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It was getting late. Around five pm we decided to head back home - and by 'home' we mean the Spinner's End. Since it would be way too late when arriving to Hogwarts by the train, and Severus's family home is on the way, why not spend the night there? That's why I took the luggage with me. It has everything I need for one night. But before leaving Remus's and Tonks's, I went upstairs to use the bathroom. Right after I thought everything that has happened today and use the toilet paper, I glance down and realize... My period has started. Ahw, shit... I sigh deep and start the cleaning operation. Luckily, the blood didn't manage to get on my underwear, but it's still annoying. Maybe there was this little hope in me that tonight was the night when Severus and I would... I shook my head and started to open some of the cabinets and drawers to see if Tonks got any pads stored in here.
Tonks had put Ted for his nap, so all four of them are waiting for me downstairs near the front door. Finally, I come down the stairs with usual smile on my face:"Alright then! Let's get going.". "You sure you got everything?" Tonks worries. "Yep, everything I need is right here." I smile and glance up to Severus who stands next to me. "Thank you again for coming to see Ted - and us. We'll see next time at the baptism." Remus smiles. "Of course! Wouldn't miss it for the world." I smile back. We then share our goodbye hugs while Severus patiently waits at the door. After giving my favorite couple the hugs, Sirius captures me in his arms and hugs me tight:"See you then, sweetheart.". Even I got my back facing the front door, I can feel how Severus sends daggers at Sirius with his glare. But Sirius just gives teasing smirk at him and hugs me longer on purpose. "O-okay... That's..- That's enough, Sirius. You had your fun, so just drop it." I kindly shove him off of me. "Can't help it, kid. You are just too darn cute." he laughs. Oh, dear Merlin.
We waved our goodbyes and left the house. For a moment Severus and I walk side by side, not saying a word. The air here outside is quite chilly. It actually might start raining soon. I finally break the silence:"It was nice seeing them.". No answer. I do feel somewhat bad the way Sirius managed to annoy Severus during the visit. I stop walking:"Hey.". He also stops after taking couple more steps and turns to look at me, ready to hear what I haveto say. "You do know you got nothing to worry about when it comes to Sirius - or anyone that matter. Right?" I ask with serious tone. "Yes. I'm not an insecure fool, (Y/N).". Before I can put a comment on that, he continues with calm manner:"But if I may add, I would appreciate it if you managed to put better boundaries towards people you don't feel comfortable sharing physical touch with.". He's right. Maybe I am being way too nice when it comes to breaking my own boundaries, there for... I'm kind of hurting Severus as well. "I'm sorry, Severus. I promise to work on that." I nod. "Apology accepted." he nods back and we start walking again. I'm glad we had this talk.
Severus keeps his gaze ahead:"But I can assure you, (Y/N)... When we get to Spinner's End, I will touch... Every single part of you wherever that fleabag touched. And more.". My face turns into red. The thought of his hands and lips all over me gives me the butterflies. But then the thought of what I realize in the bathroom stops the butterflies. "About that..." I start with timid voice. "Hm?" he shift his eyes on me. Looking up to him with apologetic way:"I got my period just before leaving the house. I..-", "(Y/N), I'm hurt if you think it got any affect whether or not I want to feel you close to me.". "Oh..." my voice goes small. Severus holds onto my hand, interlocking our fingers while maintaining the cool and calm manner:"Do we need to make a stop at the store? What you need?". Little bit surprised by this:"Ah, eh... N-no. No, I got everything I need in my luggage.". "Are you sure?" he ask. "Yes." I nod with shy smile. He's so sweet about this. "Well, then... Let's get in the house." he says and before I could react, he uses the Apparate spell and we vanish just before the rain started outside.
The spinning stops and I again almost loose my balance, but Severus got good grip of my hand in his, so I manage not to fall. "Wha..-?!" I gasp confused. We are standing at familiar looking entry way. Severus goes to put his long coat to the hanger:"Should we prepare the dinner now?". I'm still perplexed how we got in Spinner's End:"How..- I thought you couldn't use Apparate this far away?". "Of course I can." he simply reply. I turn to him with suspicious look:"Then why didn't you use it back when you saved me from the festival last summer?". Severus walks in to the kitchen like nothing:"Didn't feel like it.". What?! Not that it really matters now, but... I really thought he was telling the truth back then. Then, I just shook my head while pressing down a smile:"You really are... Sneaky snake, aren't you?". No answer. So I follow him in the kitchen.
