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The next day, Neville - who I should call Neville The Brave for now on, enters the Headmaster's Office. Right away, Snape notices the student and has the usual sour look on his face:"Yes?". Neville's heart is beating so fast right now, he wants to run away, but... He composes himself and tells:"Th..- There are some fourth years misbehaving..- I-in the Great Hall.". Snape raise his eyebrow:"That's the Carrow's to deal with. Why are you bothering me with such dreadful matter..?". "Because..- Because we can't find them anywhere, sir." Neville's voice goes smaller as he tries his hardest to sound convincing. Snape narrows his eyes on the student, like he is trying to read his mind if this is true. But... Neville isn't lying.
There are actually students fighting at the Great Hall. Thanks to Vivian and her girlfriend Olive, they managed to cause a little chaos down there to make it all believable. And thanks to Cedric, Cho and Luna, they have managed to put some sleeping potion in Alecto's morning tea, and she's completely out of it. After the small silence, Headmaster sighs and walks out of the office. Just when Neville thought the coast is clear, Headmaster's dangerously calm voice calls:"You're coming with me.". "R-right..!" the boy panics. With that, Neville follows him. All this time, I've been waiting under the spiral stairs, and as soon as I see them leave the office and walk down the hallway out of sight, I rush upstairs. I own you big time, Neville!
Right when I enter the office, my eyes goes to the golden cabinet I was looking at last time I was in here. It has all of these small bottles that has different kinds of memories inside them. So that means the Pensieve must be here somewhere. Knowing I might not have much time, I start searching it. Careful not to touch and move things around too much. After searching it couple minutes from the first and the second floor, I start to feel stressed:"Where could it be?". Then, I look up to the stairs that leads to the third floor of the office. I've actually never been there. Could it be..? Without any hesitation, I climb up the stairs, and that's when I see it. Pensieve. "Woah..." I let under my breath. Right when I approach the Memory Pool, the necklace around my neck makes this shimmery sound which it has never done before. Huh?
Finally, I stand right in front of the Pensieve. It looks like a shallow stone or metal basin that has strange symbols carved and precious stones fitted around. It's filled with a silvery substance that appears to be a cloudy liquid. After all this time... The answer was here in the office. That's when I draw my wand and make the glass ball float above the pool. And just like that - the ball breaks and the silvery hair-like turns into liquidy one that falls down into the Memory Pool. Wow... For a moment I stare down to it. Heart nervously beating inside my chest as I hold onto the pool. Here we go. With shuddered breath, I dip my face into it. Right then, almost like someone had put the tip of a quill some ink and dipped it into a water, a scenery appears before my eyes:
There are images of Severus when he was young. How he met Lily Evans, and how they became friends in the first place. The images keeps changing from how he got bullied by James Potter and his friends, to times he got abused by his own parents whenever he was back home from Hogwarts. How he was crying under the staircase in Spinner's End, hiding from his father once again after 'he had done something bad'. All of these memories keeps shifting from one to another. Even the moment he became one of the Death Eaters comes up... How he desperately thought this would impress his long time crush - Lily. But as expected, it didn't. And soon enough, they parted their ways. After Severus graduated from Hogwarts, he worked for Voldemort as 'the mind reader' by using his Legilimency - skills. Traveling from one place to another, he did meet some witches along the way who he shared lustful moments with. But, none of them felt good or right. Neither he cared to know or hear their names at the time. The words 'empty' and 'grey' might describe the best of his feelings.
Not only did he read minds of the Dark Lord's victims to discover their plans, he also checked minds of the people who wished to become one of the Death Eaters - to see that they really are ready to follow the Dark Lord - to proof their loyalty. One of them being Harold (Y/L). Harold had done everything that he supposed to, to get in the final task which was the mind reading. Severus used his skills to look into the man's mind, and all he could see was how he tortured his own daughter. Sometimes just for fun. Something snaps in Severus and he stops the reading. Perhaps, he felt sorry for the girl who was only seven years younger than him? Or maybe he saw himself in her place? Even he himself wasn't sure why. Severus keeps his composure and announces with the monotonic tone:"Thank you for coming, Mr. (Y/L). But I'm afraid you failed the last... Task. I'm sure you'll find yourself out of here on your own.". After the man left, all angry and frustrated, Severus went and told Dumbledore how one of his student is being tortured by their parents, and Headmaster carried from there.
