I Break Down And He's Pulling Me In (In A World Of Boys He's A Gentleman)
Regulus
Regulus' hands are shaking, sweat rolling down his forehead, he can feel it. He hears people speaking, probably James and Sirius making jokes before they annouce the winner, but he can barely hear them over the sound of his mother's voice in his head. The voice is telling him how, if he doesn't get the VMA mother is definitely gonna freak out. She's already yelling at him, telling him how he's a disappointment and how Bellatrix deserved the award. The award is for Best Music Video and he knows his wasn't amazing but please, please, please, he has wanted this for so long.
As he's thinking this he is keeping a poker face on the outside. Until, James walks up to the microphone, having to lift it up so it's at his height level (damn him and his hot physique). He starts talking and Regulus gets even more anxious: ,,And now, best music video goes to...''- Regulus wants him to hurry the fuck up if-,,Regulus Black!"
He is awestruck, his mind is telling him to get up and walk over to the stage but it's like his legs won't listen to him. Luckily, Pandora was right beside him to wake him up, she hits his shoulder and when he gets up, she gets up with him and they hug. He's happy. He's finally happy. As Regulus is walking up to the stage, he sees his brother's face. He looks proud. That makes Regulus really happy. James is standing next to Sirius, he looks so good in his suit. James gives Regulus the award, hugging him. ,,You deserve it'', he whispers.
Regulus walks up to the microphone and he's awestruck. He didn't know that many people were here. He feels nervous now, his tie is choking him and he can't breathe and his eyelids are heavy and he's sweating. He starts talking. Well- his mouth is moving- but he can't hear what he's saying. Hopefully thanking his fans and friends, he doesn't know. Then his senses come back on and he's actually keeping track of what he's saying.
''U-um, I just wanna thank my fans again, I wouldn't be here without you and I wanna thank my friends- Pandora, Barty, Evan, Dorcas, all of those beautiul people over there'', the camera pans to the table his friends are sitting on and they wave- but when the camera pans back, it's not just him up on the stage. He recognizes the person as Cissa's boyfriend- Lucius. Regulus was a fan of his music, until he met him. Lucius was very transphobic and never really liked Regulus. Even Narcissa didn't like him, it was just a PR stunt. Narcissa is so in love with a woman- Alice- he thinks that's her name.
Maybe Lucius is there to congratulate Regulus? Maybe they can finally be friends.
''Yo Reg, i'm really happy for you, imma let you finish, but Bella had one of the best videos of all time! All time! And at least she isn't a fag'', he mumbles the last part, Regulus thinks that maybe people didn't hear it. He hasn't come out yet. Then, they start booing. Well of course they fucking heard, they aren't deaf. Now they know that Regulus is gay, fuck, they're booing him! Everyone's going to hate him now!
He hears yelling, then he sees James and Sirius chasing after Lucius. Then their friends join in. Then his friends join in. That makes him smile- just a little bit though.
He doesn't know why he expected his family to be proud when his cousin- Bellatrix- was also in this category. He has always been compared to her, after all. He just can't wait to get home and cry himself to sleep again. Might even write another song- if people let him stay in the music industry after finding out about all of this. How he's been keeping secrets from them. No one's gonna trust him now.
He gets off the stage and he's in a haze. Everything is blurry. He wants to go home to his cat and call Sirius and listen to Taylor Swift. Maybe also text James. They're apparently doing that now. He sees James, his pretty suit all messed up and his hair is going in all directions. God, he's so into him. Out of nowhere- Regulus starts to tear up. Did this really just happen? Why him? Then he starts sobbing and people are looking- but he doesn't care. James notices, he walks up to Regulus and hugs him so tight his ribs may be broken. He whispers sweet nothings into his ear and Regulus is fully breaking down.
He feels James moving, and he moves with him. James is so smart, taking him where people won't see him crying. He knows Regulus so good. Regulus pulls away and he knows he looks pathetic, his eyes all wet. But James smiles and says he deserved the award. So he did. James would never lie to him.
Well, he wasn't getting on that stage to congratualte him- that's for sure.