Dear James
“Dear James Potter,
First of all we might as well get this out of the way, I want to say that I hate you. I hate how arrogant you are, I hate that you think you’re something special just because you made the quidditch team and won a few games. I hate your messy hair and how you think it looks sexy when you mess it up even more (and I hate that it does). I hate how cool you think you are with your stupid friends and I refuse to call you ‘the marauders’ - just so you know that stupid nickname makes you sound like a bunch of ancient boring philosophers. I hate that every girl seems to fall in love with you or Black, why should you have a gaggle of fangirls when you’re such an insufferable git?
Did you know I'd become one of them when you kissed me? I bet you did, you’re arrogant enough to think that everyone loves you and the worst thing is they do. James bloody Potter, even McGonagall has a soft spot for you. So I bet you knew but you kissed me anyway didn’t you? You kissed me even though you liked Lily and now you’ll always be my first kiss, you stole that from me just because you could.
And I hate you for it - because if you hadn’t kissed me then I wouldn’t have fallen in love with you and everything would be fine. That’s what did it really, the kiss. Before it I never really saw what everyone else saw, Mary McDonald always said you were the best looking boy in our year and yes objectively I always knew you were attractive but I never really saw the appeal, plenty of guys are attractive, so what?
That was until you kissed me and I saw your face up close. Do you know how strikingly beautiful you are? Not just handsome, Sirius Black is handsome but you are beautiful. It's probably something to do with your eyes, I never realised hazel could be such a pretty colour until you leaned in and I saw them up close. Like copper pennies gleaming at the bottom of a crystal fountain - it’s downright unfair.
Do you wanna know what I hate about you most of all? I hate that deep down I don’t hate you at all. How could I when after you kissed me I noticed all these other things about you…
Like how you always stick up for Remus when people make fun of his shabby robes and spend hours with him in the hospital wing when he’s ill. And i've seen you on the quidditch pitch trying to teach that Pettigrew kid how to play and you never give up even though he’s rubbish at it.Then there’s the fact that you’re a rich pureblood and it would be so easy for you to look down on muggleborns like me and Lily but instead you hex anyone who says anything about it.
And you’re really smart, like really smart, you don’t even try and you let anyone copy your answers if they’re stuck.
After you kissed me I spent the whole of second year and half of third year liking you and it’s been hell. Do you know how hard it is to watch you fawn after Lily all the time? I know she doesn’t show it but it probably makes her feel special all that attention you show her and I’ll bet that one day she’ll fall for your charm. Because that’s your talent right? You’re good at making people feel special, at making people like you. When you talk to someone you make them feel like they’re the only person in the room.
Well now the year is almost over and I think that I'm finally starting to get over you James Potter. This time next year I'll be completely immune to you and I'm confident that If I ever kiss you again I won’t catch love…though maybe I'd catch an std!
Always and forever,
Y/N L/N”