The image changes again. Severus walks down Hogwarts's hallways from the Potions classroom, feeling extremely agitated already about the upcoming semester. 'The thought of dreadful children who dares to whine how bitterly unfair their lives has been makes my skin crawl already.' When he enters the Great Hall thru the side door that is behind the High Table, he notices how someone is sitting on his chair. The sight of that annoys him more, but does his best to keep the composer and approaches the people around the table. Right away, he sees the woman who is sitting in his chair. 'The new teacher?' Soon enough, Professor Flitwick notices him and after he speaks, the woman turns to look over her shoulder and the look on her face changes from smile into surprised one. Flitwick clears his throat:"Severus, this is Professor (Y/N) (Y/L), she is..-", "In my seat." the Potions Master gritted his teeth. '(Y/L)' Just the name itself brought him a memory of Harold (Y/L). 'So... This is her?'
Won't take too long before Headmaster introduces her to the whole school:"And our new Herbology professor, (Y/N) (Y/L).". The woman shoots up from her seat and immediately her thigh hits the edge of the table, making the table let out awfully loud thud which obviously raises hilarity around the Great Hall among the children. 'Typical Hufflepuff.' Severus sighs inside his head. Slowly, but surely, as the evening goes on, Severus starts to feel little bit sorry for the girl. Not only she feels embarrassed what happened when it was her time to introduce herself, she has to listen Lockhart's dreadful stories. He tries to push that thought away from his mind and began to eat. As the time goes on, Severus has dive into his own thoughts, and as he's about to grab more to drink for himself, suddenly his hand touches someone else's. It's that woman's - (Y/L)'s. She quickly pulls her hand away when they made the contact. 'She really seem to feel on the edge with me. Already...' Potions Master is used to be feared by many. But... 'Perhaps, I should try to make myself a little bit more approachable? After all, she's part of the staff now.' With that in mind, the Potions Master fills her cup before his.
As the time goes on, the Potions Master didn't have any particular opinion about this new arrival. He was in between, 'little annoying with that cheerful and naive attitude, but... Knows how to do her job, so I tolerate her pretty well'. When it came down to help her with her memory to figure out who poisoned her at the night in Hogsmeade, Severus felt this little... Light, in his heart. Unsure what for. Maybe she made him feel actually needed? Appreciated? Whatever it was, it felt... Quite nice. Warm, even. "You know, my dream was to become an Auror. Still is, if I'm being honest." (Y/N) smiles while pouring some hot water into a cup. Severus's ears perks up. 'So that means... We would be enemies one day.' He gets consumed by this weird, unpleasant feeling and orders her to leave. She got confused by this. Won't take long before the hot water accidentally spills all over him. 'Darn it!' "O-oh! I'm terribly sorry!!" she gasps and holds onto his left sleeve. Severus's eyes widens out of worry she'll see the Dark Mark on his forearm. So... "Get. Out.". And just like that, she ran out of the classroom. After a moment had passed, regret consumes Severus. 'Why did I do that?'
Having no idea how to approach her and apologize about what happened, he shut down. Only... Seeing her with Remus, and how much she relies on him made Severus have this unpleasant feeling inside his guts. Almost like they were suffocating. But, he did his best to brush that off and continues his days. "...Where is he?" (Y/N) asked after entering to the D.A.D.A. classroom, only to see the Potions Master has taken Remus's place. "Why you need to know?" Severus asks back, secretly hoping to be able to provide whatever she's after. After telling her Lupin wasn't capable of teaching for today, she got worried:"Why? Is he sick?". Right away, that awful feeling starts raising its head inside Severus. 'Why... Why she need him so badly..? What is so special about him that she needs to run after him like a pathetic dog?' Soon enough, their discussion turns into little bit of a banter, and she ends up smirking before leaving:"You just proved my point; I do need a competent Wizard, who indeed knows something about the Defence Against the Dark Arts.". Without thinking, he rushed to her and slam her back up against the doorway. 'Why? Why is this woman driving me into the madness?'
Didn't take long before that woman got herself into trouble - yet again. After saving her and the hippogriff, they landed in the garden, behind the Greenhouse. "Let's get you to the Hospital Wing." Severus reached his hands towards her to get her down from the creature. Despite what had happen, she carries that sweet smile on her:"And you..- You were amazing too when you lure the werewolf away by using my bloody coat like that..!". 'What?!' Blush creeps on his cheeks and he doesn't know what to do here. 'She really is... Something.' After getting her down, he notices she really isn't her usual self. "Re-Remus. He..- I didn't..- know that he would..-" she stuttered as tears raise on her eyes. It was like a dagger to Severus's heart to see her like this. 'Why?' He has seen millions of times other people crying, so there shouldn't be anything abnormal about this, but... He then pulls her into embrace. Severus has no idea when was the last time he ever hugged anyone - or if he ever really had hugged anyone that matter. All he knew now was that it felt... Pleasant.
