“Why do you hate me?”
Dorcas was startled by the voice. She had been reading in the library almost the whole day, completely in her own head. So when she finally was disturbed by a voice she expected it to be Evan’s, Regulus’ or Barty’s. But the voice belonged to none of them. It was in fact not even a guy's voice. It was from a girl. A girl she knew all too well. One that haunted her mind.
"Other than I'm a Gryffindor" the voice continued since Dorcas still hadn't replied. She hadn't even looked up. She hadn't even twitched.
"Hello. I'm talking to you Meadows"
"What do you want, McKinnon?" She finally looked up.
"We both know you heard my question. Tell me"
"Why? Why do you want to know” it probably came out meaner than she meant it. And she wanted to do nothing more than apologize to the beautiful girl standing in front of her but she knew she couldn't do that.
"I just want to know" McKinnon almost mumbled. Dorcas almost thought she wasn't even meant to hear it.
She sighed. What was she going to do? She could lie to keep the facade up or tell Marlene she didn't hate her. That her feelings for her were far, far from hate.
She decided to lie. No matter how much she didn't want to do that. She had no other choice. What if someone found out she was in love with a girl. Who was a Gryffindor for fucks sake. She would be dead.
"I hate you because you think you're everything, you think you're better than everyone and you think you're cooler than them. But guess what? You might be funny and atractive, but you're still a fucking nobody. And nobody gives a shit about you. Now leave me the fuck alone"
Her words hurted Marlene, she could see it. The blonde in front of her was struggling to hold back tears. And Dorcas hated herself for what she said.
"Alright" Marlene croaked out before she sped away out of the library, leaving Dorcas alone with her quilt.
"Fuck" she whisper to herself before grabbing her stuff and also leaving the library.
She probably had started running through the corridors because when she bumped into someone she fell on the ground. "Shit shit I'm so sorry"
"Hi Cas, are you okay?" She looked up to see Pandore.
"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" she grabbed her stuff off the ground before standing up.
"No you aren't"
"If you know the answer, why would you even ask that question?"
“Because it’s polite.” Her friend explained.
Even though Pandora was a year younger than her, she was probably smarter than her. She was amazing at least. Dorcas was convinced she knew everything, about everyone. She could see right through people and their lies.
"Don't hurt yourself like this. Tell her" her voice was comforting.
"I- I can't. I fucked up Panda. I fucked up"
Pandora hugged her. And after a couple seconds she started stroking her hair. Merlin, that girl really knew how to comfort people.
"Maybe you did, maybe you didn't. It's up to you to find out. And you shouldn't beat yourself up for not knowing"
Docas had no fucking idea what Pandora meant with that. That was another thing about her, she knew everything but if she were ever to speak about it she would tell it as a weird riddle.
"You should go find her"
"But I have no idea where she went"
"Maybe you should check the quidditch pitch" Pandora let go of her so she could go find the girl.
Before she left she turned to her friend.
"Thank you"
Pandora responded with a simple smile.
Dorcas took off. She was walking at first but soon she started running. She didn't want to arrive in an empty pitch.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" Marlene was still there luckily. She was sitting on the ground leaning against the wall.
“Thank Merlin, you’re still here!” Dorcas said between deep breaths.
Marlene gave her a look. “I asked what you are doing here? Are you going to insult me even more?”
"I need to talk to you"
"Alright” Marlene got up and crossed her arms, probably because she didn’t want to feel below Dorcas and wasn’t really open for the conversation or something like that. Pandora had once told her psychology stuff like that but Dorcas couldn’t really fully remember.
"Okay here we go. Alright um… listen, for Merlin's sake get yourself together Dorcas”
Marlene raised her right eyebrow as she was trying to understand what was happening.
“Listen Marlene, I'm sorry about what I said in the library. It was all a lie. I like that you are so careless and kinda stupid and I like how you smile every time you insult a teacher. You're absolutely perfect. And I love you. I love everything about you. I love your big blue greenish eyes, and your curly hair, which is in terrible condition by the way, please stop dying it the muggle way. And I love the fact that you're always in my dreams. And I love how you're always so silly. And I love your laugh. I absolutely love your laugh. And I-"
She was interrupted.
She was interrupted by Marlene cupping her cheeks, pressing her lips against Dorcas.
The Slytherin was surprised by the sudden contact. But as soon as her brain had processed that Marlene was kissing her(!), her hands found themselves on the blonde’s hips.
It wasn't like there were fireworks or something. Or other things people always say you experience while kissing the person you love. There wasn't any of that. It just felt like time stopped. And it was only them. Only them and no one else.
Okay some people do also describe kissing someone like that, but Dorcas didn’t care about that right now.
And besides she absolutely loved the quiet (also Marlene’s lips against hers. She probably loved that even more).
She didn’t know how long they had been making out. But after maybe an hour, maybe less, maybe more, but after some time Marlene pulled away.
“I love you too” It was a simple sentence, but it made Dorcas smile like the Cheshire cat .
“What? Are you going to kiss me or are you going to stand her smiling until someone finds us?”
“Oh yea— yes of course”
Marlene smiled as the Slytherin pulled her closer and let their lips connect for the second time (they both were planning on doing it way more times).
And in her head she thanked Pandora for making her go to the quidditch pitch.