A Break. Maybe.
After Sirius finds the diary, he hears steps behind him so he hides the book into his cloak pocket and turns to approach the steps he heard. It was Remus, looking at Sirius with a scowl furrowing his expresison, his scars running across his face, creasing the countless freckles on his skin. Sirius knew fully well what that expression ment. He was in trouble. “We have to talk.” Remus said with a dark tone “look- Moony, you- i- you know that i ment to talk to you, i wasn’t avoiding you” sirius tried to stutter with his annoying nervous half laughter, but remus was too angry to believe that bullshit “Who even spoke about avoiding anyone? You’re digging a grave for yourself in this moment, you know it” the wolf scowls and he sighs letting his frustration known “yeah, i am aren’t i?” the other speaks quietly almost to himself “listen Sirius, i’m getting so tired of your bullshit that i could have a whole cow farm and still not have half as much the bull shit you spew. You have to speak to me. What’s going on in that head of yours?” remus speaks frustrated and almost at his last wits “you can’t just close yourself like this and run away Sirius. Please.” he speaks again, more softly this time, almost gentle but hurt nevertheless. Sirius sighed, almost defeated “Listen, i’m- i don’t know what’s going on with me ok? I don’t know what i want, and i fucked everything up you have literally no reason to still chase me, so why do you do it? Why do you still want me here?” he says and looks away, his arms cross and his shoulders close. He was trying to shut Remus off, but he wouldn’t allow that “Sirius, you’re my best friend. I thought that- that there would be something more but then the whole deal with Elias? Do you have any idea of how much that boy likes you? He’s loved you for so long and you treat him like this? What did he do to you? What did I do to you?” Remus speaks getting frustrated as he starts pacing back and forth. Luckily that area of the castle was pretty empty most of the time, so it gave tht two boys the privacy they much needed for the conversation. “Remus, no stop please you didn’t do anything” sirius says in a softly hurt way and takes a step closer to Remus, internally cringing at himself for showing how sensitive he actually is. “then what is all this Padfoot? Tell me” Remus walks up to Sirius and cups his face with his scarred hands and his eyes are two hurt pieces of soul. “Sirius what am i to you?” the dark haired boy stays quiet and his eyes close when he sighs.
He was fighting himself so hard, trying to be detatched, trying to run and leave everything behind but Remus was his moon. He was the tides and the sea doesn’t run away from the moon. He opens his tired eyes and leans into remus, hovering his lips just a little bit “you’re my moon remus” he says in a whisper and leans into remus’ touch, to which he sighs and brings Sirius in a soft hug. “you’ll drive me crazy Sirius. You will.” Remus says and keeps hugging the boy, that after a while of silence decides to speak “how do you do it...how can you always pull me back in and love me anew?” remus distances himself for a moment so he can see Sirius’ eyes and then he speaks quietly, just over the other boy’s lips “because i like you. So much.” sirus looks at the scarred face in front of him and his breath doesn’t seem to wind up in his lungs and his eyes open more at the sound of his confession “Excuse me?” he manages to whisper. “i like you Starshine, you are my ocean” Remus says softly and sirius stays so still he looks like he’s a sand statue. “Starshine?” remus speaks worried, but sirius was too busy trying to breathe and realize what the other had spoke. “y-you like me? But- how? I’m literally the worst person ever! I’m a homewrecker and i destroyed us. Our friendship, and- and the whole group only because i’m an idiot and i did horrible things. Why would you like me Remus? I tricked you and elias, i’m greedy and insolent and-” the boy was interrupted by a pair of lips, scarred but soft and well taken cared of. Remus kisses Sirius hard, basically smothers his mouth on the other’s and then pushes him away and looks at him with his fierce eyes “i know you better than you know yourself. Yes you’re an entitled bastard, a don giovanni, a primadonna and a basic dick thinker, but you’re kind, and compassionate and you’re loyal to your friends, and you’re so damn hot. Yes you’re right, you tricked me and you hurt me deeply and elias too. And i fault you for it, don’t think that i don’t. But i know you hate yourself for what you did and somehow you’re trying to compensate. And the fact that you’re thinking about it every waking day makes it a bit better. So yes. I like you like crazy and i want to be with you. Please.” he says softly and hugs him tight. Sirius hugs the wolf back, and quiet tears of happiness roll down his cheeks and he finally whispers “yes..i want to be with you too” “for real?” “yeah totally” Sirius laughs and kisses remus on the cheek “i don’t deserve you” he says softly “you totally do.” Remus bites back and rolls his eyes, but he smiles and pecks sirius on the lips. Remus sighs and sits down on the stone bench.
