Chapter 2
He woke up, fuck he woke up. He can see the ceiling of the infirmary and can see his brother suddenly standing up when he saw he was awake already.
"You scared me so bad! Why would you do that!?"
His brother asked screaming
"Be gentle with him" He heard Madam Pomfrey said
"what happened?" his brother said
"It doesn't matter" he said with a hoarse voiced
"You were asleep for two weeks..Dumbledore said that you were seen under the Astronomy Tower did you jump?"
His brother asked him
"I did." He answered "Are you insane you could've died!" his brother exclaimed "Too bad I didn't" he mumbled.
"seriously sirius? this is a serious matter" his brother said
"I know and i am serious it just doesn't matter anymore." he said
"Of course it does! This is your life and you're just wasting it" his brother said and he just simply didn't answer.
"well I have class in 15 minutes i'll come back later" and his brother started standing up
"oh and siri please do try to eat" his brother said before walking out. He is so completely fucked for waking up.
"Here's your food sirius" Madam Pomfrey says to him
"thank you madam pomfrey" he tried to eat but it seems like he just can't because after he tried to he found himself in the lavatory puking all the food he ate.
In the evening his brother visited him again "siri" his brother called him so he shifted his attention to his brother "When are you fine to get out?" his brother asked him.
"Pomfrey said I still have 3 days before going to classes again" He replied " Just be careful I can't lose you and you know that right?" his brother asked "Yeah.." he replied. Regulus then went to bid his goodbye as the infirmary will be closing soon so Sirius is left alone with his thoughts once again because he can"t sleep but there is something he doesn't know...
2 weeks ago
"that was exhausting" James told peter while they're carrying Remus to go to madam pomfrey as she was already expecting him there until they say something
"J-james is that a human?" peter asked james completely terrified no that's not-not him right? james said in his head because even though he did took remus's side that doesn't mean he doesn't care about him.
Yes he's angry but james? Nice james with a pure golden heart could hate him for life? Oh he can't do that remus might but him? He will always miss him his brother so seeing him laying there with a pool of his own blood he practically jumped but still gently handed remus to peter because after all of their angriness he has to save his brother.
The next day remus woke up with such a bad headache
"Hey rem you feeling alright?" he heard james asked
"Everything hurts" remus frowned
"Yeah it was bad last night with him not being there.." james said
"I don't care about him" remus said angrily "Where's pete anyways?" remus asked
"with sirius" james replied
"What why is he with him?'" remus asked him
"Well remus you see-" James then explained what happened and remus just felt his whole world burn.
Ever since then remus borrowed James's invisibility cloak to watch sirius every night.
Yes he knows it's creepy but it's just that he can"t fall asleep if he hadn't seen him and now he is just on his way to sneak onto the infirmary but he was shocked when he saw sirius-not asleep no but awake? Sirius is awake. Finally after 2 weeks he's awake.
He can see him just staring into space oh merlin what has happened to him? This isn't like Sirius, Sirius is loud not this quiet guy so who's this? Because that's definitely not sirius remus thought. Well since it's creepy to stare at him- he decided to just go back to the dorm but after that he just can't seem to fall asleep.
He had a hard time falling asleep but he did succeed he was thinking 2 more days until he had to face them unless-and the door was opened by his brother of course he had to make a dramatic entrance but this time his brother wasn’t alone but with his friends pandora, evan and that jr something-oh right barty.
“Oh you’re awake already I bought you food” his brother told him
“why are you here?” He asked him
“Just wanted to check on you, I won’t be here for long we have classes.” His brother answered he just nodded. His brother then gave him his food and waited for him to eat before they left to go to class,He thought of something..A great idea? Well maybe?
"Sirius!" He heard someone yelling at him he turned around and so peter
"Oh pete" He said
"Mate you didn't tell me you're already out of the infirmary" Peter said
"I-I didn't think you'd cared besides i'm not your friend anymore right? you're remus' friend not mine and I'm really sorry but I have to go bye!"
He quickly walked away from him and just ignored the person who is calling him.
"Sirius!" Someone called for him ' not again' he thought and when he turned around he saw regulus coming to him
"Oh it's just you, what do you need?" He asked
"I was just worried about you I went to the infirmary but you weren't there!" His brother practically yelled at him he winced before trying to calm down his brother
"Reg-Calm down okay! I'm alright I'm alright" He said while regulus is calming down.
They decided to keep walking just taking a "brotherly" walk so that they can talk "reg I-uhm I gotta tell you something" Sirius said VERY Nervously "What is it?" Regulus asked curiously while raising his right eyebrow "I'm running away-" he wad cut of by regulus screaming
"AGAIN!? Sirius are you- please tell me you're kidding." Regulus said
"I-I'm not " Sirius said
"You can't possibly run away again! You can"t keep running away from your problems" regulus scolded his brother
"B-but" sirius tried to argue
"No- don't."
"well-" sirius said to his brother
"well what?" his brother said clearly mad
"Reg- I already made up my mind and I already talked with uncle alphard that I will go to france and live with him.."
Sirius explained to his brother
"what for,,?" regulus said quietly
"What?"
"What for sirius? We just got our of that stupid house and you want to leave again for what? Sirius please for once just stay."
Regulus told his brother not minding the tears that fell down on his cheeks
Sirius can see the tears on his brothers eyes
"Reggie I need you to understand I cannot be here anymore, after what happened I just can't bear being being ignored like a plague or being alone"
Sirius said
"You have me! You have me sirius you were never alone I was always there for you!"
Regulus said crying while sirius was dumbfounded
"Reg come with me-Let's uh let's go to france start a new life? Come with me reg please"
"No"
"What" sirius asked confused
"I'm not like you sirius I might have left them but i can't leave my friends"
His brother rushed to come inside the castle leaving sirius there, As it started raining sirius stayed there alone.
Sirius was always alone, or so he thought while growing up sirius always felt alone yes he and regulus was close but that didn't stopped him from feeling like that. Until he went to hogwarts and met his friends and for the first time he felt that he wasn't alone. But now he felt so alone.
It was the end of school he was already packing his stuff with a strange feeling knowing he would never come back to this place that he used to thought was his home.
Regulus ignored him ever since they talked and he just wished he would talk to him before he goes away.