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The whole way up to the Headmaster's Office I kept following Snape couple meters behind. While watching the long cape trailing behind him, I can just feel my heart raising. I feel so nervous and quilt starts creeping in what I did. The silence isn't helping either! Then again, what else I was supposed to do?! Urgh! My Hufflepuff heart can't handle this!! My mind keeps going from 'it's okay, I got nothing to worry about' to 'nope, he's definitely going to kill me'. I just wish I'd be quick and painless. When we finally arrive there, Snape keeps on walking deeper into the room as I stop in middle of it. Right away, I start looking around from where I stand. Everything looks pretty much the same in the office. Or at least I can't notice anything different in here. It's almost like Dumbledore never left.
Snape's smooth and dangerously calm voice brings me back from my thoughts:"Heard you had a little... Altercation earlier today with our Dark Arts teacher.". My body tenses up a bit when he speaks and head snaps right towards him. He's so calm about this. I don't like it. When he gets near the big desk, he finally turns to me:"Care to enlighten me with your own words what really went down in the girls bathroom?". He continues to stand beside the desk and won't sit down. I do a small gulp before answering with serious tone:"I did what I had to. Amycus had no right running in to the girls bathroom like that.". "(Y/N), you are aware the Carrows are the ones who gives the discipline when needed. Running into the bathroom won't get you out of trouble. If anything, it'll make things worse..." he tells. "I dare to disagree, sir." I reply back sternly, standing my ground. "Really? How so?" he keeps staring at me with those dark eyes, waiting for me to continue. He clearly doesn't know... Or he just doesn't care.
Then, I start telling him what happened, keeping my tone stern and professional. To avoid Headmaster's intense eye contact at the same time, I start calmly wandering around the first level of the office, looking all the different pieces on the shelves and tables I never really had the time to look at whenever I have visited here. As I tell him what Amycus might have had in his mind when he ran after the student like that, the look on Snape's face stiffens. Bet Amycus left that important detail to tell. But when I get to the part where Amycus used the Unforgivable Curse on me and what his intentions were going to be, the look on Snape's eyes changed into darker one. Almost like the darkness itself consumed him. "So excuse you, if I defended the student and myself." I scoff while I'm about to touch the golden cabinet in the corner that has always fascinated me.
When he notices this, he comes back from the dark place:"Please keep your hands to yourself, (Y/N). We mustn't touch what isn't ours.". I stop the movement of my finger just before getting in touch with the cabinet. Snape then shifts his eyes from the cabinet back to me:"Why didn't you come straight to me when it happened?". "Well, believe it or not, you haven't been the most trust worthy lately..." I roll my eyes as taking a step away from the cabinet. No answer. The silence descends into the room. I finally raise my gaze up to him, heart raising. "Why did you do it?" I dare to ask. I'm not sure if I really wanna hear the answer. But I know I need to know. The look on his face won't change as he answers with the monotonic tone:"I was... Following orders.". Of course. Crossing arms over my chest, unsure if I'm satisfied by the answer he gave me. So he really is Voldemort's pet.
Another silence visits in the room. Now that I look at him... I notice how tired he looks. Like he hasn't slept good for days. And if I'm not terribly mistaken, seems that he has lost some weight too. I collect some bravery to ask the question that has been on my mind very long time:"Why didn't you tell me..- That you are one of them?". No answer. "I..-" the words gets stuck in my throat, but calm down my nerves and end up gain the courage to tell him:"I really thought you were someone I could trust, Severus.". No answer. Why is it always like this? Always the silence... I'm tired of this. I let out slightly frustrated sigh and turn my back on him as I'm about to walk out:"Like I'm speaking to Whomping Willow here.". Can't even take two full steps when Snape quickly turns into the black smoke and whooshes right in front of me, looking angry. Immediately I stop walking and watch the man eyes wide out of surprise. "I'm not done with you." he growls. Is this the part where I die?!
Panic raises inside me and I start slowly walking backwards:"Oh..- Uhm... I..-", "If it managed to escape from your notice, you made us understaffed because of your little trick earlier..." those dark eyes are staring right at me as he keeps walking calmly, yet strongly forward. Small frown visits on me:"Hey, it wasn't my fault! He's the one who..-", the back of my heel hits the stairs that leads up to the Headmaster's desk. My little pause won't stop Snape coming right at me, so I quickly start going up the few steps as I try to explain myself again:"He-he's the one who supposed to be in here with you. Not me!". The look on his face won't change:"Oh, I beg the differ, (Y/N). Out of all of the people in this school, you always seems to be the one who's in trouble in all times. And I believe it's time to fix that...".