After the dinner, we went to the sitting room to taste a wine he had in one of his cabinets. "How is it?" he ask while observing my reaction after taking the first sip. "Alright, I guess. Maybe little bit too bitter for my taste." I take a small sniff of the glass. "Should have guessed." he half heartedly rolls his eyes and goes to sit down on the armchair near the fireplace. At this point, it's raining pretty hard and it's dark outside. After closing the curtains, I come in front of him with playful smile:"Maybe you should start buying more sweet wines in here then.". Both of his eyebrows raise intrigued:"Oh?". Then, he spread his legs and placed his free hand from the wine glass on his thigh as in 'come sit on my lap'. With enticing smile, I sit down on his lap:"And after a while, you could start storage other nice and sweet things in here. Such as pads and chocolates, for starters.". His big hand smoothly caress my back up and down as he's looking up to me with amused smile:"And why would I do that, sweetheart?". "To keep me." I laugh jokingly.
Severus puts down the glass on a small table that is right next to the armchair, then gently takes the glass I'm holding and puts it away too:"If that's the case... I should head to the store right away.". I nod and continue the joke:"Uh-huh. Otherwise I need to leave.". There is this playful smirk on his face as he traces the hand that has been caressing my back, up to behind my neck while the other hand wraps around my waist:"There is just this... One problem in your plan, darling.". The way he just lowered his voice into seductive one gives me the shivers and I can't stop smiling. "What is it?" my voice turn into whisper as I stare back at him. Can see the fire from the fireplace reflecting from his beautiful dark eyes. "I won't ever let you go." he declared as he pulls me into passionate kiss. Right away I melt into it and we start kissing like there is no tomorrow.
As we keep kissing and fooling around, I start to feel something growing under my thigh while sitting on Severus's lap. Hm? I try to ignore the feeling, thinking I was just imagining things and continue making out with him. Until I feel it again, only this time a lot stronger. Instinctively, I pull away from his lips to catch a breath. He's also trying to settle down his breath while observing my reaction:"Everything alright, angel?". With gentle touch, he caress side of my cheek with his fingers. Realizing what it is that keeps poking under there and I try to regain the focus:"...Y-yeah.". Then, we both look down. Down where the pulsing movement keeps on throbbing. Light blush raises on Severus's face and he tries to brush it off:"Just ignore it.". How can I?! It's right there under my leg! "A... Are you sure?" I ask while blush raises up on my cheeks now. "Yes." he reply and pulls me into a kiss.
Don't know if it's the wine I had one sip from, or the fact that we can't go all the way like I originally had thought, but... I want... I want to make him feel good. I break the kiss again:"Severus...". He looks up to me, almost in apologetic way:"(Y/N), I..-", I quickly place a finger against his lips to hush him. Severus is slightly confused, yet intrigued why I did that. I keep staring into his black eyes with soft, yet determined look. "Would it be alright if I..." the words gets stuck on my throat and I do a small gulp while maintaining the eye contact. Immediately he knows what I'm after. By the look on his face, he really wasn't expecting that. He raise gentle smile and caress my cheek again:"You don't haveto.". I hold onto his hand and lean more to it:"But I want to.".
Before he can say anything, I got up from his lap and kneel down in front of him. Severus holds onto the arms of the chair with both hands and gives them a squeeze. Like he just got more turned on by the view, but tries to hide it. From my point of view, he looks very much like a man who has the authority here. Severus stares down to me with hint of hesitation. Not because he wouldn't want me to do it, but because he wants to be sure I want to. It's like I'm able to read his mind, so I place a hand on his thigh:"I'm serious.". "Very well. If you are absolutely sure. You can go ahead and... Do whatever you desire with me." he stated. After that, we give each other a soft smile and share a kiss to get back on track. I want him to feel as desired as he always makes me feel.