As the days went on, Severus noticed something. Everytime he happen to ran into the new Herbology teacher, he always felt... This warmth. Potions Master had hard time put a finger on it, but he secretly started craving to see her again and again. He even began to think about her more often whenever he wasn't anywhere near her. Anytime (Y/N) smiles or bubbles about her day or gives the lightest touch against his arm gave him that bittersweet feeling inside his stone cold heart. It slowly started to feel unbearable to him. 'I feel this... Irresistible urge to... To be near her. Touch her. To smell that divine scent that comes from her. It takes every part of my soul not to do what I desire.'
One day, Minerva asked him to join them to watch the Qudditch World Cup, but he refused. Saying he's not interested going where there will be lots and lots of people, screaming and shoving others in a small of a space. It would be a nightmare for him. Minerva had then let out a long, disappointed sigh how she just wanted to cheer up (Y/N) and wished everyone could join, Severus changed his mind with gritted teeth. At the Qudditch World's Cup, he couldn't take his eyes off her. Seeing her finally smiling ever so wide and bright made him incredibly happy. All he wanted to do was just stare at her and hold her hand. The fact Remus noticed the smile that accidentally escaped from the Potions Master reminded him how he shouldn't be getting distracted. After all, he didn't deserve to be this happy.
Severus began to question if he actually had deeper feelings towards (Y/N), other than friendship or as a staff member. The thought of that made him feel torn. At the same time it made tiny butterflies fly around his insides - other times he got vexed by it. He wanted to build his walls back up high, but... For some reason that always failed. He felt like melted butter whenever he ran into her, or heard her call his name other side of the hallway to catch up with him. 'The way she calls my name... It carries this certain warmth and care. Acceptance.' Back when they were about to share their first kiss together, but Umbridge managed to barge in, Severus felt like this was the wakeup call he needed. He cannot get his pathetic, selfish feelings in the way. 'I need to keep my distance towards her.'
But that soon failed. After hearing she got sick and what Lockhart did to her... How could he not burst into rage that blinded him so bad, he was ready to end Lockhart's life right in there? Luckily, Dumbledore came to prevent from him doing something he might have regret eventually. "You surprised me, Severus. Don't think I have ever seen you that deep in darkness before." Headmaster tells after dealing with Lockhart and were now in Headmaster's Office with him. Severus squinted his eyes while having his back facing the boss, still unhappy how easily Lockhart got off the hook:"Sexual harassment needs to be taken seriously.". Dumbledore nods his head gently:"Oh, yes. Absolutely... Although, there could have been better ways than just... Blasting yourself in the classroom and threat the man. Don't you agree?". For a moment the Potions Master stays silent, then leaves the room. While Dumbledore stares after his long time friend, he chuckles to himself:"Softy.".
The images changes yet again. Back what happened after the festival, after saving (Y/N) from the Carrow twins. 'I could easily get her into Hogwarts in no time, but... I... Feel that is for the best to keep her here. In Spinner's End, where I can watch after her and make sure she's safe. Yes. Because that's all I want. Keep her safe. There shouldn't be anything wrong for me wanting to look out for my colleague.' Severus has been living in this limbo, whenever he truly has fallen for her or is it just all in his head. Imagination. Distraction, from all that has happened in his life. He tries to argue with himself whatever he's feeling time to time, is a sign of weakness. 'I should know better.'
But... The morning after, they got in touch with the subject of his past. "What happened to them?" she asked. For a moment Severus thought if he should tell her everything, but ends up swallowing:"...She died.". This is the first time he said it out loud. "I'm sorry to hear that." (Y/N) says softly. The mix of relief and confusion consumes Severus. He wishes to cry, but ends up holding everything in. He wanted to cry. Not because he was sad what happened in the past. But because he was freed. Freed from this feeling he has hold onto so long he could never thought to get free from. Soon, he feels pair of arms wrapping around him. It makes his heart skip a beat. With hesitant touch, he places his hand over hers and gives it a light squeeze. 'I have... Truly... Fallen for you, (Y/N).'
