Chapter 3- maybe?
*Three months later*
Sirius POV
Remus you really hurt me ,you believed that I was so much like them that you didn’t even hear me out. I tell him softly
Pad- he caught himself then said Sirius I miss you please give me another chance even if as only a friend. He says voice sounding horse
Remus I don’t know ok I mean yes I guess I feel like I’m ready to forgive you but I don’t know if it’s because of padfoot or me. I say feeling like I was choking
honestly I mean do you expect it to go back to how it was. I ask him
No, (he pauses) no I don’t. He says but what he thinks is ( Sirius I’ll keep trying I’ll prove to you that I forgive you and that I want us again).
Give me time ok just a little more time please I’d rather forgive you when I mean it and feel it so please just give me some time. I tell him before turning around asking away not waiting for his reply.
4 hours later
James POV (new povvv)
I lay in regulus lap crying for what seemed like the 100th time.
I-I tried reg I did I-I can’t do this anymore I feel like I’m crazy I did everything and more he won’t even spare me a glance not even when I’m not looking, h-he doesn’t care anymore I broke our relationship with my stupid words my actions my stupid fucking prank I’m s-so stupid. I sob into his arms .
Baby, give him time ok I promise you we’ve been tal- well I’ve been talking he’s been listening and I think I got through to him he might even talk to you today ok if not just wait ok remeber what you said to me. He asks me softly while playing with my hair.
Y-yes I told you some stars may not be seen but when tey want to they shine bright and that you and Sirius were my stars that would shine bright and t-that I’d always be both his and your sky holding you up so y-you could always shine. I say slowly I stop crying remembering why I said that.
I gasp
I know what I have to do. I say excitedly jumping up and running not before kissing my boyfriend.
James wait for me he screams
Sorry baby gotta go to the library.I say slowing down waiting for him to get closer.
Jamie baby tell me what going on in your mind maybe I can help. He says after stopping me and pulling my face to his.
Reggie’s POV
I know what I have to do baby we need books on cooking but like fun cooking like muggle cooking I want to make him a dish mom makes him, oh mom gotta owl mom for her recipe no need for it why come to the library so dumb, wait Remus he knows it he made it for him on his birthday, oh ok gotta go baby. I stop him
Jamie breathe baby then go do it ok I love you. I say giving his head a kiss then walking away I’m almost late for my secret study date with Sirius I say secret because I’m still supposed to not get along with him and I don’t wanna here my houses mouth.
Hey siri I say smiling hugging him the taking a seat.
Hi Reggie. He say before sitting down
40 mins later (sorry for the time skips)
Siri can I ask you something I ask interrupting him.
Yes of course di you not get something I can go over it ag- why haven’t you talked with James but with Remus.
He seems taken back by how I know that.
Pete told me he heard you talking while he was in his rat form. I say knowing what he was gonna ask.
Ok well idk it seemed easier to talk to and ex before talking to my better half I mean I’ve forgiven him completely but I still hurt Pandora said I’m aloud to be hurt and still forgive him and I do plus I was actually gonna ask if we could cut this shorter so I can go talk to him. He says smiling
I smile softly
Go you moron and don’t hurt him ok he has been having bad depressive episodes since it happened he keeps spiraling then bouncing back then spiraling he think you hate him Siri he thinks he ruined your bond your soul ties he is so devastated that he hasn’t cracked a joke since it happened honestly he is sorry don’t push him to hard brother I don’t know how much more he can take. I tell him soft but sternly
I got it Reggie I promise plus I made him something since you know I was ignoring for his birthday and I miss him to reg truly I love him with my soul James has my soul you have my heart and Remus has my life it’s harder to trust them because of our inbred facial racist homophobic narcissistic father. He says surprising me he didn’t mention mother
So I ask
What about her why not her. I ask curious
Because I understand she was forced to marry had to give heirs was abused and became what she hated. He pauses and I think he is done then he says something shocking.
The night we left I um I went in there room I learned how to use the silencling spell on myself and I looked in her mind and reg she has suffered so much at the hands of that bastard he had done thing to her that would make us shiver the abuse doesn’t stop at words Reggie and every time it happens she would take it out on us but I could see reg her little self crying because she was a perfect image of her parents she is what she hated and who she hates the most in this world.he says softly
I gasp
when did he have Tim- he did leave me outside for thirty minutes
I look at him and start to cry
Fa-he I hate him more now I hate her because of what she did I don’t forgive her I can’t yet . I tell him
He nods
I don’t either honestly I don’t think I will but I understand why now I got some closure I’m at peace. He says before walking away
I sigh and go to talk to Peter he is insightful and knows our past situation with our family
*sirius POV*
Sirius looks at James across the room hoping the bond will work like before and before he can speak
James turns around and runs to him he hugs him like he was gonna loose me.
Jamie i say as i pull away
deciding I’ll use this moment before I let him know i forgive him to prank him
Jamie I don’t forgive you ok I can’t because you hurt me and broke me my other half left yes but you James you were supposed to be my sky but instead you became my downfall your prank made me feel like I dying I mean my best friend and brother I can tolerate but fucking my man that’s down lo- I say pausing to catch his reaction
Just as I thought he looked so sad I couldn’t stomach it so I decided to end his misery
Jamie I’m kidding about not forgiving you mate I love you I’ll always forgive you it just took me some time. I say wiping his tears then hugging him
I pull away handing him the gift I charmed to fit in my pocket
I love you I meant to give this to you I was just being a wuss puss and I’m sorry truly I let you stew for to long I know that and Jamie if you haven’t noticed I watch you all the time mainly because I’m scared snape will try something in retaliation I say before walking away.
*four days later in their dorm
I think to myself
Maybe just maybe no he won’t we can’t