With slow - teasing way, I unbuckle his belt, unbutton his trousers and pull down the zipper. Already at this point Severus's breathing shudders, but he keeps the calm manner as he stares down my every move. Right away, I see the big bulking part of his undergarment. It's so big. Blush raises on my cheeks, but not out of nervousness or discomfort of any sort. I want to do this. I'm... Craving to do this. Starting of slow, I feel him thru the thin fabric at first. Getting the feel where I'm get myself into here. The feeling of his throbbing length against the palm, eagerly waiting for it's release... While doing small, teasing strokes with my hand, Severus tilts his head back and inhales thru his nose as his grip tightens around the arms of the chair. Like he's getting impatient. Don't want to keep him waiting, so I remove the piece of clothing that is in the way and slowly start working with my mouth his sensitive area that has been calling my name for a while now.
As the seconds goes by and the pleasure grew hotter, his chest start going up and down faster. Gently, he places one of his hand on top of my head to caress. When I start move my hand faster and lapping my tongue around his sensitive spot in teasing way, he lets out a moan. "You're... Doing it so well, darling." his breathing shudders, face slightly red. I keep going, putting more force and raise the speed. It's getting unbearable to him, so he starts to moan under his breath which actually is putting me on the edge as well in a way. In his ecstasy, Severus digs his fingers into my hair and moves his hand in the rhythm of my head. His voice starts to shake:"(Y/N)...". I keep on going. I can't stop. "..-/N)." he whimpers. Merlin, his voice... I keep on going. Then, he reaches his highest point and lets out a sharp gasp. Right away, I feel how he spills all of him inside my mouth. For some reason I wasn't prepared him to do it just yet, so I almost choke on it. Quickly, I pull away and start coughing.
Severus notices this while trying to get a hold of the present moment while he feels like his head is spinning:"Are you alright, darling?". "Yeah... I'm fine." I keep the gaze down as I try to recover from the 'sudden attack'. I swallowed it all..! This whole situation on my part makes me chuckle a bit, but I try to hold it all in just to make sure he won't feel like I'm laughing at him. Severus thinks I started crying, so he grabs me by the chin to look up to him:"(Y/N)..-", "Huh?" I look back at him confused. There is worry written all over his face:"Talk to me.". The smile creeps on my lips even I try my hardest to push it down:"I think I... I think I swallowed it all.". A small cough comes out of me after saying that. He realizes I wasn't crying and the wave of relief goes thru him. "I swear to Merlin, (Y/N)... You'll be the death of me." he mutters and leans back in the chair to take a breather. Now I can't hold the laugh any longer:"Sorry, Sev. Didn't mean to scare you.". He rubs his temples while resting the elbow on the arm of the chair:"Well, you did. Now I'm traumatized.". "My drama queen. You'll get over it." I joke.
Soon after, we both got ready for bed and took showers. While brushing my teeth in pyjamas, I keep looking at the pictures and portraits that has been placed on the walls in the dark wooded hallway. They are all some family members whose names I vaguely remember after Severus gave a quick run thru. He didn't seem to be too keen on explaining in details about them, so I didn't push it. By using my own imagination, I created their life stories in my head. Eventually, I stop in front of one of the small picture frame and stare at it. It's not just any picture, it's the one where his parents are in. Which is kind of rare since he seem to have get rid of everything else that remind him of them. Eileen and Tobias. Wonder what they would think of me if they were still here?
My thoughts gets cut off when I hear the old wooden floor make a sound as someone puts their weight on it. "Found anything interesting?" Severus walks up to me in his pyjamas after taking the shower. Giving him a fade smile and keep on brushing my teeth:"I found your parents.". "Ah..." he walks beside me. "Wonder how they would have feel about me... Dating their son." I wonder out loud. Severus sighs as he wraps his arms around me while standing behind and places his chin on top of my head:"Disliked you. Most likely.". "What?!" I exclaim. "Don't take it personally, dear. They never liked anyone that matter... Specially anyone as cheerful as you." he explain casually. Tilting my head back to see him:"Is that how you used to think too?".
There is a small pause before he speaks:"I'll admit, in the beginning... You were quite challenging for my nerves most of the time.". What?! There is that teasing smirk on his face again. I frown and turn my focus back to the pictures in front of us. "Well, jokes on you for ending up falling for me." I tease back and continue to brush. He chuckles softly:"Yes... I suppose you're right.". Then, he tightens the hold around me and I can feel how he places a kiss against my head. The feeling of his warm torso against my back thru these clothes makes my heart flutters and gentle smile creeps on my face. I'm too, fallen for you, Severus. So badly. Soon after that, we went to bed. Didn't take much time before both of us were out of it. In the darkness, we hold each other close while there is pouring rain outside.