Waiting Room

Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
M/M
G
Waiting Room
Summary
They say your life flashes before your eyes, what does Regulus Black see?*Based on the song Waiting Room by Phoebe Bridgers, recommend listening to the song on repeat tbh*Also this is the first thing i’ve written in years so like it’s not phenomenal or anything, but it should be a quick easy read!
Note
And I can wish all that I want, but it won't bring us togetherPlus, I know whatever happens to me, I know it's for the better

The cavern.

 

Regulus Arcturus Black stood on a desolate island within the heart of the cavern, encompassed by unfathomable darkness and the inky depths of the surrounding waters, teeming with Inferi. The only feeble illumination came from a faint, haunting green glow, a spectral reminder of the poison within the basin at the island's center. A reminder of what lay beneath the poison, Salazar Slytherin’s locket, a Horcrux.

 

In his trembling hand, he clutched his locket engraved with the initials R. A. B. Though it appeared as a normal, mundane locket, to Regulus it was a testament to the heavy burden he carried. Within the locket, there stood a letter,

 

To the Dark Lord,

 

I know I will be dead long before you read this, but I want you to know that it was I who discovered your secret. I have stolen the real Horcrux and intend to destroy it as soon as I can. I face death in the hope that when you meet your match, you will be mortal once more.

 

R.A.B.

 

Beside him, stood his loyal house-elf, Kreacher, a faithful companion in this desolate moment. Faced with the grim choice to reach the locket, one of them had to endure the agony of the poison, and Regulus, scarred by the memories of the Dark Lord's cruelty towards the elf, adamantly refused to subject Kreacher to that torment once more. The weight of sacrifice hung heavy in the air, a testament to Regulus' unwavering love for his companion.

 

He knelt before Kreacher, pressing the weight of the locket into the faithful elf's small hands. In a hushed plea, he instructed Kreacher to substitute the Horcrux with the decoy as Regulus himself drank the poison.

 

Regulus, resolved and resigned, consumed the poison and each bitter drop was a testament to his sacrifice. As he endured the agonizing ordeal, Kreacher moved with a determined swiftness, executing the plan to switch the lockets. The cavern echoed with the haunting sounds of suffering, but Regulus pressed on, allowing Kreacher the chance to escape with the Horcrux.

 

For Regulus though, making an escape proved to be anything but simple. In the midst of battling the relentless poison, Regulus faced an even darker trial as the Inferi emerged from the murky depths, with their undead hands reaching hungrily. Each moment became a struggle against both internal and external forces, a desperate fight for survival. With every ounce of strength, he resisted the cold grasp of the Inferi, a lone warrior against the encroaching shadows, determined to defy fate for as long as his weakening body would allow.

 

Though now Regulus could sense his will and ability to fight slipping further and further away, the relentless onslaught of the Inferi growing more hostile with each passing second. Their claws tore at his skin, attempting to drag him into the engulfing water and its suffocating depths. In these desperate final moments, he saw a tapestry of his memories and Regulus clung fervently to the thoughts of those who had left an indelible mark on his life, weaving threads of influence that intricately shaped his very existence.

 

He thought of his parents. Orion and Walburga, figures tainted by malevolence and darkness. Amidst the oppressive weight of their actions and the relentless cruelty he endured, a twisted acknowledgment dawned within him—an unsettling realization that, in some convoluted manner, he would miss the haunting presence of his progenitors. In the echoes of their malevolence, he found an unlikely thread of connection to the very source of his suffering. These unforgiving scars were etched upon his soul and woven into his existence by the hands that should have cradled him with love. In these poignant moments, Regulus harbored a profound hope, a hope that death would extend a kinder hand than the lifetime of harshness his parents had woven into the fabric of his life.

 

He thought of Sirius. His brother. The bond they shared resonated with a somber melody. Though now strained, it was a connection unlike any other. One that echoed through the corridors of their intertwined lives with the haunting notes of irreparable loss. Regulus reflected upon the night that Sirius left, envisioning what could have been if he had been brave enough to go with him. Regulus remembered his mother’s tapestry, the once proud Black family tree now marred by the charred absence of Sirius' name and portrait. The night he left echoed with the agonizing flames, and in the depths of regret, Regulus yearned for the courage to erase his own existence from that fateful lineage. In this final act of defiance against the encroaching darkness, Regulus clung desperately to a fragile hope, that even in the face of irreparable loss and betrayal, Sirius would carry the memory of their bond and of him with love and pride.

 

He thought of Pandora, his first and dearest friend. Despite her endearing quirks, she had been the solitary soul who truly understood him. From the instant their eyes met, an unspoken bond was forged, a connection that transcended words. Pandora possessed an intimate understanding of him, a knowledge deeper than any other in this world. As he faced the impending void, he knew with a heavy heart, that the absence of her presence would be an ache he could not escape, not even in death. Despair settled over him, as he silently hoped that she would carry his memory gently and not be burdened by the weight of grief. The thought of her grappling with the pain of loss fueled the intensity of his own anguish, a symphony of sorrow playing out in the silent recesses of his fading existence.