Image once again changes, from Spinner's End, into Headmaster's Office. After the welcoming ceremony, when Alastor Moody became the new D.A.D.A. teacher... "What this might concern, Headmaster?" Severus asks calmly, hands behind his back. For a moment, Dumbledore stays quiet as he climbs up the few stairs to get behind his desk:"I see that you and (Y/N) have become quite close one another.". The Potions Master feels little movement in his heart, but won't show any emotion to outside:"Debatable.". Albus lift his gaze to look at his friend over his glasses, giving the knowing eyes. He then sits down and starts:"You don't fool me, Severus. Does she know, that you are a Death Eater?". The question made him feel uneasy, but he keeps his composure:"No.".
Pretty quickly, it became debate whether or not, Severus should tell her the truth or not. Dumbledore frowns, hoping to get his message across:"You do realize she will end up hating you if you won't..-", "Of course I'm aware of that!!" Severus hisses annoyed, but immediately notices how his feelings got the best of him. "Forgive me, Albus..." his voice goes small. 'I'm... Afraid to tell her. Afraid she will see me other way. That she won't ever look me the way she always does.' Dumbledore stares at him for a moment longer before speaking calmly:"When the time comes... Are you ready to deal with the rail of emotions she's going to have? Confusion? Hate? How do you think you can keep her safe if she decides to go against you?". The Potions Master stares back at him with stern glare before speaking:"Anything else?". "No. You're free to go." Headmaster informs. With that, Severus leaves the room.
At the Yule Ball, when Severus enters the Great Hall, he immediately sees (Y/N) standing in the middle of the room. As she's wearing the dark blue dress, hair and makeup done nicely, looking up to the magical ceiling, admiring the sparkles falling down on her hands... The smile that she carries... It takes his breath away. Heart missing a beat. 'I've never seen anything so beautiful in my whole life.' The warm feeling fills him up again. As the night went on, the feeling grew stronger inside him. To ease the feeling, he asked her to dance with him. The urge to have her close... Touch. Smell. Feel. Taste. 'I wish nothing more than have this moment with her to last for as long as the time itself exists.'
Right when they are about to close in to their first kiss, something caught Severus's eye. A Death Eater in disguise. The fake Alastor Moody stares with judgemental look in the shadows. Reminding Severus where he belongs. "I like you." she confessed when he was about to walk away. At the same time the confession made his heart skip a beat out of joy, yet... It cut so deep. "I..." Severus clenches his hand into a fist that rests beside him, debating what he wants to say. 'Feel the same about you. But you are too darn precious to be ruined by me.' "...am flattered." his heart breaks, and walks away. Soon enough, he caught up with Bartemius. To hide his true feelings towards (Y/N) and make sure she won't be taken as Death Eaters target, Severus explained it was all an act. Away to keep someone as nosy and 'weak brained' person as she is from finding out their master plan to get to the Choisen One. Grudgingly Bartemius eventually believed Severus and continued his way.
On Christmas Eve, Bellatrix and her sister - Narcissa, Draco Malfoy's mother, payed a visit in Spinner's End. Not just any visit. After speaking for a while, Severus agreed to help Draco to complete the task the Dark Lord had given him. Severus's promise made the worrying mother feel relieved, but the aunt wasn't as impressed. "Swear to it." she tells him. And so... He and Narcissa hold onto each others by the arms and Bellatrix made Severus do the Unbreakable Vow. "Will you, Severus Snape, watch over Draco Malfoy as he attempts to full fill the Dark Lord's wishes?" her words slithers into his ear. "I will." Severus answer. She then continues:"And will you by the best of your ability protect him from harm?". "I will." he once again reply. Bellatrix walk up to him, and whispers:"And... If Draco would fail, will you for yourself carry out the deed the Dark Lord has ordered Draco to form?". There is a pause as he and Narcissa stare into each others eyes. "I will." Severus ends up saying. And just like that, the vow was made.
Bellatrix ends up walking up to the window with smirk on her face, pleased they got Severus do the vow. She then notices something:"Ooh, I think someone is getting a visitor.". That got Severus's attention and he turns to look at the witch by the window. "Some girl with (h/c) hair. Seems to be lost." Bellatrix describes. Severus's heart drops. '(Y/N). What in the Merlin's name is she doing in here?!' Pretty quickly, the Potions Master turns a heel and heads out of the sitting room. This obviously raises the curiosity in Bellatrix, so she rushes after him. Just when Severus gets to the stairs, Bellatrix goes past him:"Gotta be quicker than that, Romeo.". With that, she opens the door and there she was... (Y/N). 'Merlin, she's beautiful.'
