Chapter 10
Chapter 10: Magic, it makes me sick
Louis was having a fun night he really was, until he saw them. He was just standing by zayn in the back listening to zayn ramble on about the ethics of muggle veganism when he heard an eruption of roars that rivalled the ones he had previously heard in the stands and when he looked up he saw them. Harry and a Girl. Harry kissing a girl. Louis could physically feel his heart split in two, like an aching that could never be fixed. His vision was suddenly blurry, the room was too hot, his collar too tight and Harry was kissing a girl. Harry was kissing a girl and suddenly the world was over. No. No no no no no not again. No no no no no no no no please not again. Not after last time. Not after he moved to an entirely new school. He couldn’t do this again.
“I’ve got to get out of here” he whispered to zayn
Louis couldn’t get out fast enough, and in the far distance he could hear Harry calling out for him but he couldn't face him right now. When they finally got outside Louis breathed in the cool winter air like he was a smoker that had just been given a new pair of lungs.
“Mate are you alright what’s wrong?” zayn asked worried
And all Louis had to do was look at Zayn and he knew.
“Oh”
“Yeah”
Zayn gave Louis a hug and in that moment Louis knew that he would never be rid of this. Ever. There was then a sound, the opening of doors.
“Zayn, zayn, he's coming” louis said frantic
“Its ok mate, you’re gonna have to face him at some point”
“Not right now”
“Hey what's wrong are you alright?” Harry asked
And Louis almost gave in, he really did. He almost gave in and spilled it all out to harry. One more word and he would sit Harry down and tell him each individual thing that made Louis feel this way, describe to him how Louis could draw each individual speck in Harry's eyes off by heart and how those curls would actually be the death of him. But of course he didn’t.
“Yeah i’m fine, just tired is all” Louis responded fighting off tears and the breakdown that accompanied it
“Are you sure, lou why don’t you let me get you a glass of water or something you can lay down in my room and have a lie dow-”
Thankfully Zayn stepped in and Louis could get away, from him. When Harry finally left and Louis and Zayn were alone in the dorm Louis fell into Zayn’s arms and wept. And there they stayed the whole night. Louis in Zayn’s arm and Zayn trying to comfort Louis the best he could not knowing what he was going through.
It made him sick.