The fallout
It was my first time, and I’m so glad it was Draco. I could t get him out of my head for days, I could still feel his touch on me. The way he loved me, stroked me, fucked me. He was gentle with me, like I was a glass doll that could break any second. He hadn’t left my mind since that day.
I couldn’t sleep that night, whenever I closed my eyes all I could see was his beautiful gray eyes, and tender look, I could still feel his hands roaming around my body. I needed to see him again.
It’s been a week after that day, I couldn’t see Draco anywhere. I wanted to see him, to talk to him so bad. I was so stressed so I went back to the back garden of the dorms at night. It was around 11:30 pm and I was overthinking. It started snowing and I wished I worn a thicker coat. I took out my pack of cigarettes, I had trouble lighting one since it was windy. I then inhaled the smoke and I get calmer. Then I felt a presence ahead of me and I saw a figure walking towards me. As he got closer, no? Could it be? Draco! He walked up to me and snatched the cigarette from my lips.
‘Didn’t know you smoked, you should quit’ he said in a monotone tone
‘Why?’ I asked confused
‘It’s bad for you’
‘You can’t tell me what to do’ I say annoyed now, I mean if I was going to quit I’d quit for myself
He looks at me and inhales some smoke. He moves his face closer to mine and kisses me, he inhales some smoke into my mouth.
‘If you wanted some you could’ve asked’ I say
‘I don’t smoke, it’s disgusting’ he sneaks back
‘So… guess you just wanted an excuse to kiss me’
‘No I don’t need an excuse to kiss you, I can’t kiss you whenever I want’ then he pulls my hair and smashes his lips onto mine.
After I while I pulled back, I felt my face getting heated.
‘I don’t get you Draco, what do you want? One day you act like this the next week you ignore me. Don’t waste my time, do you want me or not?!’ I ask briefly
‘I don’t- gosh I don’t know how I feel’ he says rubbing the bridge of his nose and says it with a stern but shy voice.
He then speaks up again
‘I don’t know how I feel but not seeing you for a week was killing me. But the reason I ignored you was because…’ he pauses and averts his eyes ‘we can’t be together. You’re Griffindor and I’m a Slytherin, this can’t work out! I just want what’s best for you. It’s better this was Layla you have to understand’ he says quietly but I was feeling a swirling mix of emotions. I wanted to say a million things to him , I wanted to tell him to stay that I loved him and we could work it out. But in the end all that came out was
‘Then get out of my way Draco’ I say coldly with no emotion on my face.
Then I walk away hiding my tears in my face, the cold air was hitting my face which made my tears sting. I light another smoke and I hope the pain goes away…