“so, what now?” “what do you mean?” Sirius sits next to the other “i mean… what are we going to do? Do we tell anyone? Do we tell james and elias?” Remus looks at the archs going along the corridor, and looks at the grass and the trees in the small garden in front of them, well hidden in the walls of the castle. “i think we should wait a little. Just keep it hidden, have fun with it” he says with a small smile “i know how you like to be risky”. Sirius smirks “oh yea~ well you’re not entirely wrong”. Remus knows where this is about to go and gets up, and looms over sirius, towering him with his tall figure. “wanna show me how much you love risk Sirius?” he says with his most provocating tone, to which Sirius happily complies and gets really close to the taller boy’s face, teasing him with a smirk “fuck.yes.” he whispers over remus’ lips. The wolf grabs the dog’s wrist and drags him behind a tree in the small garden and immedately shoves on the trunk of the tree the raven haired boy to hungrily kiss his lips, seeming starved of the intimate touch. Sirius was a bit shocked by it but then he felt ssomething rubbing against his groin and smiled in the hungry animated kiss. He takes remus’ hair in his fist and pulls it back, to gain a moment to breathe “you might be able to hold your breath for longer than me, but i smoke. Let me breathe.” he says panting, but with a happy smirk. Remus lets out a small whine as his head now stings with how harshly Sirius is grasping his hair, but then he can’t help but rub his hardening against sirius’ groin to try and get some pleasure out his painful erection “hey- please? Come on you know how much you made me wait for this” he pants and looks at Sirius with half lidded eyes, clouded already with blind lust, like a wolf in heat. “i know, you just have to wait a little more, go a little slower” he speaks gently and lets go of remus’ hair “try again. Softer” he commands and Remus follows, he softly kisses Sirius and gently with his hands, traces his lines, goes under his button up shirt and tightly holds his waist, bringing it closer to him so he can frot against it. Sirius starts to moan in the kiss, soft and gentle, carrying his leg upwards to wrap it around Remus, to give him more access and space to rut against him. “are you okay Sirius? Can i go?” Remus asks quietly in a soft moan as he inhales Sirius’ perfume, on his neck, and gently licks before sinking his teeth to leave a mark. “mh-! ow- don’t bite too hard” sirius lets out a surprised quiet moan through his teeths “Sorry.. can’t help it, you taste delicious” Remus says after giving a small lick on the bite, almost as an apology. Sirius chuckles and gives a small nod to authorise the impatient taller boy to go on and take him. “you can go Remus, i think i’m ready” he breathes out and he hears Remus’ belt unbuckle quickly and the zipper going down. Sirius quickly undoes his pants as well and lets them down enough to give Remus easier access to his ass. “be careful?” Sirius says and Remus lets out a quiet moan “yeah of course” he says with a nod and then slides his hard dick in between sirius’ legs, to just rub his cock on the other’s ass cheeks. In a slow rithm he thrusts and moans a little bit but it’s more unsatisfied moaning rather than of pleasure, because he can’t do anything other than slide his big dick against sirius. On the other hand, Sirius is quite nervous because just now he’s realizing how Remus’ manhood is going to affect his poor guts but he was also wildly fucking extatic about it “enough with the rubbing rems i can take it” Sirius states and like a good boy remus follows and slowly slides his cock into Sirius’ ass being careful to not be too harsh with the other. Sirius kisses remus to try and distract himself from how painful it is and the other kisses back, sweet and gentle “tell me if i have to stop, okay?” remus says in the kiss and gently caresses Sirius’ side, to relax him.
The black haired boy nods and pushes himself downwards onto Remus’ dick, which makes him moan in sirius’ ear. Remus picks up his pace and his control is slipping away bit by bit, Sirius finds himself biting on his sleeve to not moan too loudly and remus just keeps going at it, he licks and bites and sucks on sirius’ neck, leaving marks left and right like a very, very horny wolf. Which he is. “F-fuck please- ahn- remus oh merlin! Keep going” sirius moans and huffs, while remus is too busy creating another hickey on sirius’ neck. “you taste so fucking delicious sirius, and you feel so- so great” Remus grunts and thrusts in a bit faster, while holding on the tree to not fall. Sirius was struggling to keep it down, because remus was going at the perfect pace, hitting his g spot so many times it was starting to feel too much, it felt like he was so sensitive and ready to finish so quickly from how good it was. Sirius bragged about the fact that he was not quick with his release, but Remus knew exactly how to please his man and he was doing it so well, Sirius had to not onlt bite in his sweater, but also cover his mouth to stop himself from being so loud. “Keep it down Star, they’ll find us” remus speaks with his ragged voice, his breath’s a bit laboured from moving so much and takes off Sirius’ hand from his mouth, to replace it with his lips as he keeps going with his rithm to please the boy under him. Sirius felt shame and embarassment from being such a sensitive princess, but he knew like he liked it so much, all the shame, the arousal, the fact that he could be discovered at any given second, it all flueled the blood going straight to his painfully hard dick, and to his empty head. “Rems- s-slow down i feel so close i don’t want to cum so fast” Sirius whines and tries not to moan but remus replies with a deep thrust that makes the poor bottom feel tingles in his body and to bite down on remus’ neck to not moan too loud. Remus groans at the bite, but he still goes at that pace, thrusting with a rythm that’s getting increasingly erratic, and irregular, just kind of animalistically. He presses sirius on the tree and thrusts in deep, again and again. He can’t hear anything other than the sound of his own grunts and low moans, and his heartbeat that’s going too quick, chasing his own pleasure. Sirius is so overbearingly close he can’t help but moan through his teeth but even so he’s quite noisy, no matter the efforts to stay quiet. He can’t hold it anymore he just wants to finish, his body is literally screaming for it, remus is almost done too “Remus- ah! ‘msoclose- mhh” sirius moans and remus nods “me too- fuck..!” remus pulls out and in a suffocated grunt he shoots his load onto the tree, while Sirius isn’t so lucky and he ends up finishing onto his own pullover, between gasps and trembles, and lets his leg slide down so he can stand up, relatively speaking.
After a while of catching their breath in eachother’s arms, Sirius chuckles a bit “i didn’t know you had it in you” he says softly and pulls up his pants back up, while remus is being awfully cuddly and won’t get off of sirius “yeah.. thanks” he mumbles in the other’s shoulder. “come on you big lump, it’s time to go back” Sirius smiles and buckles up his belt while remus whines and pulls his pants up too with an eyeroll, but then he smiles a little as he helps sirius take off the stained jumper “i think that this one goes into the laundry” he says with a small laugh, and kisses the tip of sirius’ head gently. “tonight i’ll cuddle in your bed” Semus says with a playful grin and Sirius nudges him with a smile “fine, you win”. The two lads walk closely to the dorms, with their knuckles brushing from time to time, exchanging knowing looks along the way.