OC/Severus Snape
I saw his figure hazily through the rain clouding my vision. He was standing on the edge of a cliff, so close that I feared the he would fall down to the roaring dark waves. The waves that crashed mercilessly against the sharp cliffs. A drop of a hundred meters, neither of us would survive it.
His cape was flying behind him and the wind tossed his hair wildly as he stood. I dared not no to speak, only the cold wind would be his comfort now. I was holding my heart in my hands, my still beating heart. But I dared not to say anything, I did not utter a word. And the heart that once was full of warmth was now slowly withering away, flowing into dust and falling down from between my fingers.
I walked closer to Severus and took a slow step after step until I could see his face. Grim and shattered. His eyes showed only emptiness, the once rich pools of black had turned into a void, a void that was ready to meet its end. Tears had streamed down his cheeks, I could see the slight marks on his face. But I did not utter a word. He was my world and now it was all going to tear itself apart.
I had told him years ago of this day. I had shared the cold fate and his destiny. And now that it was here, all I wished for was things to be different.
I cursed my sight, I cursed all the prophecies that had brought us to this moment. I wished I hadn’t been born to cause him this misery. I wished I’d never loved him so I’d never have to give him up. If I’d never told him, never loved him; maybe things could’ve been different. Maybe he would have survived this day.
I looked at my hands and saw the aura of my heart still ghosting there. Red and murky black death mixed on my palms flickering in and out of life. As my heart thumped for the final time, my shaking fingers twitched and shuddered. There was nothing I could do to prevent this.
The war had put us to this place. All the moves and countermoves had led us to exactly this moment. The moment that I’d seen in a vision a decade ago. And in the blink of an eye the decade had passed. All the whispered words, the kisses and the love were now but a memory. A memory that was slowly fading with the remains of my heart.
Severus moved. After standing here for long he was pale, the contrast against his clothes making him look almost black and white. Slowly, he pulled out his wand and brought it out in front of him. The rain was still falling and it made his wand wet, droplets glistened upon the dark wood.
“Expecto patronus”, Severus cast. His deep voice broke halfway of casting, the last word only a whisper in the wind. White whisp of smoke flew out of his wand but nothing followed. The patronus didn’t come. He tried again but this time louder. His hand made a large circle over our heads as he gathered the power to cast the fully corporeal patronus. “Expecto patronus!”
A loud cry filled the air as a white phoenix burst out of his wand. It flew in front of us and searched for dementors, making another animalistic screech before returning to Severus. It extended its feet as Severus offered his arm to it and it latched onto it with its talons.
“What a majestic creature you are”, he examined the patronus on his arm. It snapped its beak and leaned towards his long caressing fingers. A small flicker of hope glimmered in its white eyes, flicker of hope and utter devotion to its caster. The creature spread its wings and jumped into air and settled to flying above us, battling against the wind.
As the phoenix’s scream filled the air again, Severus finally turned to me. He had lost some of the void in his eyes and a small smile played on his lips. He stepped closer and cupped my cheek in his hand. I swallowed the sob finding its way out.
“If today is the day I will go then I shall accept it”, he murmured. “Thank you for teaching me how to love again.”
Tears now streamed from my eyes and wet his hand. I shivered and tried not to think about the future. Not now, not ever. Would he ever return to me? Severus moved and dropped his hand from my face. I grabbed it as he was turning away.
“Don’t go”, I cried. “Don’t leave me.”
As he heard me he turned back to me and looked at me with dark desperation; and a pain welled up inside me. His look was telling me that he did not want to go. HE would never want to go.
“Severus”, I pleaded.
He then made a step and grabbed me by my shoulder and pulled me to him for the final kiss. The last kiss I’d ever share if he would not return to me. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he hugged me tighter. I would never want to leave. I never wanted to let him go. But as fast as the bruising kiss had started, it was over.. Not even an eternity was enough time to spend together with him.
Severus pulled away and laid his forehead against mine. We stood there for a moment in a silent embrace, both with our eyes closed. I breathed in his scent, the scent that felt like home, my only safety. Then he let me go, laid a final look at me before gathering his iron will again and turned away from me.
I reached out for him in vain when he morphed into black smoke. My hands were met with cold rain and a freezing wind instead. Severus flew off the cliff and made his way towards the final battle of Hogwarts and towards the Shrieking Shack.
As I watched him go, I held onto the memory of him.
“Our love will never die”