Chapter 2
Did you ever learned at a point in your life that the person you have been for years isn't, in fact, really you ?
I did.
And i'm not even talking about having a "social personnality". No. I'm saying that all the things you thought were you, your personnality, what you could and couldn't be, what you were, isn't you. You have been a creation of yourself for years without knowing it. Even when your were alone in your bubble, it wasn't you, just the person you created.
For all this time, all you had to yourself was a tired and uncounscious person that you mistook for yourself. And then, one day, you slowly wake up. The creation is cracking up.
It doesnt belong anymore.
So you go drink water in your bathroom, and you look at someone in the mirror. Your skin has shed, and you don't recognize the new skin you now see.
There's someone else at the same place, but you have no idea who it is so you're starting to ask questions, and the more it answers the more you understand but also get confused at the same time like, really ???
You are me ?
I am you ?
This is who i am ?
I was hidden all this time ?
It's even slightly scary when you think about it. How we are capable to form and deform ourselves. Without even knowing it. But it's also so comforting to discover that i am, in fact, full or life and capable of living like myself. I still have a lot to re-learn but i'm already happy to see myself again. I very much like my loud voice, my singing, my joking and my specialities !
Thank you to the envelope who protected me, i'm glad i've come to peel you off.