James wish he was anywhere but here He was sitting at his usual table with us usual friend and usual breakfast but why did everything annoy him?
His skin was irritating
His ears were ringing from the noise
His jumper was itchy
His feet were numb
The food he was eating felt off
Everything was spinning
He couldn’t stand it, it was to much. James starting shaking, his leg bouncing up and down and his hands felt like the were vibrating so James closed his eyes and looked down at his lap hoping no one would notice, James hated when people noticed his breakdowns, he felt embarrassed and selfish for having them, he didn’t know why he felt like this but he just did Every noise around him jumbled together but he could hear a faint “Jamie? Are you ok?” He couldn’t tell who it was from
Suddenly he couldn’t keep the tears in his eyes, they started to fall down his cheeks so he made a run for it, abruptly jumping out of his seat and walking as fast as he could out of the great hall, trying to find somewhere he could calm himself which he eventually found, a hall with no one so he leaned against the wall and slowly slid down it till he hit the floor, tears flooding out of him by now
‘Why did this have to happen now?’
‘Why was I like this?’
‘Why why why?’
Thats all he could think of
He realised he was having a panick attack when he couldn’t catch his breath, he was breathing heavily and the shaking got worse, the numbness that was in his feet has now spread all around his body, but what made him panick the most was he could hear footsteps, quite loud ones.
He hid his face in his knees trying to avoid this stranger coming closer and closer to him “James? Jamie?” He recognised the voice as it got closer It was regulus “Jamie- oh mon soleil, don’t worry I’m here” James couldn’t tell if he was relieved that regulus was here or not but he decided that he would be for now, as regulus sat down beside him he buried his head into regulus chest and cried “Shhh everything’s going to be alright, just keep breathing in and out, mon soleil” regulus said in the most calming voice James had ever heard
After a while James calmed down and decided to lay his head on regulus’ shoulder “Mon Cher, I know you probably don’t was to talk right now but I really need to know what happened to help you later, you don’t have to tell me now, you have all the time in the world but I would love to try help”
James smiled at regulus attempted to not seem worried “Its ok , I can tell you, what do you want to know?”
What happened before you left the great hall, you seemed so….”
“Disturbed?”
“Yeah……”
“Everything was just too much, the noise, the food, my skin….” James groans as he covers his face “I don’t know it was…it was…”
“It’s ok take your time” Regulus whispered, James almost didn’t hear it
“It was like I wasn’t myself and I felt like everyone was judging me for it”
Regulus sat there with James listening to him and soothing him, rubbing his hand up and down James’ back “Thank you” James whispered
“For what?” Regulus asked slightly confused
“For listening to me, for being here for me, for…… everything”
“You don’t need to thank me, I will always be here for you, just like you were here for me when I ran away from home, you are a great person and I will always think that, I love you james”
If james had a ring on him he would get down on one knee and ask regulus to marry him right now
“I love you too, cariño”