Chapter 3 - Late night Chat
“Draco,” I said, interrupting for surprisingly the first time, “I remember this part,”
“You Do?” He asked me, a small hint of excitement crossing his face. “Your not messing with me?”
“No I’m not, I can tell you what happened if that will let you believe me,”
"Go on then, tell me this next part, I miss hearing your voice," he said kissing me.
"Anything for you gorgeous," I said back, then looking down to see I hadn't let go of his hand yet.
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"Oi," I yelled after I hit the ground. Ouch!
"Sorry!" I heard Draco cough out from behind me.
"What are you doing!" I said, more aggressively than necessary.
"I was coming to see you?"
"Well get off me would you,"
"Oh sorry, right," and he picked himself up and off me.
"Thank you!" I breathed out, "Now what did you need to talk to me about?"
"Well, I just wanted to make sure you were okay because you haven't talked to me since the Slytherin saw us kissing. And the fat lady told me you said not to let me in," Draco rushed out.
"That's very sweet of you to check on me but I'm fine, nothing is wrong or bothering me," I was lying through my teeth even if I knew Draco would notice. Which he did.
"Why are you lying to me Harry! I am your boyfriend you can tell me anything!" He shouted the last part at me.
"I can't, because it's stupid and doesn't matter, can you drop it," I begged, I really didn't feel like crying.
"No Harry, I can't drop it. Your not okay and I need you to tell me what's wrong," he was yelling now.
"Honestly why do you care so much!" I screamed back at him.
"Because I love you!" Then the room went still. We hadn't said Love to each other yet, and now he was yelling it at me tears in his eyes. "Shit!" I heard Draco mumble.
"Look Harry, I know....." I cut him off with a kiss, I didn't need his rambling in the background of my thinking.
He fucking loves me! My boyfriend, the person I care for the most in the world, loves me, 'You don't deserve his love, he shouldn't love you and you shouldn't love him. He's a Slytherin, your enemy,' the evil voice in my head sounded but for once in the past 3 days now I ignored it.
"Draco," I started, "I Love you too, for a while now," I let out a breath I didn’t realise I was holding. He brought me back into a kiss. After breaking away he ask me.
"Then why have you been ignoring me and not looking at me or sleeping with me," he looked like he might cry.
"Because you said you liked our secret relationship," I mumbled, lucky for me Draco heard it, he always hears me.
"What?" I heard Draco question, "I'm confused,"
"I don't want to be a secret anymore, I don't want to lie to my friends all the time, I don't want to have to sneak out your room at 6am so no one knows I was there, or when you have to sneak way from my bed in the morning," I said and now I start crying, big tears as my knees give way onto the stone floor.
"Harry!” Draco said worried as I fell, “Harry, it’s okay,” He said holding me close and rubbing circles into my back as I cried. I can’t remember the last time I cried like this in front of people, but in this moment with Draco I cried for what felt like hours and he never left me side, even when the crying stopped and it was silent.
“Harry,” He whispered, “I am sorry I didn’t realise sooner that you wanted to be public and didn’t like sneaking around.
“Hey!” I said shocked, my voice rough from crying, “ I never said I didn’t like the sneaking just the lying and early mornings.
"And now you want it to be public?" He questioned breaking the hug to look me in my eyes, “So you don’t have to lie or wake up early?”
“That and,” Before I could finish Draco cut me off.
"I'm not ready," looking at the ground and starting to pull away from me.
"Hey," I said grabbing his face in my hands. "That is okay, why don't we go to bed?" I suggested to change the topic.
"Please," Draco said and we walked back to my dorm in silence.
The next morning I was woken briefly by a kiss from Draco leaving my dorm. Finally at a decent hour I sat up and started to think about what had occurred the night before.
Firstly Draco told me he loved me and I said it back, then I admitted that I want to be more open to others about our relationship and he said he didn't want the same. How that hurt, he didn't want to share me with the world like I did him.
I looked at him at breakfast and he looked back smiling, I got a note from him asking to skip our make out sesh as he needed to do something with his mates, to which I agreed. Before finally having potions before detention with Snape, this was the only class Draco and I shared.