Soon enough, my lower back gets in touch with the edge of the desk. Instinctively the palm of my hands goes rest against it to take some support. Bollocks. Got no time to move out of the way when Snape already made his way to stand right in front of me, leaving barely any space between us. He also places his hands to rest against the desk on both sides, trapping me in. I can feel his hot breath against my face. My heart is beating so fast as I stare back into his black eyes. Oh, Merlin I'm going to die! Even he has this dangerously dark look on his face, his eyes are soft:"Tell me... What it will take to make you behave?". What? For a moment my (e/c) eyes flickers between his, little bit taken aback by the question. What... Would it take?
My eyes visits on his lips, but quickly lift them back up to his eyes - wishing he didn't notice, but there is knowing look in his eyes. Oh, Merlin. I start to feel light headed. Like there is this inner battle in me between the heart and the brain. To think I'm not even under any curse, and I already feel like I can't resist this man. "I... Uh..." I try to stutter something clever out, but he presses himself more against me, leaving no choice, but to go sit on the edge of the table in slightly uncomfortable position. My heart skips a beat and face goes more red. What is he doing?! Now he's standing right between my legs, so there is no space left! "Tell me." Snape's eyes does a quick visit on my lips before coming back up to my eyes, waiting for me to say something. Damn it... You can't be this weak, (Y/N). You just can't!
Giving him the brave face, and just when I'm going to tell him to give me some space, my eyes widens out of surprise when I feel something hard growing to caress my groins. Huh? The look on Snape's eyes won't change as he speaks with the deep and seductive voice as he puts more weight on his hands that are resting on the desk:"May I remind you; you're mine, as well as... I am yours.". About to tell him that no longer applies, but all I get to do is open my mouth when he moves his pelvis against my area and..- I can feel it. Right in the sweet spot. A soft moan escapes from my mouth that I can not control:"Ah..-". As soon as that noise came out of me, his ears perks up. My face flames up in red and I turn my head away embarrassed. Noo! It just came out! I couldn't help it! "(Y/N)..." Snape whispers gently and brings his face close to my neck. His hot breath touches the skin which sends shivers go down my spine.
Without any warning, he gives a lick against the sensitive skin, making me flinch. "Hey..!!" I gasp, about to quickly hide my neck by turning my head back to look at him angrily, but Snape is fast to slide his hand up to grab me by the jaw and turns my head away, forcing me to keep the neck exposed. As he did that, few of his fingers gets tangled to the chain of the necklace. He then brings his lips very close to my ear and whispers with that deep voice:"Just say the word, (Y/N) and... I'll give it to you.". My face goes more red and heart starts beating fast. I can't think straight! Snape began gently and ever so slightly tracing the tip of his nose against my bare neck which makes me partly feel ticklish, but also eager to feel more of him. It's like my whole body is craving him to place those wonderful lips on me. Anywhere - and everywhere.
As he keeps teasing me, his free hand finds its way onto my hip, keeping me in place. His fingers digging in more and more as the hunger grows. And the worst part? With slow - teasing strokes, he got his bulge against my sweet spot... Rubbing from the right place thru the clothes which makes my breath go more intense, but I'm biting my bottom lip, trying so hard to keep my head in order and not to let out anymore signs of pleasure. The heat between my legs starts to build up and I'm really about to loose it. Fuck. Snape eventually pulls his face slightly away and forces me to now look directly at him by holding my by the jaw:"I need you to use your words...". What it would take... For me to behave? Since I'm not opening my mouth, he place his thumb over my lips and gently caresses them. My eyes lowers down back to his lips. Severus...
Soon, he presses the thumb little bit more forcefully against my lips, so they apart and he gets half of his thumb into my mouth. Instinctively, my tongue raises and gets in touch with it. There is hunger in Severus's eyes as he keeps the eye contact, intensively watching how I'm now looking up to him with hint of plead. "What's it going to be... Little badger?" he brings his face closer to mine. Those eyes... Those beautiful eyes. Oh, dear Merlin... We are so close, our breath has become one at this point. Heart beating fast, flush raising all over my body... "Remus." I finally let out. Light frown visits on Snape's face and he leans back, wondering if he heard me correctly. The feeling of his bulge leaving from where I feel hot the most gives me the space to breath and think more clearly again.
