Seeing from His eyes
Remus’ POV
Sirius Black.
The superstar.
Aesthetically pleasing to look at
With his devil may care charm…
Blinding smile
And grey eyes
That reminded me of sea foam and spring shower clouds.
However when you got to know him, it was easy to see him clearly.
The quirks and personality that had been hidden because of a life spent in front of the camera.
I spent my time noting everything I noticed about him that the camera hid.
Sirius Black was a raging extrovert and he enjoyed making friends.
He was friends with almost everyone on set and he spoke to everyone, having things in common or to talk about with every single person, or even going as far as researching their interests to hold conversations.
Sirius Black was obnoxiously overconfident and yet was extremely insecure.
He pushed himself to extreme lengths, not asking for help, afraid to be a burden to people. He didn’t like to ask questions for fear of being a nuisance and only asked when he was comfortable with you. He was quick to brag about his pretty face and pretty body but the day I told him he was getting better at dancing he had started sobbing. So he was an entire oxymoron.
Sirius Black was extremely clingy.
This came as an entire surprise as it was actually both the Black brothers but they showed it in different ways. Sirius, like a puppy wanted to always play, cuddle and be around people but Regulus just sat beside the people he was close to, not touching but basking in their presence, kind of like a cat.
Sirius Black was beautiful.
This was rather obvious as he was the cover page of many magazines and even went on the runway. His job needed him to always be in front of a camera but this was not the beauty I meant. He was beautiful with his loud laugh that rang through the hallways as he stole one of my sweaters. He was beautiful in the way his hair stayed in a bun when he was dancing and wisps still framed his face. He was beautiful in the way he grabbed my hands and pulled me wherever he wanted me to go. He was beautiful in the way he wore his heart on his sleeve. Sirius Black was beautiful.
And I liked him.
Yes, I liked him.
What was there not to like?
However I couldn’t tell him.
I just got him to be my friend after treating him badly and being so mean to him.
I was the reason he was pressured to come out.
Even if he agreed to forgive me and let us be friends, a relationship was a stretch.
I definitely could text Padfoot about this but they’re my fan. They are mandated to find me handsome.
I stepped into the practice room.
Evan and Barty still were arguing so it was actually really awkward in the practice room when we were having to practice and pretend we aren’t listening in to the argument.
Bets were going round about them ending up together or breaking about permanently.
I had no idea how it even started but hopefully they don’t find out that one of the shitty moments of their lives made good off-screen entertainment.
Sirius rushed into the practice room, his hair braided and put in pigtails as he smiled at me, making my heart skip at least four beats.
This was definitely a fitting way to die.
He was flushed all over, from the obvious exercise and I couldn’t stop my brain from wondering how he would look while exerting himself in other wa_
I slapped my cheek in mortification.
He reached out and grasped my hand, pulling it from abusing my face
“You really need to stop hitting yourself to change your train of thoughts. Just shake your head” he said laughing while pulling me to our specific place in the practice room.
Yesterday’s rehearsals were already shot so we had today with cameras off to discuss concept. Then we would act like we figured them out tomorrow for the cameras.
“Okay, our emotion is fear.” I stared the discussion. I usually did as I was the professional dancer. So Sirius usually went ahead with majority of my ideas. “When I think of fear, I think of darkness, clowns, wolves, and stuff people normally fear. What do you fear Sirius?”
He raised his hands to count it out.
“Losing all my fans, being worthless, aging and losing my beauty, anyone finding out I’m gay, my mother, my_”
I raised my head up in shock.
“Your mother?” I asked and he blinked like he didn’t understand why I was surprised.
“Yeah, I didn’t want to disappoint her, get put on ice diets or all in all make her upset. And while sometimes I had to take punishment off Reggie it was still scary, especially when I was younger.”
He paused. “You are an only child”
He suddenly looked very worried.
“How did you bear all the punishments alone?”
Refusing to ignore the warnings anymore I grabbed Sirius hand.
“Sirius, we need to talk”