Not only is she beautiful... She's funny, adorable, caring, warm and smart. The fact she was able to fight against at the Death Eaters at the Burrow - where she weren't supposed to be, on her own... It made impeccable impression on Severus. When she snatched the beans out of her pocket and shoved them into the ground, Severus immediately knew what was about to happen and flew out of the scenery. As he flies above, watching how Lucius and Greyback gets dragged two feet under, a proud smirk appears on Severus's lips. 'That's my badger.' Soon, Bellatrix went after (Y/N) as she started to run away from the vines. 'Darn it.' The two of them starts flying next to each other, casting spells down. Severus tried his best cast spells on the ground that could guide (Y/N) in better direction and sometimes blocking 'accidentally' Bellatrix's curses.
To safe her from faithful curse, Severus casts a spell on the broom she's on to make it loose its ability to fly, and she falls down, avoiding to get hit by the spell. Quickly, he rushes to rescue her from hitting the solid ground. Her wand broke by accident during it. 'Is this the moment? Do I reveal her that it's me?' Heart beating fast, he is about to hold onto the mask to lift it up, but... The sound of whoosh and glass breaking breaks the moment and they both turn to see how the Burrow is now in flames. "No. No, no, no, no!!" (Y/N) suddenly panics. Severus's head snaps at her, wondering what got her so pale. "Please! There is a niffler..- Lo-locked in a cage inside that house!!" she pleads. 'The niffler?!' Severus never was fond of pets or beasts in general, but... He knows how much that little beast means to this woman. With that, Severus turns into black smoke and shoots up in the air to get the niffler out of the burning house. After getting him out of there, Severus drops him to the back yard where the niffler then rushed where his people were.
As the time went by and finally – finally she became his own. It was like a dream come true. A dream Severus wished never wake up from. Even his heart could burst out of happiness, there was still this lingering fear of loosing her. There were times he was about to come clean about who he really is, but whenever he collect the courage to do so, he backed out. The first time they shared the bed, Severus read one of (Y/N)'s favorite books. He didn't get too far before he already felt her steady breathing in his arms. With soft gaze he stares at her a moment longer before getting fully under the blanket with her. 'Look at that... Pure soul.' All of the times she has laughed, smiled, giggled, bubbled, pursed her lips while thinking... 'There are no words to describe how I feel about her. Other than I adore her. I... Am inconceivably... Desperately... Hopelessly... Devotedly... Madly... In love with her.' He then kills the lights and snuggles up against her under the blanket. As he does so, he whispers right in her ear, thinking she won't hear him when she's asleep:"I love you.".
The image changes from the soft toned colors into grey one... "Don't ignore me, Severus." Dumbledore orders after the Potions Master got up from a chair to head out of the Headmaster's Office. He stops and turns to listen. The image when (Y/N) looks up to see Dumbledore and Draco thru the wooden floors at the Astronomy Tower appears before goes back to Dumbledore:"We both know Lord Voldemort has ordered the Malfoy boy to murder me.". (Y/N) raise her wand, ready to protect her boss. "But should he fail. And should presume the Dark Lord will turn to you..." he continued. 'Where is he getting with this?' The look on the old man's face goes more stern:"You must be the one to kill me, Severus.". 'What?!' The moment when (Y/N) turns around, only to see the love of her life stand there, pointing his wand at her, telling her to put down her own. "It is the only way." Dumbledore tells. Severus casts a spell on her so she can't move. "Only then will the Dark Lord trusts you completely." Dumbledore continued. Severus's mind has been torn apart. How in the world could he do such a thing? To his old friend?
Then, Dumbledore got up from his big chair and started telling Severus the most important thing none of us knew till this day:"There is a reason why Harry could speak with snakes. There is a reason why he could look into Lord Voldemort's mind. A part of Voldemort lives inside of him.". 'What?!' All of this new information feels too much for Severus. After a small pause, he asks if he understood correctly:"So, when the time comes... The boy must die?". "Yes... Yes, he must die." Dumbledore nods. "You have kept him alive so he can die at the proper moment... You have been raising him like a pig for slaughter." Severus pointed out. The image changes to the moment Severus stands at the Astronomy Tower in front of the Headmaster, secretly looking down thru the gap to see (Y/N) who has been paralyzed. 'Forgive me, Albus. Forgive me, (Y/N)...' "Avada Kedavra."
