Checking In
Three months
Its been three months since the Yellowjackets were rescued, and things still aren't looking good for them. Well for some it does seem okay....ish. Javi, Mari, Laura-Lee, Akilah, and Crystal have all returned to school after being cleared. The rest of them, not so much.
Lottie's POV
Dear Journal,
I still don't know how to start these, the ones I write for the doctors are very light hearted "Dear Diary, I feel so much better. Life's turning around blah blah blah". I just want to see everyone, or anyone at this point, they still aren't letting me see the team. Natalie sent me another letter tho! I'm so excited to get out of this sterile hell and see her. She told me about how Van is out of the hospital again, hopefully for good this time. I'm worried about Nat tho, I mean she says she's still sober but I'm not sure. I should believe her, so I will.
The doctors were chatting about me earlier, talking about how I've been "adverse to taking my meds" and blah. I'm not denying the meds I'm just asking for a lessoned dose. I mean I am scared of what I created out there, getting everyone to listen to the fucking trees and bullshit but I know I'm not crazy, at least not fully. I think a lessoned dose would let me feel less emotionless while still keeping me normal. They were also worried about my eating, saying that I have some ED. I'm not not eating but I've just felt.... idk not hungry? Nauseous? I think just not eating for so long out there has messed with my food habits a bit. If they think I have a ED then they should just give me some Chinese and see how fast its gone, ooooo or better strawberry ice-cream. I think maybe they are just mad I wont eat their tasteless chicken slop.
Enough of that garbage. I've been working on these paintings for Lee and Nat during art. I really really hope they like them. BUT I'm not sure how I'm going to get the paintings to them. I mean I could wait till I get out but I kinda want to give it to them the second I finish. UGH. Ill figure it out. Laura lees is a light yellow background, in the center is a white lily with gold details in it. The lily because of its religious meaning duh and the yellow cause its her favorite colour. I kinda want to fill in the extra space buttttttt i don't know with what. Natalie's is of a girl with blonde hair, you cant see her face as she's whipping her hair so its covered, she's dressed in a ripped black tank top and a black mini skirt. She has a deep deep red guitar in her hands and is obviously playing it. Its actually Nat herself but she'll have no idea. I cant seem to get the hands right tho, they just don't look right no matter what I do, I just want it to look perfect. I want to show how much I love care about her.
Anyways I have to take my nightly pills so I'm signing off— Lottie Matthews out!
Natalie's POV
"ARE YOU ACTUALLY FUCKING KIDDING ME NATALIE!?" Here goes Van... again. What the fuck is her problem now.
"What Van, what the fuck is it now?"
"Did you bring fucking weed into my fucking house?! We've talked about this shit Natalie!" Fuck.
"Van I promise I'm holding it for Kevin, his parents are searching his stuff after the suspension thing last week." A lie. But maybe it'll work.
"Bullshit. Your whole room reeks of it." Guess not "Y'know I wasn't gonna say anything but—" Van's voice cracks " But I'm fucking worried for you Nat."
A scoff escapes me before I speak " Oh were pulling that bullshit now. Fine Van whatever I'm leaving no need to give me a whole speech on how drugs are bad and what not, I had to sat through D.A.R.E. too." Just as I pull open the front door to Vans trailer I see Tai, just standing at the door about to knock.
"Hey Tai, I'm just leaving. Your girlfriends all yours—" Van interrupts me "Not her girlfriend anymore."
What. "Shit maybe that's why your being such a bitch lately." I say as I shut the door on them.
I begin to walk out of the trailer park, down the road, no real direction. Then my phone starts ringing.
Kevin T
Answer Decline
"Kevin, what's up?"
"I got some new shit, wanna come over and try it? Free of charge."
I shouldn't. I really really shouldn't, but its free. Van hates me, I fucked up again, why not?