Thru all that flush, I show him stern glare:"...If you need more teachers here in the school, hire Remus.". Snape looks stunned for a moment, but ends up narrowing those dark eyes again and speaks with warning tone:"You dare... Speak another man's name with that pretty mouth of yours... In time like this?". He's clearly upset, but gritted his teeth not to show it. But I can't no longer entertain him like this. I need to keep my head in what matters the most. And that is keeping the students safe. I take a deeper inhale thru my nose before speaking:"You asked what it would take for me to behave. Hire him, and give him the proper salary to support his family. I promise not to cause any trouble.". "That... I can not do." he frowns annoyed. A small, somewhat nervous smirk creeps corner of my mouth:"You're clever man, Severus. Think you can figure something out. Just be glad I didn't say Sirius.".
As soon as the name 'Sirius' came out of my mouth, it sparks intense look in Snape's eyes and he tightens the grip around the necklace by crunching part of the chain inside his fist which forces me come closer to his face and he growls:"I'm soon going to make other uses for that overly large, bratty mouth of yo..-", "Headmaster?" someone calls from the entry and both of us quickly turn to look who it is. Alecto. For a quick moment, she looks a bit surprised to see us like this position, but soon an amused smirk creeps on her lips. After all - 'I am the Headmaster's whore', according to the Death Eaters. Snape keeps the annoyed glare at her:"Can't you see I'm busy? Wait down the stairs. I will call you when I'm done, Alecto.". She rolls her eyes and leaves the room. The heat on my body slowly goes down and I let out a gentle sigh to cool myself off. But that doesn't last long.
Right away Alecto leaves out of sight, Snape's head sharply turns to me with dark glare, still holding onto the chain around my neck inside his fist:"I'll give a fair warning, (Y/N)... If I'll catch you misbehaving like this again... I won't be holding back. You can be sure of it.". My heart skips a beat and he lets go of the chain, and the Remembrall falls down back onto my chest. He won't move out of the way much, but gives me the stare I'm no longer needed. My body brushes against his as I come down the desk and leave by his side. Headmaster's gaze follows me from where he stands as I start walking out of the office. "For your information, Headmaster. If you're expecting me to act like model teacher, at least you could do is buy me a Remembrall that actually works - not a broken ass junk." I scoff. No answer. Just when I get to the doorway, I turn to him with stern glare. I don't even haveto say it out loud what I'm thinking right now as he gets to say it first:"I'm afraid I can not grant what you asked. What comes to hiring Lupin..-", "It wasn't request." I reply in cold manner. It was an order.
With that, I turn around and leave the office. Snape watches me go and ends up gritting his teeth. He then covers his bulking trousers with the long cape with simple sweep. Phew! That was intense! Can feel how the flush on my cheeks starts to go down as I walk down the spiral stairs. That was so close. Don't know if I could have resist longer if we weren't interrupted. I'd need a medal for this. Just when I come to the bottom of the stairs, I see Alecto. Right away she lifts her eyes on me and that same unpleasant smirk appears on her lips:"That was quick.". Merlin, if I could just..- Quickly I calm down my nerves and keep the composure and just... Walk past her. There are million things I'd like to smite her with, but... I think I'm going to keep it all in. For now.
Couple days goes by, so it's Sunday now. I'm in my chamber, sitting on the sofa and reading a book while the fire flames in the fireplace. It's pretty cold here in the castle - a lot colder than used to. So I have no problem spending the whole Sunday here inside. And perhaps I'm trying to avoid running into the Headmaster as well... 'I'll give a fair warning, (Y/N)... If I'll catch you misbehaving like this again... I won't be holding back. You can be sure of it.' Blush raises up on my cheeks, even I try not to. Why am I like this? This isn't fair! My thoughts gets cut off when I hear knocking on the door. "Huh?" my head snaps right up from the book in my hands towards the sound. There is a little pause from the knocking, before it happens again. Who it might be?
Little bit hesitant, I toss the blanket to the side and got up from the sofa. Feeling nervous as I approach the door. Just when I get a grip on the doorknob, I hear awfully familiar voice calling:"(Y/N)?". My eyes widens and I swing the door open to see if I heard correctly. And I sure did. "Remus?!" I gasp. The look on my friend's face drops, like he wasn't really expecting to see me. "(Y/N)..-!" Remus let's out under his breath as he swoops to hug me. Our bodies thud heavily against each other. It takes me a second to comprehend this. It really is him! The feeling of joy and confusion fills me up, bringing some tears up in my eyes and I hug him back tightly. "Thought you were dead." Remus's breath shudders as he buries his face the crook of my neck. Well, part of me did die back there... There are millions of questions going thru my head now, but... Having one of my dearest friend here with me now makes me feel in peace.