no it’s brighter. Fuck he’s hot, bloody hell I want to f-’
“Oi! Seivilius what do you think you’re doing?” bellowed James towards the area where we were hanging out earlier, towards ‘Oh great’, Snape.
Severus Snape is the worst, greasy, disgusting, second-rate, second-class little bitch in the whole of Hogwarts. He pretends to be friends with Lily Evans, then turns right around and calls her a mudblood. A mudblood! And I know for a fact he copies off her notes in potions, just so he can act like he’s better than all of us. Remus wants us to try and leave him alone but he doesn’t understand what Snape says in private to his little friends, about him, about me, about James, about muggle-borns.
“Oh sorry, I didn’t know you poofs owned this part of the grounds,” Snape yelled back with a stupid little smile on his face “I guess you and your boyfriends wanted to have some privacy.”
I lunged for him, leaving him alone be damned. I grabbed him by the front of his robes and hoisted him in the air
“Say that again,” I growled “Say that and see what happens.” just then I felt a slender hand on my arm. I looked down and it was Pandora, she was looking up at me.
“Don’t, it's not worth it, your friendship isn’t worth this.” She had a pleading look in her eyes like she was trying to tell me something else with her that I just. Can't. Get.
I let him go, but I wasn't going to let this go.
"Run home to Slughorn little snake." I called after his retreating figure. I went to look at Pandora but she was standing with Regulus, Remus, and James like nothing had happened. As I walked over I caught a snippet of the conversation between Remus and Pandora
"- and it's really a disease, not something they chose or could control."
"I-I couldn't agree more" Remus stammered out, pink at the ears. I felt a white hot flash of anger, 'why should he be blushing for her?! She hasn't been in love with him for the last 5 months! Who has? ME!'
"What are you all talking about?" I asked glaring at Pandora and Regulus
"Werewolves." She responded oblivious to my hard gaze. I immediately felt bad, she was defending them to Remus and James. She was showing Remus that he's not a dark unlovable creature, even if she didn't know it. I feel like shit for glaring, being mad, and thinking she was strange.
“Oh, okay sorry,” I mumbled
“Don’t be sorry, it’s natural to want to know what your friends are talking about,” she replied
“Well if you lot are done, I distinctly remember wanting to go to our dorm?” Regulus said impatiently looking at Pandora.
“Wait hold up, our dorm? She’s in Ravenclaw and a girl. What do you mean by our dorm?” Remus inquired.
“Regulus and I share a dorm,” she said, rather unhelpfully,
“WHY?” I shouted incredulously, ‘Why are they sharing a dorm? Are they dating? Oh, bloody hell does he have a girlfriend?
“I, uh, well um,” she looked uncomfortable all of the sudden and she couldn’t seem to find an explanation. Once again really unhelpful
“You don’t owe them an explanation.” Regulus butted in taking a small step to shield her from the looks we were giving them.
“No, it’s-it’s fine. I have really bad night terrors and they cause me to use magic to defend myself. Only I do it when I'm asleep so I can’t control it, Regulus can wake me up and stop the magic.” ‘Oh’
“Oh, sorry I didn’t mean to pry” Remus muttered looking uncomfortable. ‘Even when he looks like he’d rather be anywhere but here he’s so cute’
“Anyway, Reg is right we should get going, I saw some butterflies today I simply must tell him about.” Regulus’ eyes widened when she said butterflies as if the word had some sort of significance. They started to walk away, and Reg took her hand and whispered something to her
“OK! Bye!” James called, but I don’t think they heard him.
“Don’t waste your breath trying to make friends with them James, they hate us,” I muttered sullenly, wishing with all my heart it wasn’t true.
“He’s your brother! He can’t hate you!”
“Sometimes it’s so easy to tell you grew up an only child.” I scoffed
I don’t want Reg to hate me, but it’s his life and I can’t and won't stop him from doing what he wants. And so far he wants to be the perfect son for our parents. But I will never be the son my parents want me to be. I won't marry some pureblood girl I don’t even know because they want me to, I won’t join this rising ‘Dark Lord’ and I won't turn my back on my friends. Not James the blood traitor, not Peter the nobody, not Remus the werewolf. This is my one chance to try and escape the responsibilities they want to push on me and fix myself into someone Remus can love and someone who I can stand to look at in the mirror, and step one in my grand plan is making sure greasy old Seivilius leaves us alone for the rest of our time at Hogwarts.