“Moony?” Sirius calls out. Remus ignores him.
He’s been lying in bed with the curtains closed all day overthinking everything he’s done wrong in his life. He can’t count how many times he’s cried today. Hell, he’s crying right now. All that’s going through his head is ‘why me’.
“Moons, you okay in there?” Sirius says. Remus can hear his footsteps grow closer.
“Remus, I just need to know if you’re okay?” He’s standing right out side his closed curtains now.
Remus wipes his tears as best he can before sitting up. “I’m fine, pads.”
“Can I come in?” Sirius says and Remus could hear the concern in his boyfriend’s voice so he opened the curtains just enough for the other boy to slip in then closed them again.
Sirius lights his wand and Remus wishes he hadn’t since now Sirius can’t see his red puffy under eyes and tear stained cheeks.
“You’ve been crying.” Sirius states calmly not trying to make him cry more. Remus just looks down at his lap not wanting to face the other boy.
Sirius just pulls him close hugging him tight. Remus buries his head in the raven haired boys chest and cries. Sirius just holds him whispering words of endearment in his ears.
After a while Remus stops crying and mumbles something into Sirius’ chest.
“What did you say love?” Sirius says after not quite catching what Remus had said.
Remus finally looks up, eyes red and puffy, and asks what he’s been thinking all day. “Do you really love me?”
Sirius has to do a double take to make sure he had heard the boy in his arms right. “Of course I do,” Sirius says without hesitation. “I love you more than anything in the world. Actually scratch that anything in the universe”
Remus nods and lays his head back on Sirius’ chest. “Why do you ask?”
Remus sits up fully this time and shrugs. “I don’t know, my brain just kept telling me you don’t love me and none of my friends care about me and you only hang out with me because I’m sick all the time. And I’m a fucking werewolf.”
At this point Remus’ breathing has started to speed up and Sirius knew he had to do something or Remus would have a panic attack. “Hey, hey. Breathe.” He says bringing Remus’ hands up his chest so he can regulate his breathing and feel his normal breathing. “It’s okay. I’ve got you”
They stay like that until Remus is calmed down. Sirius reassuring him the whole time that their friends love him and care about him just as much as he does.
“Thank you.” Remus says.
“No problem. Just doing my duties as the most amazing boyfriend to ever walk the face of the earth” Sirius says grinning that grin Remus loves the most.
Remus kisses his boyfriend and in between kisses he says “you an idiot.”
“your idiot.” Sirius reminds him.
“I know.” Remus says with a sigh.
They sit there in silence for a moment before Remus breaks it and says “I’m hungry.”
“Oh yeah, that’s what I wanted to ask. James wants to know if you want to get with our friends?” Sirius asks
“Yeah I’d like that.” Remus says with a smile.
So, they get up and go get dinner with the people that they love most. And they know they are loved back.