After he got shot during saving (Y/N) from the curse while she was in Harry's form, and was left alone in middle of the woods, he blacked out. When he woke up, he saw Narcissa sitting beside him, trying to heal him from the Dark curse. It took a little while for him to realize he's back at the Malfoy Manor, laying on one of the guest bedroom's bed. "I'd suggest not to move, Severus." she calmly informs while keeping the wand steady at the big wound. For a moment, Severus stares at the ceiling in silence, but soon hears awfully familiar voice screaming from pain that echoes all around the manor. His heart drops when he realized who's voice it is. '(Y/N)!' He tried to shoot up from the bed, but sharp pain quickly reminds him of the reality he can't move, and falls back to bed. Narcissa's eyes widens when she saw this. She has never seen Severus this worried. To her, he's always been this calm and collected person. And it soon became clear to her how Severus truly feels about this woman, but decided to stay quiet about it.
After she healed him, they came down to the hall where all the rest of the Death Eaters were in. The sight of (Y/N) lying down on the floor unmoved, baby crying uncontrollably in Greyback's arms... It all brought back the time he found Lily dead. 'No..!' It took everything for him to keep himself calm and collected. Then, he noticed how (Y/N) tried to reach out to her wand. Panic hits him. 'No, you idiotic badger! You have no change winning this. Not in that condition at least.' And with that, he steps on her wrist, preventing her making things worse for herself. Soon after, Wormtail escorted (Y/N) to the cellar and Severus used the Apparate spell to bring Tonks and Ted in Sirius's family home. Just when he's about to leave, Tonks steps forward. "Please keep her safe." she pleaded with broken voice. For a moment Severus stands there, back facing her. "I will." he finally said. And without a word, he vanished. Leaving Tonks with the baby baffled in middle of the entry way.
When Severus returned to Malfoys Manor, he asked to speak in private with Harold (Y/L). With smug attitude, Harold followed Severus to other room, thinking he finally gets announced to be part of the Death Eaters. But, as soon as Harold closed the door behind him and was about to turn to see the man, Severus whip his wand and used a spell to cut right across Harold's left eye. "ARGGHH..!!! WHAT THE HELL?!?!" Harold whines in pain shocked while holding the bleeding eye. The look on Severus eyes is dark as he stares at the crying man:"Didn't I tell you, if you'll touch a single hair out of her head, I will not hesitate to make you regret it?". "No, you didn't!!" Harold keeps whining in pain. "Really? Guess I forgot to mention." Severus answer with cold manner. "You fuckin..- Hhrr!!!" Harold struggles in pain. Even he lost his sight from that eye for good, Severus is still not fully satisfied by that, but thinks it's at least what he could do.
And then... One of the worst things happened. "I hate you." (Y/N)'s shuddered breath wheezles as she's crying on her knees after Sniffy died. It hit him like thousand daggers. Severus was never felt the Cruciato Curse himself, but this must be closest to it. To see the woman he loves so dearly, breaking into million pieces in front of him. Because of him... He hates himself. So much. All he ever wished to be able to protect her. Keep her close and protect her from any harm. But he failed... All he ever wanted to do was break down and hold her tight. Oh... How much it pains him not be able to do that. Voldemort's eyes and ears are everywhere. If his true feelings would come out to the Dark Lord, there is high change he will use it against him.
After bringing her back to Hogwarts Severus wondered for hours what he can do to make (Y/N) believe he really isn't on Lord Voldemort's side. She would never listen to him. Or at least wouldn't fully believe if he had the change to talk to her. And how could he? There are Lord Voldemort's allies everywhere. Ready to hear what he has to say and tear them apart. She wouldn't read a letter either if he wrote it to her... Then the idea came to him. 'Remembrall'. 'I want her to know the truth. Not only do I want her to know even I am a Death Eater, I am on Harry's side. But mostly, I want her to know... That I love her. With all my heart. Body and soul. More than the life itself. I would do anything for her. To make her smile again. To make her... Happy.' I love you, (Y/N). Now. Forever and... Always.
Soon, it all becomes unclear - like someone just started to wipe that watery ink all around and I lift my head from the Pensieve, quietly gasping. What the..? As I'm leaning against the Memory Pool, trying to wrap my head around all of this information, it takes a while to fully understand I'm back at the office again. Heart beating fast... Hands shaking... Shocked what I just saw, I start taking deep breaths. So he really is... On our side. There is mix of joy and sadness in my heart. Severus... I look around, only to see I'm still alone in Headmaster's Office. I started to wonder what should I do, but... My heart already knew the answer. I need to find him! With that, like my legs starts moving on their own, I run out of the office.