 

He thought of Evan and Barty. Two of his closest friends who were forced into this life of servitude for the Dark Lord. Their once vibrant spirits are now shackled, mirroring the oppressive fate that Regulus himself bore. Amidst the crushing despair, he grasped at the fragile thought that, against insurmountable odds, Evan and Barty might unearth an escape from the ominous clutches of their shared destiny. In the dim recesses of his heart, Regulus acknowledged the bitter truth – that his own feeble attempts at liberation had crumbled into naught. Yet, a glimmer of solace flickered as he envisioned their unity, a frail alliance against the encroaching shadows. Together, they would endure the relentless torment, forging a path to survival that Regulus, burdened by the weight of his failures, could only dream of achieving.

 

Lastly, he thought of James. James Potter. His first and one true love. The pang of unspoken affection echoed in the recesses of his soul, a love etched into the fabric of his being since their first encounter on the Hogwarts Express—an encounter that ignited a flame of longing that refused to be extinguished. As Regulus traversed the caverns of his memories, he was haunted by the recollections of those sacred late nights, where the celestial canvas above bore witness to their shared whispers beneath the stars. With his head nestled on James' shoulder, the universe seemed to shrink to their intimate shroud, a sanctuary of love that now felt like a distant mirage. The unspoken emotions hung heavy in the air, a weight that only intensified the desperate ache within Regulus' chest.

 

He yearned for James to understand the depth of his love, an emotion that transcended mere words. In the silent language of stolen glances and shared breaths, Regulus had poured his soul into the abyss of their connection. As he envisioned the cosmic dance of their intertwined destinies, he clung to the fragile hope that James could sense the undying love embedded in the very essence of his being. Yet, the cruel reality of their circumstances cast a long shadow over Regulus’ heart. He harbored a profound desire to confess his love, to taste the sweetness of one last kiss that would linger as a final imprint on their shared history. The ache of unsaid words and unfulfilled promises echoed through the emptiness of his longing like a mournful requiem played on the strings of his shattered dreams. Regulus, burdened by the weight of his unspoken truths, grappled with the realization that James must move on. He knew that he had no right to feel this way as the cruel truth gripped Regulus's soul, unyielding in its torment: James, the one he longed for, was no longer his. The ache in his heart deepened a relentless throbbing that mirrored the impending shadow of James moving on. The loss felt like an undeserved fate, an affliction that whispered to Regulus that, in this life and all others, he was unworthy of such love. He was a burden, a weight better shed for a future unencumbered by the complexities of their connection. Regulus knew that James, his beacon of warmth, would find brighter shores without the heavy anchor of Regulus's love. The fear and the sadness persisted though, and the thought of becoming a mere ghost in James's memories, a specter of love lost, clawed at the edges of Regulus's desperate heart, yet in the vast expanse of his yearning, he wished for James to find solace, even if it meant the painful erasure of their love from the canvas of time, leaving only the ethereal glow of Regulus' namesake in the night sky as a silent testament to a love that could never find its voice.

 

In the cold embrace of the water, Regulus succumbed to the inexorable pull of the Inferi, his head slipping beneath the surface for what seemed like an eternity. The suffocating darkness enveloped him, a manifestation of the despair that had clung to him throughout his tormented existence. As he descended into the watery abyss, the weight of every regret, every missed opportunity, pressed upon him like an insurmountable burden. The hands of the Inferi tightened their grip, dragging him deeper into the frigid depths. Regulus, trapped in this aquatic purgatory, recognized the finality of his fate. There was no escape, no reprieve from the relentless current that mirrored the inexorable flow of his life, leading him to this tragic nadir.

 

In the murky silence, he closed his eyes, shutting out the world above, and embraced the impending darkness. The memories of those he loved became a lifeline in the drowning sea of despair. A slideshow of poignant moments flickered through his mind, a bittersweet montage that offered fleeting solace in the face of impending oblivion.

 

Regulus' acceptance of his demise was tinged with a haunting calmness, a resignation born from the realization that every twist and turn in his tumultuous journey had led him inexorably to this watery grave. The echoes of a life fraught with struggles and unfulfilled aspirations reverberated in the hushed recesses of his consciousness.

 

As he sank deeper into the abyss, the waters swallowing his last gasps, Regulus found comfort in the thought that, in death, he might reunite with the specters of his past. The pain of the present dissolved into a quiet remembrance, where the only companions were the shadows of what once was.

 

Regulus pondered the divergent paths his life could have taken, weaving intricate fantasies where he and James found happiness together. Yet, he battled to banish these thoughts, acknowledging that dwelling on alternate scenarios would only deepen the ache within. He resigned himself to the belief that this, the pain and separation, was his destined reality in this life.

 

In the final moments, he clung to the echoes of love and whispered farewells, finding a grim serenity in the arms of the Inferi. The darkness embraced him, and with a silent surrender Regulus became one with the depths, his existence extinguished, akin to the distant flicker of a vanishing star.

 

In his final moments, amidst the wreckage of his choices, haunted by the echoes of the past, Regulus knew it was for the better.