Black
Fear
fear is what Remus felt seeing Sirius covered in his own blood
Fear is what Remus felt when he was ran to the hospital wing with Sirius’s bloody body in his arms
Fear is what he felt when realized Sirius may not wake up
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Flash back (1 week before)
Sirius felt as if he was in a black hole with no way out
With no way to prove himself innocent because every time he tried to
He got pushed right back in the big black whole
“I guess you are like your mother”Remus told him bitterly
the words that hurt Sirius more than the amount of curicios he had to endure because of that woman.
His life was messed up the people who he considered family don’t believe him, his blood related brother doesn’t even look at him
Everyone he loved are not loving anymore
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“Remus,Remus what happened why do you have blood on your hands!”James yelled after seeing his best friends come in the dorm room with blood all over his body while he was trying to get ready for quidditch
But Remus broke down sobbing on the floor and falling into James arms, waking up Peter
“He’s-“Remus couldn't finish the sentence James rubbed his back to soothe him
“Breathe Remus,breath, and who’s he?are you covered in his blood who’s hurt Remus!”
He-Sirius he-“ he just kept sobbing
“Sirius? Remus what happened did Sirius hurt you,Remus!”
James was now shouting although he needed to know what happened, as panick flooded in his mind he couldn’t imagine what happened between them
“No, no he-“why was it so hard to say it
“Did he hurt,I swear I’ll kill him-“
“He committed”Remus sobbed in James arms
“What do you mean committed”Asked Peter who was standing in front of the two trying get the jist of what happened
“I-,he hurt himself”As he said those words more sobs of cries came out of him like a never ending rainfall
“What”said James breathlessly,
“What do you mean he hurt himself Remus!”Askedpeter
“Come with me”replayed Remus explains was too hard
Remus led them to the hospital wing leading them to see a pale looking Sirius with bandages covering his arms
Suddenly James fell to his feet to where Sirius was laying down on the hospital bed and cried multiple apologies
Peter just smirked although no one noticed
Remus just kept sobbing not knowing what to do
Mrs.promfrey came out saying Sirius is currently in a coma and all they have to do is hope for the best
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Couple hours prior
Sirius made sure everyone was asleep as he entered the dorm bathroom although he knew no one gave two shrites of what he does anymore, usually spending his nights getting high and drunk.And today wasn’t any different until it was.
Before entering the bathroom he made sure to write a letter to moony and his brother but that didn’t matter because no one cared
When he leaves everyone will be in peace
He closed the door and entered the bath and making sure he has a muggle razor that he got from moony weeks before the ‘incident’.
Closing his eyes Sirius looked back to the moment where he was content the moment before the person he would have trusted with his life betrayed him.
The moment when he and his brother finally talked again
The pranks he made
The laughs he had
He just prayed that ‘he’ would live the rest of his life in regret but it’s not like anyone will believe Sirius when they read the letter telling them who truly did it
Sirius hadn’t realized how many scars he made until he opened his eyes he was surrounding by his blood, his energy to stay any longer fading away
And he smiled he was finally leaving
But than he heard a knock
Than that knock turned into someone yelling
Than that turned into someone magically opening the door
To which related a figure that look similar to his moony although he wasn’t his anymore
Sirius figured that he must be in heaven
But he loss the energy to keep his eyes open
“No maybe it’s hell”Sirius whispered
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Present
It had been only a few hours after visiting the hospital only because madam Promfrey banished them to get some rest and not worry about school knowing how devastated the group was
But it was now after school hours but not yet curfew
Remus was staring at a peice of paper that he resented to open
He didn’t want to open the last thing Sirius gave to him
He didn’t want to think of loosing Sirius and not saying goodbye to him or I love you. At least
Remus just say at his form all day with empty thoughts
James on the other hand wasn’t really better he spent the day crying holding Regulus, as he to shared his welfare of tears
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Weeks passed and the but nothing changed
Weeks passed and Sirius may die
Week passed and everyone not the same
Week passed and the crying has just stared to begin
No pranks, no jokes, no laughs in the air
It was as if the joy died
And it may
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“It’s been a month moony, maybe we should go somewhere, Sirius wouldn’t want you to be moping around” Peter said
But Remus stayed quiet, not bearing the strength to answer the full moon is close with no comfort to receive, he misses his star.
His brightest one, now the only time he’s sees him is in the dark black sky.
Remus likes to think of how he was a dark black sky and Sirius is his star
But now all that left is a Dark sky with no light only the evil moon is in sight.
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Blurry,all sisirus saw was a blurry vision of his surrounding
He blinked a few times and he finally saw correctly, although his head was pounding and his body was in pain, where am I, he thought, he couldn’t move, he tried to talk but his throat was to dry making it hurt.
He heard a voice
But everything just turned black